advertisement

Forgiving Yourself for Embarrassing Drunken Behavior

July 2, 2015 Becky Doyle

Have you ever made a total idiot out of yourself while drunk? Do you want to forgive yourself for embarrassing drunken behavior? Check out these four tips.

Forgiving yourself for embarrassing drunken behavior can be tough. Being drunk is one of the most common reasons behind people embarrassing themselves or being stupid. It’s pretty safe to assume that if you have been drunk, you have embarrassed yourself in some small, minor way. And if you’re an alcoholic, you might have some pretty epic stories of nights that ended in a major embarrassment to you or someone else. In some instances, those stories are laughable and can be shaken off or simply shared in jest. In other situations, these are the ghost and horror stories of our drinking days: embarrassing drunken nights never to be admitted or acknowledged in any way because the shame and embarrassment was too great. Embarrassing drunken stories that fueled me to drink more. If I drank more, it would be easy to forget my shame. It took me a long time to forgive myself for my embarrassing drunken behavior.

Now, as a sober, recovering alcoholic, I don’t have that escape anymore. I still have embarrassing moments and I still remember the most awful nights of my drinking days, but I deal with them differently. This is what I do.

Feeling Embarrassed from Your Drunken Behavior? Let Yourself Swear

Have you ever made a total idiot out of yourself while drunk? Do you want to forgive yourself for embarrassing drunken behavior? Check out these four tips.

If my mind is wandering while walking to my car and I remember a particularly embarrassing drunken moment, I will spontaneously start swearing under my breath. To someone walking next to me, it might be a bit alarming, but for me, it’s an instinctive action that actually makes me feel a little better. Swearing is actually good for you, as proven by a study in the United Kingdom, and helps relieve stress. You can release negative emotions and release emotional pain through swearing, so don’t resist it.

Forgive Yourself for Embarrassing Drunk Behavior by Recognizing Your Shame

Much like with addiction recovery, acknowledging your shame is the first part of accepting and recovering from it. A totally normal human emotion, shame, must be dealt with in order to learn, grow, and move forward from a haunting past.

Don’t Try to Rationalize Embarrassing Drunken Behavior

Alcoholism is not rational. If it were, there would not be so many unanswered questions about the disease of addiction. Therefore, trying to justify or explain your drunken antics is a lost cause. Especially because when active in an addiction, people often behave in ways that do not align with their own moral code. So if you’re dealing with shame, chances are you already know what you did was bad or embarrassing and no level of rational thought will make that go away.

Remember People You Have Forgiven

When all else fails, remember that at some point in your life, someone else had to ask you for forgiveness. How or why did you forgive them?

The highest form of love is forgiveness. The greater the offense, the more love is required to forgive that person. Double the amount of love required when you are forgiving yourself. This may be difficult to do, especially in early sobriety when self-loathing is usually at its peak. If you aren’t able to quickly identify five things you love about yourself, you need to adopt some daily practices to boost our self-esteem.

Shame and embarrassment are good reminders of how our alcoholism shaped our behavior, and not in a good way. But like everything, they are only good in moderation: too much shame hinders us and prevents us from living life fully. Work through the embarrassment to forgive yourself. Only then will the shame of your drunken past begin to fade to a memory devoid of pain.

Creative Commons photo attribution to mloberg.

You can find Becky on Facebook, Twitter, Google+ and her website.

APA Reference
Doyle, B. (2015, July 2). Forgiving Yourself for Embarrassing Drunken Behavior, HealthyPlace. Retrieved on 2019, July 20 from https://www.healthyplace.com/blogs/debunkingaddiction/2015/07/forgiving-yourself-for-embarrassing-drunken-behavior



