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I have been this way for what seems like my entire life: when I feel stressed out about something, I organize. And when I say organize, I mean that in a pretty far-reaching way: organizing to me means not only organizing, but also cleaning, downsizing, basically anything that falls under the umbrella of getting my affairs in order. I don’t know how common this is among others. But I would like to at least try to explain why staying organized is so helpful to me.
Boredom and anxious thoughts coincide like clockwork--when you finish that assignment, when your shift ends, or when you turn off the light to go to sleep, your thoughts start to spiral. As soon as you allow your mind to wrap around itself, anxiety sets in.
Building self-esteem can require us to stretch beyond our limits, and sometimes our efforts may not bring us the results we hope for. When our self-esteem is poor, it's hard to keep ourselves motivated and positive. How do we continue to move forward after failing?
My name is Kate Beveridge, and I am a new blogger for the "More than Borderline" blog. I’m excited to share my personal story of living with borderline personality disorder (BPD) and tips for how to cope with the illness.
One of the most fascinating parts of dissociative identity disorder (DID) to people who don’t live with it on a daily basis is the concept of alters. Under the internal family system (IFS) theory, we all have parts of our personality that make us tick. While we may have one part that wants to eat a slice of cake, we might have another part that tells us to skip the empty calories. This isn’t so far from what people with DID experience.
Eating disorders are a deadly, but also, treatable mental illness. Still, in my early struggle to recover, there were many common eating disorder treatments that didn't work for me. Understand, I am not saying that they don't work for everyone. On the contrary, they work for countless people who suffer. This said, there is no one road to recovery...
For the last year or so, I have been doing a lot of work to process my childhood trauma. I've been in therapy, I've been taking medication, I've been doing outside reading, my therapist and I even found a way to work one of my favorite TV shows into my trauma work. In general, I think it's going really well, except for one problem: I don't know how to avoid causing my son the same trauma that happened to me.
If you’ve never self-harmed, you probably can’t understand why anyone would do such a thing. The notion of inflicting physical pain on oneself can seem illogical and terrifying. However, self-harm can often travel with dissociation symptoms. This means the person who self-injures might feel physically numb or have no recollection of the event.
I don't talk about my anxiety a lot. Part of that, I think, is because of how mental health stigma has shaped anxiety disorder as worries or thoughts that people can't seem to get past. It's difficult to explain to those people the depth of anxiety's impact, and sometimes even for those who do have a better concept and understanding of it, it can be tough to relay exactly how it feels.
Do you wake up sometimes and know it's going to be a bad day from the outset? I do. Sometimes before I put my feet on the floor, I know it's going to be a bad day. Now, I think, for the average non-sick person, this sounds like a self-fulfilling prophecy. In other words, if you think it's going to be a bad day, then it certainly will be. This is not the reality for a person with a chronic illness, though. Sometimes we know it's going to be a bad day. If you have this feeling sometimes, here's how to handle it.

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Sheena
While not hospitalised, I burnt out during covid lockdown. A fortnight later I tried to go back to work. 4 days later I admitted defeat. My doctor cheered! I am suffering from MDD. I fought to get back to “me’ but did not start to rise from the void until I accepted this was “me” , just another facet.
Kate Beveridge
Hi Lizanne,

Thanks for reading the post and taking the time to leave a comment. Thank you for your supportive words as well and hope to see your engagement with future posts!

Thanks,
Kate
Laura A. Barton
Thanks, Lizanne! That's exactly what I was going for with that part of this entry. I hope that it's helpful to others for the exact reasons you've pointed out and describing them as nurturing conversations is the perfect way to put it.
SHELLEE
Depression isn't our fault! But how we deal with it counts. Mine is lack of serotonin after 2nd child. Its been 35 yrs. Medication major help,but i still struggle. If all you can do is get out of bed & get dressed, congratulations 👏.
You've accomplished 2 positive things today. Even if you go back to bed! I have days that I do that all day long.
BUT,I have washed a dish,swept a floor,put something where it belongs.
Don't judge yourself by others standards! They aren't dealing with mind numbing depression. You are not lazy! Fight Fight Fight negatives! If you have a bad day & just sleep,don't beat yourself up over it. Today's a new day.
If your surrondings,clutter,unfinished projects depress & overwhelm you, admit it. Get someone,pay someone
to help deal with it for you! Give yourself the gift of a positive environment. Start fresh! If it doesn't make you happy,get rid of it!
Can't do that? Box it up & put out of sight! Im struggling today too!.
Now I will put my thoughts into action.
JESUS is the reason I am & he is there for me. He is there for all that knock & ask him to come into their 💕.

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Kim Berkley
Hi Ebony,

Thank you for sharing this story. I think your way of choosing to explain your self-harm is beautiful and gentle, and I am glad that you have found a way to share this truth with your brother and with other younger folk without overwhelming or frightening them. I hope others can take some inspiration and hope from your post!

Take care,
Kim