Coming to Terms with Sexual Abuse and a Survivor's Bill of Rights
In April of 2002, I went on a date that ended with me being sexually assaulted. As the anniversary approaches, my symptoms of borderline personality disorder have increased. I've learned that I have to come to terms with what happened to me. Here are three insights I've had.
"I Should've" Guilt about Sexual Abuse is a Lie
Guilt is a normal feeling for sexual abuse survivors. We feel as if we should've known better. We feel as if we should've acted differently. We feel as if we'd been good enough, it wouldn't have happened.
In her must-read book I Can't Get Over It, Dr. Aphrodite Matsakis writes,
It is the abuser, not you, who uses force. You are not shoving, kicking, hitting, or sexually abusing yourself. These are the actions of the abuser. All abusers are responsible for their own behavior. By now it is widely known that battering, child abuse, and elder abuse are against the law. If you are a victim of abuse, you are guilty of causing abuse only if you are abusing someone else, not because of the abuse you have suffered.
"In addition, it is not your personal inadequacies and failures that cause the abuse, but the abuse that creates feelings of inferiority and exacerbates any preexisting sense of inadequacy or failure. The abuse and the lack of validation, affection, and respect that underlies the abuse can almost permanently implant in its victims a sense of unworthiness and shame. The abuse insistently gives the message that you are so unworthy that you deserve to be beaten. ... These negative messages constitute an 'old tape' that may never be fully erased from your mind. New learnings gained from therapy and positive life experiences may be able to diminish the power of that tape most of the time, but the old tape will still sometimes play.
In other words, remember that everything on the old tape is a lie. Think of it this way: if a mugger takes your wallet and you didn't resist, does that mean you wanted to be mugged? Does that mean you deserved to be robbed? Hardly! The same is true in cases of sexual abuse.
Guidelines for Revenge Fantasies
Revenge fantasies are normal. My therapist was irate when I was sexually assaulted and admitted she was having fantasies about using her martial arts training on my assailant. If she has them, then it's normal for me to have them. Revenge fantasies can be therapeutic, but Matsakis offers the following warnings:
If you don't feel like you can make this list without becoming violent, don't even attempt it . . . If you fall into one of the following categories, do not attempt this fantasy exercise without the help of a therapist or support group: You are a combat veteran or police officer. You have formal or informal training in fighting, killing, sabotage, or another form of destruction. You have beaten or otherwise physically abused others, or have sexually abused others. You like to torture animals. You have killed people. You are currently or have frequently been suicidal, homicidal, or both. You suffer from severe depression, hallucinations, a psychosis, or psychotic episodes. You enjoy watching others suffer or property being destroyed. You are afraid that if you dare to think about your revenge fantasies, you will act on them.
A Sexual Abuse Survivor's Bill of Rights
If I had my way, every person who works with sexual abuse survivors would have proper training, abundant resources, and connections to help survivors. More importantly, they would have a Survivor’s Bill of Rights.
- We have the right to be believed when we say we have been abused.
- We have the right to not have the abuse downplayed.
- We have the right to be heard.
- We have the right to be treated equally, regardless of whether or not we are married to our abuser and regardless of our sexual orientation.
- We have the right to be treated with dignity and respect.
- We have the right not to be judged for being with an abusive partner.
- We have the right to confidentiality.
- We have the right to treatment for physical injuries.
- We have the right to mental health treatment.
- We have the right to a support system, and the right to an advocate to navigate the support system.
- We have the right to feel afraid, angry and/or confused, and we have the right to not be judged for these feelings.
- We have the right to choose whether or not to go to court in cases where children are not involved.
- We have the right to divorce without shame. We are neither selfish nor homewreckers; our abuser is the one who destroyed the relationship.
- We have the right to not be treated as masochists who like the abuse.
- We have the right to be safe.
Oberg, B. (2014, April 8). Coming to Terms with Sexual Abuse and a Survivor's Bill of Rights, HealthyPlace. Retrieved on 2021, June 24 from https://www.healthyplace.com/blogs/borderline/2014/04/coming-to-terms-with-sexual-abuse
Author: Becky Oberg
And we have the right to justices ,And the right to see the judge being able to give out punishment and the law back him up . In case recintly man given 103 years 6 months for 10 crimes but only put in prison for 20 years should get at least half of total time ie 51 1/2 that's what we teach kids to be fair , in America it's justice you do ten crimes you get ten sentence to run one after the other punishment for all crimes that's justice .