While active in my eating disorder, I thought “Recovery isn’t meant for me” because I could not imagine what a life free of my eating disorder could look like. Sometimes I think I didn’t even want to. I thought my behaviors were keeping me sane, so why would I want to envision living in any other way? I was certain eating disorder recovery wasn’t for me.
But Eating Disorder Recovery Is for You and Me–We Deserve It
For so long my eating disorder convinced me that I was a worthless waste of a human. The sad part is, I believed every bit of that statement. I believed I was meant to live in the misery of this disease. I thought since previous attempts I had made at recovery didn’t last, that a life of wellness was not something I was meant for.
I’m beyond grateful that I can now see the truth. I’m grateful I figured out that eating disorder recovery is for me. Once I began to love and respect myself as a person, I learned that I did not need to live the way I was. I learned that I deserved better. This was a difficult concept for me to digest. I never felt I deserved anything in life. When I looked deep into my core beliefs I saw that everyone deserved a full life. My idea of a full life is one free of my eating disorder.
What to Remember If You Think Recovery Isn’t for You
When you find yourself with thoughts of whether or not you deserve recovery, whether eating disorder recovery isn’t for you, or if it’s even worth it, ponder these questions.
- Do you want happiness?
- Do you desire to have connections with others?
- Do you crave a life full of peace and serenity?
- Do you want meaningful relationships?
These are just a few things to think about. I think all of these things are part of a beautiful life in recovery. If after going through these questions you still don’t think recovery is right for you, I get it. It took me a long time to gain the self-worth I needed in order to recover.
From you to me, however, I firmly believe everyone in this world deserves a full life. Yes, that means you, too.
Stay strong, stay positive, and keep pushing. You can do this.