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Is Trauma Necessary for Dissociative Identity Disorder (DID)?

June 15, 2017 Crystalie Matulewicz

Dissociative identity disorder has been called a trauma disorder. But what if you don't remember a trauma? Is a DID diagnosis without a trauma memory valid?

Even though dissociative identity disorder (DID) is considered a dissociative disorder according to the Diagnostic and Statistical Manual of Mental Disorders or DSM-5, many people refer to it as a trauma disorder. Much like in posttraumatic stress disorder (PTSD), people with DID often have a history of trauma and/or abuse. But is trauma always a requirement for DID?

A history of trauma is not one of the diagnostic criteria for a diagnosis of dissociative identity disorder, according to the DSM-5. However, the DSM-5 does emphasize the prevalence of trauma in client presentations of DID.

DID Can Result from Many Types of Trauma

Studies have shown that the majority, amounting to 90% of clients with DID, have experienced childhood abuse and/or neglect. The remaining 10% of clients with DID have experienced other types of trauma in childhood, most commonly medical trauma, natural disasters, or war.

When most people think of trauma in relation to dissociative disorders, they think of blatant child abuse -- most obviously physical and sexual abuse. And while a majority of those with DID have experienced these types of abuse, there are other types of trauma that can lead to DID that many people tend to overlook.

Psychological abuse, while not obvious to outsiders, is a form of trauma that can and does lead to DID. Verbal abuse, especially severe, is another form of trauma. New research also shows that certain attachment issues between parent and child early in life can be traumatic, which in turn can lead to the development of DID.

You Can Have DID Even if You Don't Remember Any Trauma

A DID diagnosis can be confusing and anxiety-provoking for anyone. For some people, there is confusion about the trauma and DID connection. They may not have experienced any trauma that they know of, or at least remember. But that doesn't necessarily mean that trauma didn't happen.

One of the reasons that DID develops is to protect the child from the traumatic experience. In response to trauma, the child develops alters, or parts, as well as amnesic barriers. These barriers block the memories of the trauma so the core person is better able to cope with life. Blocked memories may not resurface for years (or at all), even after a person has already been diagnosed.

It's also important to realize, as was explained earlier, that trauma occurs in many forms. You may have memories of trauma that don't seem so obvious. Something may not seem traumatic to you thinking about it as an adult, but as a child, it could have very well been traumatic enough to lead to dissociation.

Your Memory of Trauma Does Not Invalidate Your DID Diagnosis

Regardless of whether or not you remember trauma, don't doubt yourself. Don't question your diagnosis just because you can't remember everything, or invalidate yourself because you feel like you haven't had it "bad enough" to have DID. Trauma can happen to anyone.

APA Reference
Matulewicz, C. (2017, June 15). Is Trauma Necessary for Dissociative Identity Disorder (DID)?, HealthyPlace. Retrieved on 2022, December 4 from https://www.healthyplace.com/blogs/dissociativeliving/2017/06/is-trauma-necessary-for-dissociative-identity-disorder



Author: Crystalie Matulewicz

Crystalie is the founder of PAFPAC, is a published author and the writer of Life Without Hurt. She has a BA in psychology and will soon have an MS in Experimental Psychology, with a focus on trauma. Crystalie manages life with PTSD, DID, major depression, and an eating disorder. You can find Crystalie on FacebookGoogle+, and Twitter.

Sam/Elliot
July, 26 2022 at 2:10 am

Uh so, hello, ive been wondering what the heck is wrong with me because like, i don’t feel right? I don’t know how to explain it but I basically feel like my life is a hallucination and im actually somewhere else (if that makes sense), i’m not real or something like that? I just feel like the wrong person. I have voices in my head (about 3-4 but one of them is mine i think) but sometimes i feel like I invented those just for attention or something.. I don’t think I have trauma? I mean the only slightly problematic things I remember family-wise is that my parents yell at me alot but thats not that bad, my father used to grip my arm if i misbehaved but it wasn’t nearly as bad as it sounds.. the only memories that were bad from school were from the school i went to from when i was 4-6yrs old and i only have two memories from that (because it was ages ago) number one: Vomit, alot of it, infront of the cafeteria, i also know that i vomit when i see other vomit so I definitely puked that day too, and there was 2 other people, one adult one kid i think, number two is slightly warped though, I remember a staircase with blood on it and spaghetti with tomato sauce, and for some reason a head, i think the memory is that someone went down/up the stairs then fell while holding a plate of spaghetti and his head cracked (the blood, and I remember it being like that) but the more time passes the less blood is there in the memory and by now I’m convinced i imagined it because something like that would have been a rlly big thing right? And my parents would have told me i think. I have no memory gaps or sudden personality changes so if i do have a personality disorder then i think OSDD but i don’t know, please help me, i’m 13 by the way, and this might just be the fact that i’m transgender

z
September, 23 2022 at 1:56 pm

go see a counselor they can help u and you are most likely not making it up for attention because youd want to tell everyone about it and wouldnt be as scared. try not to be afraid itll be ok.

anon
October, 16 2022 at 6:28 am

you are 13 you do not have DID stop watching tiktok. See a professional and stop overthinking this. "I have no memory gaps" the memory issues is the most blatant part of dissociative disorders. You're just confused.

