Introduction to Randall Law, Author of 'Creative Schizophrenia'
I’m Randall Law, the co-author of the blog, Creative Schizophrenia. I’m an often clueless father of three, a work in progress husband to one, a rabid sports fanatic and an unemployed physician assistant learning to live with schizophrenia while renovating a farmhouse built in 1910.
Randall Law Has a History of Psychosis, Anxiety and Depression
I’ve struggled with mental illness since I was sexually abused at age nine. This traumatic experience commenced a journey down a path of debilitating anxiety and depression that terminated in psychosis. Environmental factors gave way to genetic factors, and my mental illness morphed. I first heard voices when I was in high school. My first visit to the psychiatric unit came two years later after I nearly took my own life. The psychiatrist told me I was paranoid. I told him I wasn’t. I didn’t tell him about the voices I heard; I didn’t understand them. I left the hospital and dumped my medications; I told no one. My schizophrenia was a secret.
After 7 years, I Sought Help
I endured seven years without medication. They weren’t stable years, but I persevered. After graduating with an undergraduate degree in biology and a graduate degree in physician assisting, I thought the worst was behind me; I had achieved the stability I so desperately craved. My stability crumbled the day I began practicing medicine. Two months later, car keys in hand, I planned to drive to the airport so I could commandeer an airplane to fly to a deserted island. Instead, I approached my supervising physician and simply pleaded, “I need help.”
Randall Law's Goal for 'Creative Schizophrenia'
I became a physician assistant because I enjoy helping others. I am not capable of practicing medicine right now because of my schizophrenia, but I hope to help others through my writing. I hope my words make you laugh. I hope they make you cry. I hope they help you to appreciate your life more fully. I hope they do the same for me. If you read my writing, I hope it makes a difference. I hope it helps you feel alive. I want to feel alive.
More About Randall Law and What He Wants for 'Creative Schizophrenia'
Learn more about Randall Law.
Law, R. (2019, January 10). Introduction to Randall Law, Author of 'Creative Schizophrenia', HealthyPlace. Retrieved on 2019, June 16 from https://www.healthyplace.com/blogs/creativeschizophrenia/2019/1/introduction-to-randall-law-author-of-creative-schizophrenia
Author: Randall Law
You said that the day you started practicing medicine your stability crumbled. Can I ask, what that meant for you? I am not familiar with schizophrenia personally except for what I have been taught in textbooks and am seeking greater understanding. Any insight you could give me would be much appreciated. If you wish to address this in a future blog rather than addressing me personally that is totally fine and I will keep an eye out for it.
Thank you again for your time and consideration.
Thanks so much for sharing your story. It honestly takes courage and faith. I don't know why some things happen to others, and why some don't, but I love Elder Holland's promise:
I testify of the holy Resurrection, that unspeakable cornerstone gift in the Atonement of the Lord Jesus Christ! With the Apostle Paul, I testify that that which was sown in corruption will one day be raised in incorruption and that which was sown in weakness will ultimately be raised in power. I bear witness of that day when loved ones whom we knew to have disabilities in mortality will stand before us glorified and grand, breathtakingly perfect in body and mind. What a thrilling moment that will be! I do not know whether we will be happier for ourselves that we have witnessed such a miracle or happier for them that they are fully perfect and finally “free at last.". (Like A Broken Vessel 2013)
I can't wait until that day Elder Holland's speaks of, what hope it brings to me and those who suffer, and those who don't (which aren't many, I mean we all suffer in some way, right?) Keep the faith!
*Side note to the sports fanatic- if I remember right, you're a 49ers fan, yes? Ouch season!! ;)
My personal blog is still a work in progress and isn't showing up for some reason. I'll post when it is working.