Author: Becky Doyle

Too embarrased to add
says:
June, 20 2019 at 11:03 am
First off, thanks everyone for sharing! I too have had experiences I cannot explain when I am on alcohol. I went years wothout drinking like 4, only drinking like 3 times... Then I got with a man, and we would drink together... Things got so horrible it ended in divorce, he was a violent guy. So I got out of that relationship started to rebuild my life, ran into my love from when I was 19. We hit if off immediately. He was coming out of a bad relationship so, needless to say we started turning some of that bad previous behavior on eachother... We were drinking. Heavily, which caused me to make an ass of myself quite a few times, him too. I get so angry at him at times, between the alcohol and all the situations, the lying and the leaving, I have felt so alone. We make up and love eachother unconditionally, but there are times when I wonder if I would make better decisions alone.
There was a time in particular I cant get over, we went out with friends for a birthday, me and my man had to have that extra bottle of liquor, after that went to the local bar, had to pee so bad I went past the door lady, and went to pee when I came out they told me I needed to leave so I cussed them out, told the owner to suck my d**k... I dont even have a d**k.. I dont know why, it was so rude, this was a year ago. I went back a couple times, the bar maid said I needed to apologize to the owner, but she wouldnt let me in... I told her ok said her name, and told her I wouldn't be back to her establishment... Today I went in during the day, appologized to the owner, explaining I know it had been a year and I had a problem with drinking to much and I was very disrespectful and I wanted to apologize. He said you had acted similar to that a time or two before that incident and the situation with me coming in there was not going to change, I said I understand, I just wanted to right my wrong, then I left. I wish he could have forgiven me, leaving it like that does hurt a little, I have been going in there since I was a girl with my family, and also where I found my love. But I did what I could do to try to make it right. Now I have to try to make my life right, stay away from the alcohol, find the joy again, and see where my life is taking me. Alcohol has always been a problem for me, drinking too much its time for it to be a lesson and not a life sentence.
Nancy
says:
June, 9 2019 at 7:28 am
Hi, let me share my story too . I went to drink with my friends ( not reallyclose) to a bar . After awhile, I was totally drunk and my friends were telling me that I was away from them for nearly 10 mins and they are were saying tht I was lying down on the stairs and etc . I cannot believe that they let me go and have a walk after I was drunk . Guess what? When I was back home, my panty was missing. I’m really embarrassed. I really don’t know what happened. Can someone please advise me and make me feel better ? I am afraid that someone would have taken pics or videos of me
Sebastian
says:
June, 3 2019 at 5:25 pm
I would like to share something that I can’t get off my mind.
I went to my neighbors BBQ party on a Saturday evening, I was the youngest there,most of the people there were much older.I was drinking beers,chatting with people,everything was going great until a girl asked me if I wanted some gin( I agreed). I don’t exactly remember how much gin I had but it was enough for me to run to the toilet and throw up in the sink. I tried unclogging it but it was stuck.Because of my recklessness and drunken state I didn’t know what to do so I just left it. I normally don’t drink anymore because of my mental health but I made an exception there to be more chatty. I suffer from depression and anxiety so it’s impossible for me to feel comfortable around people.Long story short. I feel awfully guilty about what I’ve done. I’m really ashamed of my actions and I’m really sorry. I have locked myself in my room laying in a bed full of guilt and sorrow unable to cope with the outside world. I feel like it’s eating me from inside.I really hope you will read my apology,I’m sorry I couldn’t do it in person but believe me,writing it here feels like it(and also it’s impossible for me to tell you that in person). I hope you understand :(
Sheleah
says:
May, 20 2019 at 10:37 pm
I usually have anxiety after drinking heavily. Mostly it’s because I was loud or told someone something too personal and embarrassing about myself. However, there have been times when I would have rather broken my own knee caps than deal with what happened the night before.
I suffer from anxiety, badly, and when I do something while drinking my anxiety is nearly crippling the day after, or days, or months, or years...because yes, I still get embarrassed over things I said 17+ years ago.
ANYWAYS, here is my best coping mechanism, I hope it can help anyone who needs it! Disclaimer: This is in NO way a cure-all. Doing this usually gives me about 20 minutes of relief from the anxiety until I remember what happened again. 20 minutes of concentration so I can finish my work, shower, cook dinner, sleep...anything my anxiety can possibly keep me from doing. I do want to mention that after doing this for several years now my anxiety on certain situations has lessoned drastically. Maybe that will be the case for you if you end up liking it.
First I picture the situation(or as close to it as I can remember) and then I freeze the scene, as if pausing a movie. Next, I picture the walls and ground of wherever I am turning to stone, the people around me start turning to stone as well. Imagine it’s as if the stone is spreading. Finally, I turn myself to stone. This allows me to look at the situation from an outside perspective and since everything has been turned to stone it’s quiet and peaceful. Lastly, I picture all the stone being crushed into dust and blown away. I’m left with a clean slate.
Laura
says:
May, 15 2019 at 11:06 pm
One time I started making out with my brother’s friend in the backseat of my brother’s car while we were driving. The only problem was he was engaged and told me that and I actually told him it was okay and I was just drunk and that’s why I kissed him. Another time when drunk in a nightclub I started kissing a guy who was not into and got angry at me. Ugh so embarrassing. Any other time I was drunk and kissing a stranger they at least reciprocated lol. Another time I was at a reunion and started blabbering about different things in my life situation that made me unhappy like I was dating someone I wasn’t really into and I also have no kids but in reality I never really wanted kids so I’m not sure why I was even saying it lol.
Adi
says:
May, 6 2019 at 5:30 am
I feel obliged to share today what i did over this weekend due to my problem with alcohol.
Started the evening with some shots , moved onto many many rounds of beers, switched to whiskey at a very close friends anniversary party and that's when it all came rolling in. It seems I was so wasted that i instantly went savage mode. ( Mind you I rarely do go here ) I decided to hit on my friends mom's mate till she got really creeped out and left the party. I have the most respect for this family and I proved myself wrong again. Now I'm in self disbelief and shame , been recluse in my room and beating myself up. I have problems with alcohol and feeling loved . This caused me to chase a high I have longed for since my recent breakup. I hope that the family forgives me for my bigotry.
Emilia
says:
April, 30 2019 at 8:57 pm
These stories make me feel a little less alienated in my drunken behaivor but the guilt and shame I'm carrying over what happened 3 nights ago is going to stay with me for a long time. Long story short, I got engaged on Saturday afternoon and before the night ended my new fiance was arrested for allegedly assaulting me but I was actually the aggressor and I still don't know why they didn't take me instead of him. I don't remember a lot but I know we argued after coming home from celebrating, I COMPLETELY trashed our apartment, woke the whole neighborhood up because I was throwing glass candles and picture frames out of our second story window, cut my hand open and bled over every piece of furniture, every wall...I just can't even believe I am the same person that did all of this and I am in agony over my fiance being charged with committing a crime he didn't commit (I had a hand mark on my neck when the police showed up, but the handmark was from him pulling me off of him while I was biting, clawing at his face, punching him, etc.). He did everything right; he realized it was a dangerous situation and left and then called the police to have me removed but even after seeing the damage I did (it's so bad, you guys) they took him and charged him with a felony and I feel so ashamed, so so disgusted with myself and i don't know how to fix this. I didn't realize until this point that I have a dangerous relationship with alcohol and I just cannot drink. I drink and then I don't stop drinking. At least now i know I'm not alone. I just hope and pray that the love of my life isn't permanently effected by this one incident.
sad
says:
April, 28 2019 at 1:51 am
I decided to start reading these because being a person who suffers from tremendous amounts of anxiety on a day to day basis without the embarrassing drunken behavior, I'm immensely miserable at the moment. I went sober for three days one time since November but my drinking has been pretty consistent for a year now. Anyway, Friday night my boyfriend and I attended a party with his close friends in their house... Everything went really well for a while and I was super happy but it was one of those nights were you don't know you're actually drunk until you're shitfaced. I just met these people and i'm actually very fond of them and this is the happiest relationship i've ever been in and i don't want it to end. When i'm drunk my jealousy and anger comes out but when i'm sober i'm the least jealous/angry person you'll ever meet.. Late that night at like 4am my boyfriends ex girlfriend sends him a 10 mile long text message about how she wants to get back together (she's been harassing him for a while now) and he didn't want me to see it because it would upset me. Which set off all irrationalities in my head. So after being obnoxiously drunk in front of all of his friends and being loud and embarrassing and saying weird violent things i thought were funny at the time, we lay down on the floor to sleep for the night (there were also three other people in the room) and i start talking to him about his ex and it goes on and on until i'm just being blatantly mean to him and accusing him of wanting to cheat and not wanting to be with me and saying awful things.. Then i text this girls number and send really strange detailed death threats to her and at the time it was just a funny joke to me (i guess because i was blacked out.) I woke up at 9am to my boyfriend yelling on the phone at his step dad who had just saved my ass because the ex girlfriend was about to call the cops on me because i was being a crazy bitch. I feel horrible about all of this. I embarassed myself in front of his friends, I was acting crazy and jealous, I sent his ex girlfriend DEATH THREATS like a crazy and jealous person, his parents have most likely lost all respect for me, i hurt my boyfriends feelings and i'm feeling so much anxiety about all of this i just can't get over it. Every time i get too drunk i do stupid shit and i hate myself for it. I'm afraid i can't stop drinking and my boyfriend is gonna leave me because one of these days i'm gonna fuck up and say something really awful to him. I'm gonna try to be sober from now on but it's so hard.. My life is truly falling apart i've lost my job, i'm homeless, my car is breaking, my family and friends don't talk to me anymore and i'm afraid of losing more things i love due to my drinking problem. I need help i don't know what to do anymore i'm having a hard time coping with all of this.
Martin
says:
April, 26 2019 at 7:54 pm
Ugh, once I did an incredibly stupid thing when drunk. I was wasted at a club and saw the girl I liked kissing some other guy. In my drunken stupidity, I didn't think 'Oh, she's with another guy', I thought 'Aw, sweet, she's making out with people, guess it's my turn!' and I grabbed her and pulled her towards me to try and kiss her, obviously she pulled away and stared at me, shocked and disgusted. Immediately security grabbed me and threw me out, it looked worse than it was, I think they thought I was trying to sexually assault her, it wasn't quite as bad as it looked, but I still feel really ashamed of trying to forcefully come onto her like that. Ughhhhh, I know I didn't rape anyone orecommend anything, but I feel really horrible for thinking and acting the way I did, drunk or not.
DaveS
says:
April, 8 2019 at 5:45 am
I came here looking for support to try and help me through yet another drunken episode. I went out Saturday, got absolutely wasted and remember very little of the day. I woke up the next morning trying to piece together the evening before, but I can't remember a thing. Then I get the messages come through, "do you remember doing this...?". And then the whole reality of it kicks in. What did I to, what did I say? This is the hard part, not remembering, being so out of control, anything could have happened. Because I can't remember, I fear the worst, where in reality, I was probably just a little loud and annoying, and I do swear quite a lot when I'm drunk. Also, someones perception of the events will be be different to how you think it was. You might be dying of shame inside, you were just the talking point of the evening and no-one gives you a second thought. Can you remember the last drunk person you saw out? What did you think of their behaviour? And a week later, did you think about them? Probably not as we don't have time to worry about other peoples mistakes. In time, people will forget, we all make mistakes, drunken or not, we are only human. This doesn't justify what we have done, I think the most important thing is that we show remorse for our actions. Apologise to anyone we may have hurt and if they care about you, they will forgive you. Secondly, if alcohol is a trigger then avoid it, completely. If, you are like me, I can't just have one drink. I need to get obliterated. I've ruined so many of my nights out purely because I can't remember what I did. I can live with the guilt of being drunk and acting like an idiot, it's how my friends perceive me that bothers me. I don't want to be "that guy" who always gets drunk when we go out. So, I have decided the only way forward is not to drink. Its going to be tough as I do have social anxiety hence the excessive drinking. I can't wake up feeling like this again.
Anonymoys
says:
March, 22 2019 at 6:13 am
I am writing here in the hopes that maybe sharing this will make me feel better. So I went out with a few friends (who i have not known for long at all) to a club the other day and had some shots. I remember dancing and having so much fun in there, I don’t remember having more than four vodka shots which I usually handle pretty well. However, the next thing I remember is waking up from a hospital in the morning still completely out of it. I just gathered my things and said goodbye without even asking what happened. I even got lost on my way home from there and managed somehow to call a taxi for myself. When I got home I had numerous messages from friends telling me that there’s no need to worry that I had just suddenly lost all my power while dancing, thrown up at the toilets and then totally passed out and they had called an ambulance on me and came with me to the hospital. I do not remember anything of this at all. I had puke and blood all over my clothes when I left the hospital and I had needle marks from having the drip and blood taken out of me. My friends were being so nice and some of them said that it’s suspected that my drink had been spiked. Regardless I’m feeling so embarassed for ending up in a hospital on a simple night out and having my friends worry and look after me. Especially not knowing whether I got into that situation myself or if I was spiked and not remembering absolutely anything that happened. I know things could have been a lot worse and apparently I had not said or done anything embarassing according to one of my mates, and I did express my gratefulness to all of them afterwards but I just really wish I could erase the whole night. I called my ex boyfriend whom I’m still really good friends with in the morning and he said that it’s alright we’ve all been there once or more and that made me feel better and I guess that’s why I’m here.
Anon
says:
March, 19 2019 at 11:15 am
Not too long ago I(a girl) got drunk and thought it was a good idea to make out with this girl in the middle of the club. It got abit heated and appretly their were videos taken by people I know. Eventually I got home and refused to go inside so I slept with my dog in the garage outside... please give me you advise I feel like a disaster.
Ravishankar
says:
March, 17 2019 at 9:10 am
I am too early, trying to quit this alcohol. 2 days before in my office party, drunk heavily and fell down in front of all my subordinates and colleagues. Got hurt severely on my forehead (bleeding forehead) felt ashamed really and I lost respect too...I need to forget this... Can anyone suggest?
K
says:
March, 17 2019 at 12:51 am
My friend and I got drunk together and I completely backed out with vague memories of what happened, I thought it was just a little oopsie because you do stupid things when you’re drunk. But it wasn’t. It was so much worse. I remember making advances on my friend but when they said what actually happened I don’t know how I can live with myself anymore. I just wouldn’t leave them alone and I was kept on trying to make stuff happen to the point where my friend was crying and I didn’t even know. It could have been much much worse, but I didn’t even realize how unsafe and scared my friend was in that moment. I didn’t even remember what happened. I said all that I could to him and I’m giving him space. I can’t stop thinking about how damaged and betrayed they must feel. That your best friend just completely abused you when you were expecting a fun night with a friend. I know we won’t ever be friends again, and I don’t even care if they forgive me. I want them to be okay. I don’t know how to forgive myself because it feels like more that just embarrassment. My drunkenness didn’t only affect me, it hurt others. Which I can stand. I don’t even drink often, but every time I do, it’s awful. Escpecially this time.
Ajax
says:
February, 24 2019 at 6:45 pm
I used to be a heavy drinker, like 3-8 beers a day heavy. Never did anything stupid to the level of embaressment; we all we drinking and it was understood to my friends crazy stuff may just hapen so we all took silly brawls, stupid comments and property destruction with a grain of salt. That is if ammends were made of course. My drininking didn't really stop but since 2015 it was at the point of like 1 beer a week. The other night I drank because of nervousness; and low self esteem and the feeling was givng me majori issues. I ended up blacking in and out; and my activities during this time (thank the universe) were only in my own home with 2 of my best friends.