Ash
November, 8 2022 at 5:55 pm

Don't be so rude. Think before you comment. OSDD-1b also exists. Don't you dare invalidate others when they're seeking guidance. They never said they had it, just the symptoms ffs. I've been experiencing something similar and the biggest thing I'm scared of is someone telling me this. I don't even own a tiktok account. Lol hiding behind an anon name.

T
November, 27 2022 at 9:45 am

You literally don't know this person's life. Don't be such a jerk

Hazel
April, 24 2022 at 1:28 pm

Hi, I don't know if this is a form of DID or if I'm plain going insane. Sometimes I'll just stare at my hands not feeling anything, or start having a conversation with myself in a mirror. I know I am speaking, but I feel so oddly out of myself that I can't feel my mouth moving. Sometime earlier this week, I was walking. About halfway through, I got tired and tried to stop, but couldn't. My legs hurt, but I kept moving. I didn't feel alarmed at the time. I noticed I had kept walking, but felt strangely not worried, only thinking about it later. I have experienced trauma before, (my brother sexually assaulting me and making me believe it was normal, along with physical abuse now that he is older) but I remember things. It isn't like a gap in memory, more of a loss of control. I don't entirely know what is happening to me, I don't think I need to see a psychologist or anything. I have attempted suicide, so I am seeing a therapist but I haven't talked to her because I feel like what I'm saying could be taken as fake, but what I am experiencing is real and I don't know what to do. A small bit of what is happening could be because of the fact that I have chosen a new name for myself, and about half the people I know call me by my birth name, and half call me by my chosen name. I am currently 13, I don't know what to do. Please help?

April, 25 2022 at 12:03 pm

Hi Hazel,
Thank you for reaching out—I am so sorry to hear that you are in pain, and I know it takes courage to share your experience. Please consider talking to your therapist and what you're dealing with, or connect with a mental health hotline resource (here are some that can help: https://www.healthyplace.com/other-info/resources/mental-health-hotline-numbers-and-refer…). I know it can be difficult, but please continue reaching out for support.
Sincerely,
Mary-Elizabeth Schurrer
HealthyPlace Blog Comment Moderator

Marker
November, 29 2021 at 12:34 pm

I don't have a diagnosis, should I consider getting one? I do not remember any trauma besides a lot of childhood bullying (especially in late elementary school and early middle school). I'm exhibiting some symptoms, but I doubt the validity of those symptoms because my mother was diagnosed with hypochondria and I am afraid I have inherited it at least a little. Help!!!

Becca
October, 21 2019 at 8:38 am

Someone close to me who is going to be 40 years old in a week was diagnosed recently with DID. She just started showing signs within the past year. Is this normal at this age? Wouldn’t symptoms of the disorder show up earlier in life if they truly have it?
Thank you

Melissa
July, 11 2022 at 4:00 am

I hope you’ve found an answer since it’s been a few years. But yes, it’s common for this to pop up in the 40s or 50s. Mike Lloyd on YouTube does a video on this called DID: denial and recognition later in life. I hope you find it helpful. By the way, you originally posted your question on my 50th birthday in 2019 and it was ten days later I’d get my DiD diagnosis from my psychologist. - Mo

Fiona
May, 12 2019 at 1:33 am

I was abused when I was a small child by my (ex)stepfather. I also was sexually assaulted by my (ex)best friend about a year ago. I don’t remember when I got assaulted per say, but I remember seeing it happen through my eyes, but it wasn’t me fighting back, if you get what I mean... about 3 years ago my stepmom came at me (I’ve been diagnosed with PTSD), and I fought back at her but I don’t remember fighting back. One second I was at my dad’s house and the next I was in a police car heading towards the nearest Juvenile Delinquent center. I’ve just now heard and researched DID, and I think I may have it. Sometimes I hear a voice that is not my own that calls herself “Alarika” tell me to do certain things, and if I don’t do them, I feel my body do it for me without me being in control. I also can have conversations in my head with Alarika and I think she is older than me because of the things she encourages me to do, such as drink, vape, and have sex. I am 15 years old btw... She just came to me about a year ago during/after my sexual assault. I don’t know if I actually have DID or if I’m going crazy and just naming my conscience tho. I also have an image as to what Alarika looks like in my head, too, but I don’t “see” her often, I usually only hear her.

