The Therapeutic Power of Writing
Recently I had a nightmare. I was in handcuffs and shackles, being transported by police to Richmond State Hospital in Richmond, Indiana, and determined not to go. I consider my time at Richmond State the worst four months of my life, and I don't want to go back. In the dream, I kicked the paddy wagon door--and in real life woke up when my foot connected with my window. Later that day, I wrote about it and realized the therapeutic power of writing.
When I was at Richmond State and later Larue Carter, I kept a journal. I updated it almost daily. Looking back on it has been interesting. I was miserable, but I survived. And that gives me hope that I can survive whatever life throws at me.
There were other benefits to journaling. For example, I often made notes of when I saw the psychiatrist (an average of once every two weeks). I also kept notes about my symptoms and what actions I took to deal with them. This made it considerably easier to file a complaint against the psychiatrist when he neglected to treat my suicidal symptoms because "we had another borderline here, and every other word out of her mouth was 'suicide', so we assumed you were the same way'." I was able to say what I felt, when I felt it, who knew what and when.
Another time, I made notes that a nurse had double-dosed me on klonopin. Other patients made similar complaints, which I also noted. Eventually staff asked to see my journal, cross-checked it against hospital records, concluded that the nurse was endangering our health and fired her. My journal helped ensure I got the treatment I needed--and gave me a way to fight for it when I didn't.
Facing the Pain in an Autobiography
I'm currently working on a semi-autobiographical book about the state psychiatric hospital system in Indiana. As I wrote to a friend of mine yesterday, "I never realized how traumatized I was by my time at Richmond State Hospital." It wasn't until I started writing about it that I realized I was still in a lot of pain over what happened there.
For example, after the suicide of a friend's daughter, I became suicidal. For five days I told staff I was suicidal. I even showed my therapist my suicide note. Nothing was done until I made an attempt. Looking back on it, it still infuriates me--but writing about it helps me feel like I'm less alone in my battle to receive proper mental health treatment. Writing about it helps me look at it with the aid of hindsight, and allows me to see different perspectives. Writing about it helps me to face the pain, which is the only way I will ever overcome it. Writing about it is crucial to the healing process.
Fiction Based on Reality
I love to write fiction. However, much of my fiction is based on reality. Fiction allows me to literally rewrite events.
For example, a novel I'm working on features a character with post-traumatic stress disorder who managed to function in real life. That's about all the two of us have in common. As a teenager, she becomes involved with a vigilante organization, which leads to legal trouble. My character then realizes that she needs help, and reluctantly agrees to intense counseling. She is able to open up with her therapist and slowly make peace with her past.
That's my goal in real life. I want to face and overcome my past. And by practicing it in my mind by writing, I make the transition that much easier.
Oberg, B. (2013, April 16). The Therapeutic Power of Writing, HealthyPlace. Retrieved on 2019, September 15 from https://www.healthyplace.com/blogs/borderline/2013/04/the-therapeutic-power-of-writing
Author: Becky Oberg
I journal as a kid in high school b/c of child of abuse and verbal abuse by my MOTHER. Feel the love there. Thanks for you help. Wishing you success.
Peace and Light