I was rambling, I was trespassing in my roommate's room (above friend #1) blatantly just taking things and tossing them around. I would k eep going in my room and saying I was ok, let me lie down, then under 10 seconds I'd be walking out into the living room again and acting a general moronic dickhead as if nothing happened.. I kept saying the same things, i was reading aloud my thoughts. How much or what I drank is irrelevant to my post here. I was blacked out is the issue. The details are to myself spared as it pains me to think im even capable of what I was told i was doing. I remember a bit of the worst.... I took a shower, got out fully nude no care in my mind stumbled around "acting normal" and walked into the living room and sat down on the tv couch in full glorious view of two people I really have respect for as a clear headed mindset. But no, it was as if being soaking wet, dishevel and nude was normal. GOD how could this have happened. is all i keep saying. I must have thought I was clothed or at least covered. I fear this is really going to ruin friend #1 \ 2 and my own relationship wioth myself which isn't great all the time anyway.

Once i sobered up I just played recluse in my room . 1# he took my dog out, the trash dishes etc. Once my shaking hands (they still are sorry for any typos) and nerve was adequate he asked if i was clear headed, I said yes. He told me we've had this convo 11 times in the past 2 hours last night. So I sat there and he sure let me have it. I didn't even know what to say I was jaw dropped. He told me what I had did, previously it was all just a blur. I knew something bad had happened but not what. He started bringing up past events, attributes on my personality and mindset generally in life which were shocking as he had never mentioned any of these events as having such a lasting impact. I understand that concept of empathy; im not a sociopath, but it only pushed my grief and pain and shame deeper down. I was so distraught I panicked and asked why he didn't tell me before, I asked why he didnt he said I'm a grown man I should know. He pulled the scalding father card "youre lucky we didnt kick your ass or knock you out' etc... His response was seething anger. His main tangent of arguing was that this is an ongoing issue. Not the drinkking or the INSANE drunk criminal behavior, but just aspects of what Ive done on impulse day to day that bother him. For example once I ate a few ceral bars and took a pack of smokes from him. We've been friends years, and each those times I made it right after him catching me red handed (strawberry filled bars) and for the latter I just straight up admitted it to him. He forgave me then. I took responsibility. He then went on and brought up things I didn't know about or even realize were HUGELY bothering him. I will omit the details but its similarly comparable in level of dastardliness to when I went into with entering his room while he's at work to say grab a pen or a pair of shorts. Those are examples and yes it's wrong to not ask an do that. Plain and simple. I know that and I never did those kind of thiings again. It's impulsive my stupid mind; it needs to be told not to do things otherwise my impuslivity will kiill me, He mentioned "he can't bring people over" becausae he's "afraid" I would offend. Not, buy drinking or acting a loon but just who I Am. I speak my mind so I get that people don't like to hear the truth. This is something I will work on now that it has hurt others. All this must have been his anger at me spilling over into other aspects of our living situation. GOing back into the previous night, he slayed me out some more: I was apparently also disrespectful verbally, and mumbling to people who weren't there; hallucinating and mumbling to my self incoherently. I was 0-100 with my impulse. How can I get him to believe me that I have learned and will by GOD NEVER do this. Im shaking crying and in so much shame but so defeated I can't even bear myself. Is that empathy? is that guiilt? I really feel I deserve the chance to prove that this was isolated; yet i twas so extreme how can I ever not forget but move on? I had no regard for anyone or theyre respect or dignity. I mean I committed indecent exposure essentially. Thats illegal here in the states! I didn't get sick or pass-out... I wish i did. I Just kept coming out my room nude 3 or 4 times, taking stuff that wasnt mine or moving our furniture. My friend (if he still is) 2 left in apparent disgust. I must have humiliated him and embarrassed not only me but especially those who trust me. I'm so overridden with pain now. Drinking never turned its back until Yesterday Feb 22 2018. I honestly can forgive myself, I honestly can move on, I know that honestly God forgives me or whatever the concept forgives me.