Peta Tew
March, 2 2022 at 2:18 am

This is classic DID - I would see a specialists in the disorder and get a diagnosis. Every trauma you experienced your brain dissociate, so you don’t remember the abuse. The fact that you have periods of amnesia is also a classic sign of the dissociation- and during this dissociative another identity (or alter) can be formed. So this alter is out and you have no memory of what occurs when an alter is out. Classic DID

Kat
September, 1 2018 at 2:33 am

I have this personality or something that is very emotional, I never had any childhood trauma but was bullied once at the age of 8. Once when I was 12 or 13 I put nail polish on my face but I didn’t have any control of myself doing it and realized after that I had a burn mark on my cheek due to it, people would ask what happened and I would respond with “I don’t know”. This personality has his own phobia and usually thinks of things I wouldn’t do. It just randomly came out of nowhere and I don’t even know if it is DID or something else I haven’t seen anyone either do really be diagnosed. I just wanna know who he is, why he’s here, and why when I get so emotional he just pops out of no where.

Andrea
July, 8 2018 at 9:43 pm

I have DID and have several alters that I've gotten to know quite well. I do not remember much about my childhood before my teenage years. I have recently been able to integrate with a few of them and it has been very rewarding. My problem is that ALL of my younger parts have horrendous recollections of being sexually abused by my father. I am very close to my father and just cannot believe that he ever did anything unloving to me. I am at a stalemate with the other insiders and it is really depressing. One of my alters confronted my dad soon after my diagnosis. My father denied ever having done anything, while treating me very kind. I am at a loss. I trust my father more than I do my alters and cannot stand the thought of hurting him. Maybe they did too good a job of keeping me away from the trauma. But they are adamant, their stories all line up with each other and they have been consistent for several years. For years I have just treated the parts as sympathetically as I would any other child who had been through such things. However now that we have been working towards integration, it has become a HUGE problem. Do you have any advice?

Viviana
October, 27 2019 at 8:31 pm

I have a similar issue. A year later do you still not believe it happened?

Sona
June, 14 2018 at 5:50 pm

What would happen if the blocked memories would come back to the person.

Kelsey
November, 22 2017 at 11:33 am

I have recently started seeing a therapist and I am starting to uncover some things about my self. I know for a fact that I had dissociative disorder when I was a child. I would stare at my hands for hours because they didn’t look like mine. I would walk through the motions of my day. I wouldn’t actually feel anything it would be like my life was a movie and I was watching it from afar.
Although I know that I have had it I can’t figure out what might have caused it. My childhood was great and I had loving parents but I remember at around age 10 that I started to have thoughts of suicide and had a lot of anxiety and depression and with that I had dissociative symptoms. I am wondering if my brain is blocking me from finding out or if somehow I am making this up in my head. I also would like to know how to talk to my therapist about this and figure out how to see what my brain is blocking me from.

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Crystalie
November, 23 2017 at 6:44 am

Some level of dissociation is normal in childhood. As far as memories, the whole point of dissociation is to disconnect, so it is possible that you have disconnected from any traumatic memories. It’s also possible that you didn’t experience any trauma.
DID is an extreme form of dissociation. Other mental illnesses can have dissociation as a symptom, including depression and panic/anxiety disorders. If yu are concerned, reach out to your therapist about your previous symptoms and your therapist can guide you to figure out what the cause was/is.

Madelyn
June, 23 2017 at 10:35 pm

hey Crystalie, i am a self diagnosed alter, but my host does not want to bother going to see a professional in the field to do the necessary testing for a diagnosis, any advice on the necessary steps to getting a diagnosis and possibly how much it would cost?
thank you
Madelyn Rusco

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Crystalie Matulewicz
June, 25 2017 at 10:45 am

Hello Madelyn,
Any therapist can technically diagnose DID, you would not necessarily have to see a psychiatrist. I think the important part is finding someone experienced in DID or at least trauma. There are low cost options if you all don't have insurance as well. The difficulty may be in getting the host on board.

Angelique
June, 17 2017 at 6:59 pm

I've been searching for a definition of DID that fit me more accurately. I do have a lot of things that I cannot remember but I don't recall ever having complete blackouts. DID almost destroyed my marriage, my family. I'm still trying to find my place now knowing that I have DID.

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