What is it Like Waking Up with Bipolar Disorder?
What it's like waking up with bipolar disorder seems like a random question to ask, but it isn't. In this video blog post, I share what it is like when I wake up with bipolar disorder.
Waking Up with Bipolar Disorder: Surprise!
When those of us who live with bipolar disorder wake up, the anxiety kicks in, the questions start flooding through our heads, and the thoughts just don't seem to have an end in sight. It is nerve-wracking not to know how you are going to feel in the morning. You can go from having a fantastic and productive day before to waking up the next day feeling overwhelmed, anxious and depressed. You never know what you are going to feel like when you wake up with bipolar disorder, but you can be confident that you are going to feel something.
Even when I feel numb in the morning, my mind is still racing. When I feel depressed, I become worried and feel guilty, trying to figure out how I am going to change this day around. I start searching through my journal and bipolar self-help books to try to find coping methods.
Accepting This is Another Day with Bipolar Disorder
Living with bipolar 2 disorder, I have learned that sometimes you just have to accept things the way they are and ride out the emotions. Starting off your day beating yourself up for living with bipolar disorder does more harm than good.
What do your mornings look like when you wake up with bipolar disorder? What do you do when you wake up depressed? Please share your experience and thoughts or send in a response video to firstname.lastname@example.org. Thanks!
Blum, H. (2018, March 7). What is it Like Waking Up with Bipolar Disorder?, HealthyPlace. Retrieved on 2021, May 7 from https://www.healthyplace.com/living-with-bipolar-blog/what-is-it-like-waking-up-with-bipolar-disorder
Author: Hannah Blum
I'd say its realizing no ones messaged your phone because you've once again successfully isolate from your friends and they understand that "sometimes you get that way, to give you space until you're feeling better". Or realizing you shift started 2 hours ago and feeling the hopelessness of "not again" when you just slept for 13 hours and through your alarms seemingly out of nowhere. Or mid shift zoned out tired and numb, you didn't sleep cause your mind was racing but now its empty, you wonder if anyone will notice that you're 'not all there' or when your anxiety is physical though nothing has changed from one day to the next 'Am I the only one that can notice?. Wondering "Am I even capable of stability or change when one day I wake up at 6am, or feel fully rested having not slept, or couldn't manage to wake up and face responsibilities, instantly putting my employment or relationships at risk. It's having to communicate although you feel like you can't and its pointless cause so many blame you personally and can't seem to separate the illness from the person, and sometimes you can't either, sometimes you wonder if you're even in control as much as you try to be..