Next steps are improvement only. That has become my newfound M.O. No more booze. I feel i have the passion to follow through with that, as I have many aspirations and passions and dreams. I feel i can conceptualize this because I am mentally fit personality wise but i Know i must suffer from something else, like a physiological mental illness that causes this. Although, is it really too much to ask someone who claims to be your good close friend, someone who didn't beat the %%%% out of me when i deserved it the most, someone so accepting to the point where it bottles and burst out of them to keep me in line for his own sanity? For at least his own peace of mind.

Well...

It's the next next day now I had to take off time to myself and basically recluse in my room circling all that I did and remembered and beating myself badly.. i mean really doing a number. Nothing anyone could say to me has hurt me as much as I beat myself up. It will be soon he's home again... and as far as his demeanor it's been ignore, walk by or quick Hi, and his here or there. I really wanna know how to approach this. During the initial brief convo today earlier he didn't want to talk or hear my subjective experience. IS that important for him? I believe it should have been addressed at once so he can feel the empathy or at least feel sorry for me... Why did he bottle it up, all these minor things, things i would have gladly undone, changed or affirm and make right. Why did he wait until I do the ultimate stupid thing of my past 27 years. I told him (since nothing was broken) I would clean up the house and make it back to normal i.e. make it right physically. I asked for basic forgiveness with a valid sincere "brother I have made a bad judgement and my actions/behavior were incomprehensibly inexcusable" He didn't forgive me I think, at least didn't say it and albeit amicable he was not wanting to hear it I could tell.

It's a few hours later and he is a lot chipper. I'm still a dead mess mentally. I am so ashamed. I want to lay out how I feel to him, but first ask him what is an appropriate set of boundaries to frame around the conversation. He was on the phone as I type. I told him real quick I wanted to talk.. Its al I can do, but I may never forgive my self. Just learn from my own actions and learn from the words of people who care about you. Maybe it will end up taking going our sepparate ways, which is sad and I will have that chip on me my whole life. I accept life for what it throws at you now though, and I just have to start rolling with it and quit worrying about what people think of me. They aren't important, not when my own mental anguish is causing my issues. It comes off callus but its the best thing I can think of doing now if we arent' on improved or amicable terms after this travesty. Advise? What do you think I should have done differently and do next? I know im a responsible adult but is it so bad to ask for a little outside accountability? Not baby sit just if someone says they are a good friend why is that such a difficult thing? This whole situation could have been avoided, (not me drinking, just friends 1 and 2 helping someone obivously in need instaid of just waiting it out and hating me for it.... I've been told I hold others accountable with their mistakes and they have thanked me. I wish someone can clear up my turbulent mind and make sense of this all for me. Please I can take all the shame humilation but I can't understand how this could have happened the way it did. When I asked friend 1 said "we tried closing you in your room, and locking the door" but my door doesn't lock he knows that.... Idk ive got so much cognitive dissonance IDK what im going to do.


