My Baby Helps My Depression, but I'm Wary
Usually, anything that helps with my depression feels like a pure blessing from above, but I have some fears about how much having a baby has helped my depression. I've found that my baby can incentivize me to get out of bed even on horrible days where, without a baby, I would have been stuck in bed all day long.
How My Baby Helps Depression
Taking care of him, seeing him smile, feeling his warmth as he snuggles against my chest -- it all brings me a comfort I've never really had before, despite having an incredibly loving husband and wonderful friends. When I got pregnant, I was so worried that having a baby would be incredibly hard on my mental health, but it has actually been the opposite. My baby is one of the best things that's ever happened to my mental health. And that makes me very nervous.
I never, ever want my son to feel responsible for my mental health. Some days, my depression will be stronger than the immense amount of comfort he brings to my life, and I want to make sure he understands that this says more about the intense power of depression than it does about him in any capacity.
Kids are insightful and intuitive, they pick up on these things, and I worry he will quickly realize what a positive impact he has on my brain and start to feel responsible for keeping me happy.
I discuss this conundrum more in the video below, but I'm curious: are there any parents with mental illness out there who have run into fears over how your baby helps depression? How have you protected your kids from taking responsibility for it? I would love to hear your advice in the comments.
Griffith, M. (2020, February 25). My Baby Helps My Depression, but I'm Wary, HealthyPlace. Retrieved on 2020, May 29 from https://www.healthyplace.com/blogs/recoveringfrommentalillness/2020/2/my-baby-helps-my-depression-but-im-wary