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A Medication Change Helped with My Schizoaffective Voices

October 31, 2019 Elizabeth Caudy

My psychopharmacologist and I made a medication change, and now I’ve only heard schizoaffective voices once in over a month. Here’s what it’s like to bring this schizoaffective disorder symptom under control once again.

It’s Been Liberating to Nearly Silence the Schizoaffective Voices

First of all, the one time I did hear schizoaffective voices over the past few weeks was last night—and they only stuck around for about 10 minutes, rather than for an hour or more like they would have before my medication change. Of course, I was heartbroken to hear them at all when I’d gone such a long time without encountering them. But, at the same time, I was encouraged that they went away so quickly.

It’s been liberating to not have to worry about hearing voices. I’ve been able to push myself and do things that ordinarily make me anxious because I didn’t have to worry about an episode of voices. I am always well aware that the voices aren’t real and I don’t do anything they might tell me to do. Also, since I know while in the middle of an episode that they aren’t real, I can get things done and be capable even while hearing them. Still, they are very stressful and I know that many people find them unmanageable—too much to try to white-knuckle through them without seeking help.

Hearing Schizoaffective Voices Is Never Easy

Hearing schizoaffective voices is never easy. Around the New Year, the voices were particularly bothering me. They were aggressive—more than just the type of background noise of inane chatter that I’m used to. So, I called my psychopharmacologist and we changed my medication dosage. I still heard voices a lot, but they weren’t as troublesome.

What kind of “inane chatter” am I referring to? People always want to know what the voices say. So, I’ll indulge you. Last night, they were saying, “She hears such beautiful noises”—meaning the voices. They also accuse me of smoking, when I haven’t smoked in over seven years. My husband, Tom, thinks they just say whatever is kicking around in my subconscious. I still dream about smoking, so maybe the voices are referencing that. When they say how “beautiful” they are, maybe it’s my subconscious trying to tell me I’m beautiful.

Before my doctor and I changed my medication to deal with the schizoaffective voices, I was hearing them twice a week or more. At one point, I was hearing them as often as every other day. Interestingly, the voices were more manageable when I was hearing them every other day. Maybe I was just so used to them that they didn’t bother me as much as they did when I heard them less often; I don’t know.

I know I’d rather not hear schizoaffective voices at all. But it’s so much better to be hearing them once a month compared to twice a week or more. Also, I was hearing voices that lasted for hours and now this last episode ended in 10 minutes. I’d say that’s pretty good. This is one time when a medication change worked out for the best.

APA Reference
Caudy, E. (2019, October 31). A Medication Change Helped with My Schizoaffective Voices, HealthyPlace. Retrieved on 2020, February 26 from https://www.healthyplace.com/blogs/creativeschizophrenia/2019/10/a-medication-change-helped-with-my-schizoaffective-voices



Author: Elizabeth Caudy

Elizabeth Caudy was born in 1979 to a writer and a photographer. She has been writing since she was five years old. She has a BFA from The School of the Art Institute of Chicago and an MFA in photography from Columbia College Chicago. She lives outside Chicago with her husband, Tom. Find Elizabeth on Google+ and on her personal blog.

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