simon
says:
February, 23 2019 at 11:55 am
I am struggling with self forgiveness months after a bad day on the booze. Weirdly this article and reading everyone else's story in the comment section has made me feel a bit better so I guess it's only fair to share.
My sweet best friend paid for me to come visit and attend an event with her and her friends - this involved weeks of excitement. On the day, I experimented with tequila for the first time (bad idea) and got too drunk to the point where I blacked out. The next day I discovered I had done some pretty horrible things; pushed people, attempted to start fights, cursed at her friends and basically just be an a** for most of the day. Alcohol usually doesn't have this affect on me and blacking out is super rare. I feel like I would be able to forgive myself easily in different circumstances but letting my best friend down like that makes me feel sick to my stomach months late =[ She has forgave me but it is going to make me even more time to forgive myself.
Bee11
says:
December, 28 2018 at 11:44 am
I ruined Christmas AGAIN because of booze! FML! I had started a new relationship summer of '17... Finally, I met the man of my dreams... I adore him and still do however he is not feeling the same towards me... especially after the episode this Christmas Eve. I can't drink....plain and simple and I am completely embarrassed of my behavior...and extremely depressed because I have lost him. Let's go back to a few months after we met.... episode 1... We were having drinks and once again I had way more than I could handle and insecurity not feeling good enough started creeping in.... Started telling him to go back to his ex and family and that he didn't love me. The next day I felt so ashamed...and apologized. He forgave me thank goodness. Now lets one year ago.... Episode 2... We are fairly new couple, our first Christmas together- we were head over heels for eachother and so happy that we found eachother (we are in our 40's and was new to the dating game ) A couple of nights before Christmas I had my friend in town for the holidays so naturally she came over to visit me. This is the first time for her meeting him and we had a blast! Then another friend came over ( was not invited by me but by the friend who was visititing) I had recently just started talking again to this "friend" after over a year of not talking so our relationship was still shaky. By the time she arrived I was already buzzing pretty good and my crazy mind was going...I could feel insecurity running thru my mind. Both of the friends left for a moment to go grab ice. During that time I lashed out at my boyfriend accusing him starring at the friend #2... Screaming at him that he was smittened with her etc.... saying some pretty mean things that he did not deserve He ended up leaving my house and I continued to drink by myself , In a rage... throwing presents, crying etc. This continued well into the next day. My neighbor called the cops and I received a noise complaint and a fine. I don't remember talking to the police at the door. My daughter filled me with the details as she came to my house at some point during my drinking bindge... After 2 days of drinking, it was time for me to hide in my bed, die with a hangover and hate myself for my behavior. My boyfriend came back, and told me he loved me and took care of me. He forgave me for my actions. I was so grateful that he still loved me. We put it behind us and enjoyed what was left of the holidays. Now lets move onto Episode 3 ... In May we went to Cuba for a week.... 2 Nd day in once again I drank too much and started a fight....that he wasn't attracted to me , that he didn't love me and so on. Needless to say he was hurt and upset with me a didn't talk to me for a good day... I apologized once again and asked him if we can please just enjoy the rest of our trip and It's best that I don't drink too much... We started speaking to eachother but through the rest of the trip it was off... I could feel the distance...I really fucked up and he was pulling away from me ... We arrived home and things started to get back to loving normalcy for us..... Months go by and we are back to the lovingcouple that I adored until one night this November....we are having wine....again I am drinking way too much... Started getting rude and saying mean things...shit he doesn't deserve. He told me he hates when I drink that I am a different person and that he is sick of it. He went to bed.... I slept on the couch. He didn't speak to me for a good couple of days...I begged him for his forgiveness and that I was sorry again... He told me the next time I treat him like that again that he is done with me. That he is not putting up with it.... he says in one breath that I am an alcoholic then says he don't care if I drink but I can't act the way I do and treat him so horribly or hes gone .... Now lets bring you to this Christmas Eve.... We go out, finish our shipping, come home have a beautiful seafood dinner and WINE..... Well I guess u know what happens next... Yep I drink too much and we are fighting , screaming at eachother.... He smashed our pictures.... Told me we were done..( as he said would happen if this shit happened again).... Woke up the next day (Xmas day) and cried ....so ashamed .... Gifts still sitting under our tree, him not speaking to me, my family worried about us, it is 4 days after the he does not want to talk to me. I have tried to communicate with him but he doesn't want to talk to me I seriously ruined it....I have contacted AA for some help.... I know full well I cannot drink...That it had ruined and will continue to ruin everything in my life. I have been feeling ashamed, sad, angry, lonely for days...all because of my alcoholic behavior. I Quit... I am done. I have a long road ahead of me but I will do this. Losing my love may be the savoir I need. Kills me that I hurt him so much.... So ashamed but hopefully in time we will both heal. Thanks for listening to me. Be good to one another xo
Alyssa
says:
December, 23 2018 at 8:51 pm
Two nights ago I went to my girlfriend's family Christmas party. This was my third time going with her. They have one every year . I hung out with my buddy before meeting my girlfriend to head there. I had a Steelie and a tall can of keystone ice with my buddy then I went to go meet my girlfriend.
Already she could tell I was a little buzzed but I said I was fine. She stops at the gas station on the way there and gets a case of budlight. Immidiately when we go inside her uncle's house all the family is already there and I take the beer and set it on the bar ( her uncle has a built in bar at his house pretty cool) anyway I start drinking more. The night goes on and I think I was already down three beers then I notice the whiskey so I take a shot of whiskey. And then another. That's all the alcohol I remember drinking that night.
Anyway after awhile she told me I need to slow down because I'm the drunkest one there and I'm getting on people's nerves. But apparently I didn't stop. I woke up the next day in my bed and they told me stories of what happened.
Apparently I almost fell on her aunt and her aunt's newbord baby, one of her other family members told her to get me away from her 13 year old son cuz I was talking to him and being drunk and swearing. I don't remember leaving at all. But she told me one of her aunt's breathalyzed me and I blew a 0.27.
She said we left and I was too drunk to go home (we live with my parents and I'm already on strike 2 of coming home belligerent) so we met up with some friends and went to a punk show and I guess I was hanging out with everyone and running up and down the parking lot and acting like a damn fool. They found me with a group of people who I thought I knew but when my cousin found me the people said "thank you for getting her we don't even know who she is". I swear I knew them idk. I have some flashbacks but I don't know what's real or not. Then apparently I got into a fight with my girlfriend and said hurtful shit and then I tried to punch one of my best friends in the head for no reason. Like idk they said I was being really scary and then sometimes funny and then really effing annoying. My girlfriend said I embarrassed her so bad at her families Christmas party and I seriously have been feeling so bad about myself and about that night. I made a fool of myself. I have an alcohol problem but I acknolodge it but then I don't want to be an alcoholic. I want to be able to drink and not black out but every single time I say I can have a couple beers and chill it always turns into me getting so messed up I can't remember things and do foolish and embarrassing things and make people angry. Everyone knows that when I start drinking they're gonna have to deal with my dumbass. I always wake up with such bad hangovers. I can't drink in moderation.
I tried to fight my mom one night. I think I need treatment. I'm just sad.
Buz
says:
December, 7 2018 at 8:35 pm
Thanks for sharing everyone. I'm Feeling awful. I told a girl to f off last night. I was in the wrong and just reacted to her speaking rudely to me. Was like ok I'm in the wrong but you don't have to be rude. So now I'll be rude back but i went overboard.
There's always some truth to what you say when your drunk. Points out I have an issue in dealing with this in real life.
It was at the end of a work Christmas party. Most people had gone and it was a stranger. I'm so ashamed and embarrassed. Worried that work will find out and I'll ruin my career.
In the scheme of things compared with what others have experienced maybe it doesn't sound bad. I've been working hard on myself and it's like... really? Wtf are you doing. Ive done lots of other things I'm not proud of when drunk in life but not so much these days.
I'm going to try forgive myself. I can't apologize as it was a stranger. Pray the girl recognises that I was a drunken fool and doesn't take it to heart.
For those with humiliating stories. I empathize with you. We all have made mistakes. You will get past this. How? By learning from them. You can change. If you repeat the process then you can try again. This never stops.
Natalie Brooke
says:
December, 4 2018 at 3:41 pm
Hi. I really need help I went on my works night due and everything was great to start with. I was really nervous cos my bosses family was there cos they are only 3 of Han where I work. Anyway one second I wasn’t great the next minute I was in hospital crying to my boss. I have no idea what happened i completely blacked out and I’m so embarrassed bear in mind i was the second youngest there but anyway I went to work today and was so scared and embarrassed to go but my boss messaged me over the weekend asking how I was and stuff I did apologise to her daughters and and my colleague but I still was scared. I got to work and she said I am so disgusted with you I can’t bear look to look at you. You ruined the night for everyone. And hearing all this really makes me wants to end my life. I have depression and I drink to numb the feeling but I’m the past it’s been fine I did have on every night where I tried to kill myself but the police stopped me and I didn’t tell my boss or anyone’s for tht matter only my collegue at work. I’m only 19 and I have ruined everything my boss hates me and so doesn’t her whole family and they have every right to but I don’t know what happened one minute I wasn’t talking to this guy and he buys me a drink we get along and next i was told I could barely walk and I keep crying and trying to say things but it’s isn’t coming out and then I started having a fit infront of my bosses daughter. But before tht apparently I was trying to bite my wrists. And no one knew why. But when they said tht to me I know why would do that. I scratched and bite wrists when I was in high school to try and kill myself and I do it when I get very low and go into a dark place and I’m afraid I’m in it again anf I cant find my way out. And the only way to get out if the embarrassment is to end my life. I guess the answer I’m hopjng for is maybe someone’s has done something like this before and if so how’s long do you feel this way. Cos I really need help and don’t be know how to ask.
Buz
says:
December, 7 2018 at 8:51 pm
I'm feeling for you Natalie. I wanted to write just because I was worried for you.
You made a mistake. Your boss hasn't made it easy on you either. Providing no empathy for what happened. That's very harsh. You have beaten yourself up enough about this. You need to be kind to you. If you were giving advice to a friend who went through the same thing what would you say to them? You would be compassionate and sympathetic. Give that to yourself. In regards to work all you can do is apologize which no doubt you have done. You turned up to work and faced things. That would have been so hard. Thats amazing.
If it's no good working there after a little while if it's possible you could consider getting a job somewhere else.
Your going to be ok.
Jax
says:
November, 15 2018 at 9:34 am
I also have a stupid drunken moment that I feel so ashamed and embarrassed.. the other night I went out with friends and then when they were going home I got dropped off at a bar to meet one on my girlfriends ... and I was already prettt drunk I dunno why I just didn’t go home then ... so I went to the bar and I lost control had tonz of shots and drink tonz And I totally blacked out .. and my friend told me the next day that I was totally wasted I feel asleep on the bench made out with some guy and then tried to hit some girl that I got kicked out and then just asked someone for a ride home ... and lucky made it home alright .... and the next day I felt so bad cuz it’s not the first time somethingbad happens .. I’ve decided to quit drinking but I would just like to be able to forgive myself and stop thinking about that night
E
says:
November, 12 2018 at 4:12 am
I drank over the weekend for the first time since new years as alcohol doesn't really sit well with me; and again I proved myself why I shouldnt have bothered. Each time I drink, for some reason I end up in an argument with my partner. Its never her, always me - over the most stupid reasons. I really love her, and it'd kill me if I lost her, she means the world but each time I drink, im embarrasing, horrible and I dont understand why she stays with me? She loves to go out and have a drink with her friends and dance, and she feels safe when I come along but it always seems to end the same way no matter what I drink, it just turns me nasty. I love this girl to pieces, I want to go out with her and dance, have a nice time but I feel like if i carry on she wont stay with me, because why should she have to? I don't act this way on purpose and waking up being told and reading the messages that i sent have just made me feel sick to my stomach, because none of the things I said are remotely true. I am so full of sorry's, I feel like I cant say it enough because the damage is already done. It was my first time meeting her Best Friend and her partner, and i've just made myself look like a cock all because I got jealous over something whilst being a little too drunk and kicking off about it.. I just wish this hadnt have happened, drunk me just seems to overthink without the thinking and just acts on things that arent even true. Right now I dont know what to do, I love my girlfriend so much and I don't want her to leave; but at the same time, I dont want to make her have to put up with this each time she'd like us to have a drink together, so i think im screwed :(
Rudy
says:
November, 10 2018 at 5:04 am
I'm back! Yes it's 3:46 a.m. in the morning, and I'm obliterated. Yeah I went out drinking all kinds of rum and tequila. Oh yeah and tonight's feature, I went around telling people all kinds of things I did that were not true I was making them up to look good. Because you know I'm just not good enough Who I Am by myself I got to be something better something cooler then what I really am. The reason I'm documenting this, so that other people may find some kind of Soace that they're not alone. I'm so incredibly shamed of myself and everything I've done. My wife was so angry when she left last night and I didn't give a f***? All this is my fault all of this is my responsibility. Just 24 hours ago I was posting on this or something much less less embarrassing. Just so you know my wife is probably going to leave me because my drinking. And I don't blame her one bit. How can I expect her to watch somebody she loves kill themselves slowly each day. Just when I thought things were going to get any worse LOL guess what? My worst nightmare Happened. I'm such a loser! My sweet wife just wants me to be healthy and sober. And she's just tired of the alcohol? She works so hard, deserve way better than me. Like I said this morning, I went right out and bought another bottle. I lied to people for no reason, I'm the worst sorry excuse for a human!
Rudy
says:
November, 9 2018 at 8:34 am
Thank you everyone, all of your painful, heartfelt stories really helped me feel like I'm not alone. I drink. I drink alot, I drink every day and in the morning too. I like tequila and it only know how to party.I woke up today and am doing my daily self beating over feeling like the biggest Loser.I really want to quit and I cant? It's scaring the shit out of me. I take Methadone for pain, and I'm drinking over a pint every night or more? I'm afraid that I might go to bed and never wake up? So many things I wish I could take back, just this recurring nightmare that I can't control! FML! I've got to get through today and not drink! I have to but I'm probably gonna go get a fucking bottle as soon as the liquor store opens. I feel so useless.
David
says:
October, 27 2018 at 6:34 am
I was embarrassingly drunk last night at a work party and it has been eating at me.
I am so glad for this article and all the comments; very helpful for me to deal with my embarrassment feelings.
Thank you.
will i be forgiven
says:
October, 20 2018 at 4:53 pm
REGRETS for the past two years. I really need help on this. I have deep regrets over my drunken behavior. First, I exposed my HIV positive status before a multitude of villagers and became a laughing stock. I sank in depression and got into more drinking. I once insulted a family friend, one who is my dad's agemate and one who assisted my family in planning for her wedding as a wedding committee chairman. I don't know what to do. I don't know where to start. Never been to my village ever since. Oh, what do I do? Can I be forgiven?? my reputation that was good is spoilt. Please I need an advice.
IvetteIsabel
says:
October, 15 2018 at 11:05 pm
Thanks for sharing everyone. I've been embarrassing myself for the past 12 years and alcohol has caused me to spend a lot of time in juvie/jail. Every single bad decision I've ever made has been due to alcohol. The time before last (March 2018) I got so drunk that I started hitting on several men while at a party with my boyfriend of 8 years and our 4 kids. I was hitting on married men too and while their wives were there ? although I don't think any of them heard me. My boyfriend nearly left me but his love for my true self would not let him. I feel so bad for him but I can't let him go b.c I feel that I will die alone if I do and I don't even have friends or family because I sabotage all relationships while drunk :'( the last time I drank was about two months ago all alone at home and I don't remember a single thing. I just woke up SOAKED with urine :-( my 2 year old was in the bed with me and I peed so much that the stain almost covers the queen mattress. I just thank the highest power that my boyfriend wasn't here to witness due to being out with his friend. I have a history of flipping out on him when I'm drunk and I don't know why bc. I love that man more than anything in this world. All I know is that I have to leave drunkenness in the past (I'm 26) and I'm almost 1000% sure I can do it b c I'm tired of hating myself and ruining my own life. Thank God my kids haven't felt the full effect of it.. I have more stories fo anyone who needs to hear some more in order to feel better
Amy
says:
September, 16 2018 at 11:16 am
I went out with a coworker on Friday afternoon for a couple of drinks, which ended up turning into 4 glasses of wine and three shots. Unfortunately, I am one of those drinkers that cannot stop once I start, so I kept going. When I got home, I decided to take a walk around the neighborhood and ended up having drunken conversations with three different neighbors. My husband told me that I was swearing in front of my one neighbors kids. I don't remember any of this. This was the first time that I drank in a year, because I was pregnant and had our second child. I feel so embarrassed and ashamed. I am going to go and apologize to her, but I feel like everyone is now going to think I am the neighborhood drunk because of one stupid day. I am definitely not drinking anymore because it doesn't seem to result in any fun for me anymore, just shame and embarrassment.
Anonymous
says:
July, 22 2018 at 4:27 pm
A week ago I went to a co-worker party that started around 5 pm. I started drinking right when I got there and everything was going good until the party was coming to an end around 10 pm. When I got into the taxi to head back home, I called one of my friends to see if he wanted to go out. He said yes and he will pick me up from my house. I was pretty drunk when he came to pick me up, but I know I was acting okay because I remember everything. When we arrived at the bar, that's when I remember I started to get bad. I'm having flashbacks about seeing people I knew at the bar, but not remembering how I was acting or what I was saying. I know I am a very generous person when I am drinking and I remember when I saw people I knew, I would offer to buy them a drink. One part of the night I do remember is I was buying drinks at the bar for someone and my card got declined. Apparently, I had made too many transactions on my card that day and my bank decided to cut me off. I am stressing very bad about my behavior this night for many reasons. First, I've lived in this town for a long time and have been know to be "that guy" at the bar who is always super drunk. Second, a large portion of the people that live in this town go to the place I work at and I remember seeing a lot of them that night. Third, I have had a lot of problems with alcohol in my past. I have been known to do ridiculous things when I am blacked out and I'm pretty sure that this time was no different. My friend that I went to the bar with ending up leaving shortly after we arrived so he wasn't there that long. He called me the next day to make sure I got home okay because he said I was "real fucked up" and was "being real generous towards people by buying them drinks." The thing I'm worried about is that I can't remember what time my card got declined and I'm pretty sure I stayed at that bar until closing time at 1:30 a.m., so I'm hoping that I didn't do anything too bad after that happened. Something small like that can trigger me to act completely different when I am intoxicated. The reason I am stressing so much is because it was such a long black out and I cannot remember how I acted or who saw me. I just know that I saw a lot of people I knew there and a lot of people I do know, go to this bar every weekend. It's been over a week and I haven't drank since and do not plan to. I'm worried though because this has happened before and I wouldn't drink for a few months, but then repeat this behavior after I have gotten over it. This has happened too many times and I'm now 28 years old and sick of feeling the shame and embarrassment of things I do when I am drinking. Maybe I am just overthinking it because I had so much of a blackout that I am just assuming the worst had happened. Whatever the case may be, I am tired of being that drunk idiot at the bar and feeling so humiliated that I never want to show my face in public again. I'm almost too scared to know what happened that night because I am afraid of what people are going to say. This is not how I want to be remembered.
Erica
says:
July, 17 2018 at 6:27 am
I am dying of shame and guilt right now. My husbands family were down for my birthday and I had too much to drink. My husband accused me of hitting on his friend, I don’t think I did. But then I said so many horrible things to my husband and his family, I screamed and swore and just said the most degrading things. My husbands family have said if he doesn’t leave me they will disown him. Its 5 days in and I’m still having extreme anxiety over my behaviour. I can’t sleep because every time I close my eyes, I get flashbacks. I feel nauseous and sick. I’m not that person and have no idea how to deal with knowing I acted in such a way. I’ve sworn off alcohol now.
Mary
says:
July, 6 2018 at 12:23 am
I’m so ashamed as well. I mix with hard liquor knowing that it would turn me crazy. And I’m only crazy toward my boyfriend that I’ve been with for 8 years. I get so crazy and was trying to fight him in front of the whole party for 4th of July at my best friends house. I feel so sad and disgusting at myself for this. I really want to quit drinking and I am going to do I hope I can be strong and not give up. Getting drunk does not benefit me and it makes the only man I love to hate me and not talk to me. I hope we will mend and I hope I can be strong and not drink again.
Bri
says:
July, 2 2018 at 12:13 pm
Yesterday I was with my boyfriend at a friend's house drinking heavily as we usually do. I had just gotten out of work and had not had much to eat all day. I was wasted but nothing too bad, just loud and a little obnoxious. Everything was fine until we got into the uber. We had been in the pool all day and when the uber arrived I got in with just my bikini top and shorts...not too bad right? (I have no recollection of this my boyfriend had to inform me of everything from this point on) Apparently I thought it would be cute to show my boobs and try and get on top of my boyfriend in the backseat. Stupid drunk, loud and slurred words. Saying I wanted to fuck him and how horny I was. Then when we finally got home of course all of our neighbors were out chatting it up. Then I get out of the car looking like a real piece of shit trying to jump on top of my boyfriend. I embarrassed my boyfriend and now I am mortified. Completely disgusted with myself. Alcohol has always caused me problems in life but for some reason I still drink. Why do I do this to myself?
Nika
says:
June, 29 2018 at 6:07 pm
Wow! I'm glad I found you guys! I have an anxiety for the past year about huge mess up at the block party last Summer! It was our second year in the neighborhood and nobody really knows us. I don't usually drink that much I had some wine and my husband kept telling me to stop drinking but this lady kept giving me jello shots this is when everything went to shits. On top of being depressed over some very sensitive matter I got drunk and made stupid desicions like saying stupid shit, almost kissing that lady on the lips, running from my husband and hiding from him etc to the point when one of the neighbors threatened to call the cops. I feel super embarrassed and I was not gonna attend this year because nobody would even say hello to me around here, but they never send an invitation. So now I just want to die from embarrassment. I wish I was just like Frank from '"shameless" though but I'm not....it seems like I messed up more then anybody else here. I guess people where i live are super judgemental but I bet they too messed up at least once in their life's, I know it's my actions and it's all my fault, and it was truly family gathering nobody even dances there though they hire a band. Never in my life I messed up that bad. I have to live with it now learn from it and just be careful with drinking alcohol.....
Dan low
says:
June, 19 2018 at 5:16 pm
Today I feel awful. I had a date with a girl I have liked and she has been lovely to me and she was gorgeous! Finally after weeks of talking daily and connecting we arranged for a pub date. Me being so nervous due to meeting such a beautiful nicr woman I stupidly decided to buy 4 beers and pre drink 3 and have the forth in the taxi to her! Very silly decision I didn't eat either all day due to working and rushing to get ready.

I was half wasted when I met her and she was kind enough to have a bottle of wine waiting for me when I arrived. I grabbed the bottle and poured us 2 large glasses of wine and I guzzled it back in no time and again pouring another..... She was lovely and we were really connecting but something awful happened.

I blacked out drunk and came back to reality after 4 hours of not having a damn clue what happened. I woke up in the city alone in the street! I then looked down at my phone which had several miss calls from her and a Snapchat calling me "crazy and she is no longer interested" I replied asking why.... She then proceeded to tell me I had made a complete arse out of myself in the pub and to her and I left her alone in there! Apparantly ran back in over an hour later and then proceeded to talk madness to her. She blocked me on Snapchat and me still being drunk stupidly then decided to call her more than 10 times and I text her over 50 times ranging from explaining myself to being downright vile I can't even mention what I said to her..... i then proceeded to get more drunk sat in an alleyway and cried myself to the point I looked like I had a mental breakdown. People was approaching me asking if I needed help.
I ran home and cried to my family said silly things which they can't now let it leave their heads and I awoke this morning feeling so awful. That poor girl didn't deserve this behaviour at all. Not only did I ruin any chance with her but I said vile vile things and now i look completely insane to her. What I said is eating away at me as I can't forgive myself for what I said or how I acted to the poor girl.

I am now never going to drink yo that excess nor shall I even attempt another date until I get the help I need :(
Anonymous
says:
June, 11 2018 at 2:42 pm
I am so ashamed of myself for the scene I created last weekend. Got into a stupid competition with one of my friend. Drank so much that I don't remember anything. Didn't have the guts to face my friends the next day. I have lost self respect. More than anything I think that I have lost respect among my friends. How to overcome this feeling?
Karin Sabine
says:
May, 22 2018 at 8:54 pm

I am very happy today with my family. My name is Sabine living in USA, My husband left me for a good 3 years now, and i love him so much, i have been looking for a way to get him back since then. i have tried many options but he did not come back, until i met a friend that darted me to Dr.love a spell caster, who helped me to bring back my husband after 2 weeks. Me and my husband are living happily together today, That man is great, you can contact him via email oduguspellcaster@gmail.com Now i will advice any serious persons that found themselves in this kind of problem to contact him now a fast solution without stress.. He always hello, now i call him my father.contact him now he is always online email oduguspellcaster@gmail.com
Karin Sabine
says:
May, 22 2018 at 8:54 pm

I am very happy today with my family. My name is Sabine living in USA, My husband left me for a good 3 years now, and i love him so much, i have been looking for a way to get him back since then. i have tried many options but he did not come back, until i met a friend that darted me to Dr.love a spell caster, who helped me to bring back my husband after 2 weeks. Me and my husband are living happily together today, That man is great, you can contact him via email oduguspellcaster@gmail.com Now i will advice any serious persons that found themselves in this kind of problem to contact him now a fast solution without stress.. He always hello, now i call him my father.contact him now he is always online email oduguspellcaster@gmail.com
Lucas
says:
April, 29 2018 at 3:50 pm
I keep finding myself getting too drunk and doing regrettable, embarrassing things.

Last night I fell at the bar and had to be carried out by the bouncers cuz I was so wasted. A few weeks ago I got super wasted and went to bed and apparently woke up in the middle of the night and just started pissing on my friends feet who was sleeping on my couch. Another time I got wasted woke up in the middle of the night and pissed I’m the corner of my buddies living room.

These were definitely my most regrettable things. I’ve never been a mean drunk or promiscuous but my problem is always just getting too drunk and sloppy losing balance slurring words and it happens often although most times that I drink it doesn’t happen; it still happens too much that I’ve thought about quitting alcohol all together but I have too much fun with it.

21 years old and still struggling to control the liquor and not let it control me.

In reply to by Anonymous (not verified)

Lucas
says:
April, 29 2018 at 3:53 pm
I always tell myself I’m not going to get blackout and I tell my friends I’m taking it easy but then I always seem to go over board. It’s hard to find that golden zone of feeling good and staying there, if u stop drinking you’ll lose that nice buzz but if u keep going you’ll lose it too by being too sloppy it’s a tough skill to learn.
Pseudonym
says:
April, 24 2018 at 4:24 pm
I got incredibly drunk once in my public library right down the street from my house and started playing the music super loud on my laptop. One lady kindly asked me to turn it down to which I replied, "you'll be closing soon". Then another two people came up to me asking me to turn it down to which I said "what you gonna do about it!!!" To which the gentleman replied "I will call the sheriff's department" and then I just started saying "That's a low blow bro!" Over and over. I promptly gathered my things and left and then started insulting all the librarians as I walked out. Soooooo embarrassing in retrospect. I know that not as bad as some of these atories but I honestly love the library and was even thinking of working here cause it is such a beautiful location and I am a bibliophile. Probably not going to happen. O want to write a letter of apology to them library staff for my behavior.
Sherry
says:
April, 8 2018 at 3:09 pm
Its difficult. Because for me if i get drunk but dont do anything wrong i still get the same shame as when in the past i have done bad things. I know that when i see drunk people either just being really drunk or are actually doing silly things. I pretty much forget about it straight away, it doesnt bother me. But when its me i get a sinking feeling of dread. Im more out going when i drink so worry about how people see me. Its strange i think most of the torturing we do to ourselves after by over thinking, just makes it worse than it is. But its hard not to think and feel this way

In reply to by Anonymous (not verified)

Jamie
says:
April, 29 2018 at 10:27 am
Sherry, I feel the same exact way. Even if I remember everything, I still feel so humiliated. One thing that I have learn by doing some research on this is that most people that feel this way without doing anything wrong are more than likely struggling with social anxiety. Idk about u but I do. I can be sober yet still feel embarrassed so when I drink, the feeling only gets way worse, the next day. I feel like a lot of our issues are all in our heads. If we see the drunk person at the bar, more than likely we don't give much thought about it so let's all just remember that PLUS there's probably plenty of people that are in the same boat but we don't see their drunkeness because we only hold a magnifying class to ourselfs. All this is just an anxiety issue. We need to forgive ourselfs and let it go because there's plenty of other people that are out there making an ass of their selves too. Alcohol brings out the worst in everyone unless ur the type that can have one drink and quit but most people don't.
Jessy
says:
April, 2 2018 at 1:43 pm
Me just mad e a a** out of myself this Saturday only in front of 2 of my cousins a couple accuaitences and talked stuff to my BF over the phone and oh yeah started calling family in mexico crying like a complete fool omg how embarrassing!!cussed my boyfriend out and etc so I feel bad now my cusin was like that why i dont like kicking it with you when your drunk you so aggresive and a mess !!that ticked me off because she a bigtime drunk more than me But yeah she the type to not even take care of me scre her any your good [moderated] you know forgive your self sweety and move on no one is perfect !!
Dawn
says:
April, 1 2018 at 3:33 pm
Your stories haven't helped me feel better about my drunken stoopers. I have made a huge a** out of myself numerous times but this one incident beats them all. So me and my best friend at the time went to her brothers Halloween party. I have severe social anxiety and i tend to drink way more than I should if I'm around people I don't know. I didn't really embarrass myself at the party besides being a little loud and trying to get a gay guys number. Ugh. Anyways, the problem was when I got home. I don't remember anything. I woke up at 10am the next morning with a text from my friend, saying to delete my Snapchat story. What did I post?! I posted videos of me topless, saying really nasty, dirty, provocative things. I also posted 3 topless pictures of me. All my co-workers and friends were on my Snapchat. They all saw it. Even better, there were 12 screenshots of me! I quickly delwted everything Even though the damage was already done. I was so mortified. Best of all, I broke up with my bf a few weeks before this and his friend saw my snaps and told him all about it. Way to kick a horse while its down. I still cringe thinking about it.

In reply to by Anonymous (not verified)

Akanksha
says:
April, 3 2018 at 7:39 pm
Oh Gosh, I had something like this happen to me, and the anxiety that came after this was the worst I've ever had.
Nate
says:
March, 31 2018 at 1:59 pm
Not to one up everyone, but I might take the cake on this. I'd like to start b adding I'm 6'5, avid gym goer and about 285 lbs. so, here it goes.
I wen with my girlfriend to a winery/brewery to meet her friends/parents for drinks and outdoor fun, seeing it was the first nice day of spring. We had a great afternoon, playing board games while drinking outside of this winery, about 10 of us. After a few hours we decided to go back o he friends house and say goodnight to her parents. So, I bought a case of beer and pizza for everyone, honestly, I wanted o make a good impression for the ppl that are close to the woman I have grown fond of. After I got back with her friends otdiwnd from picking up the pizza, my night changed forever. Now at this point I've probably had a dozen or so beers over a few hours with little amount of food. Her friends bf offered me a shot of Jack honey. While everyone is looking at me to take the celebratory shot, I didn't think at all if this was a bad idea. I took it, and another. That moment is the last moment I remember until I remember siting in the back of a cop car, being taken to a county prison. Thy night, I was told I tried jumping off a 40 foot balcony, pushed my gf, split my head open somehow, had my gf's friend chase me around town for 2 hours, trying to calm me down, I ripped a railing off a house, attempted to punch out a windshield(no f-ing idea) and verbally berated everyone. To boot, I was pulled over, driving the opposite direction from my house, earning my first DUI. It has been 1 week since this happened. Every time I think about this, the deepest amount of depression sets in. My girlfriend, who I adore imennsley, has her friends not talking to her, and haven't said to her she should break up oth me, but it doesn't need to be said. I have treated this girl like my queen, with respect and honesty, aside of a bad 3 hour time frame. I don't know how to get over this, she breaks down crying every few hours, she doesn't want us to break up, but even tho I feel I was drugged or something and can't remember any of this, it will be the reasocso man things happen differently in my life. I feel like a complete waste of life. But letting er go will ply hurt her more and I know I'm far better of a man than got I was that night. Any feedback would be greatly appreciated. Nate.diehl50@yahoo.com

In reply to by Anonymous (not verified)

Jessy
says:
April, 2 2018 at 1:33 pm
Well I just got wasted on Saturday making a a** out of myself,, So yes it bascically lets us know we cant get drunk ever lol A feww beers and thats it ,Like really the damage is done you cant go back your paying for it now with the DUI and all you can do is apologize to the people that were there and your GF, I think its forgivable !!keep your head up I mean IT COULD'VE DEFINITELY BEEN WORSE !Dont drink like that again

In reply to by Anonymous (not verified)

Lucky
says:
April, 14 2018 at 10:56 pm
Nate- How are things going for you now? Have you been able to feel a little bit better and deal with some of the tough feelings? I sure hope it all works out for you guys! Don’t let that day define you; you already know that that is not who you truly are. I’ve been there/am there and it’s awful. Best of luck!

Leave a reply

advertisement