Introduction to Emma-Marie Smith, Author of 'Verbal Abuse in Relationships'
I’m Emma-Marie Smith, and I’m proud to be joining the Verbal Abuse in Relationships blog here at HealthyPlace. A few years ago, I met a man who was charming, intelligent, and good looking. My family liked him, my friends liked him, and he did all the things a good boyfriend does. He bought me flowers, left love notes under my pillow, and was always proud to introduce me to his friends and colleagues — but that wasn’t the whole story. The verbal abuse began weeks into our relationship and lasted for almost two years.
Emma-Marie’s Experience of Verbal Abuse
At first, it was small things that provoked him to verbal abuse, like the way I twisted the toothpaste tube or slammed a door too hard. But before long, everything became shadowed by his criticism: the way I looked, how I spent my money, or the way I held a knife and fork. He validated all my insecurities and took responsibility for my successes, claiming I would be nothing without his support. When the relationship ended, I sat on the kitchen floor and considered taking my own life, as I truly believed I was worthless without his approval.
Luckily, that wasn’t the end of my story, and with the support of loved ones and regular therapy, I began to see him for what he was: insecure and scared of losing control. In turn, I learned that the abuse was never really about me, but that I had played a part in its destructive cycle.
Life After a Verbally Abusive Relationship
I now share a cozy home in Bath, the United Kingdom with my fiancé and our two-year-old son and will graduate next year with a degree in Creative Writing and English Literature. Having struggled with depression and anxiety since I was a child, life isn’t always easy, but I no longer feel that I am living in someone’s shadow. The idea that there are others trapped in that abusive cycle, or trying to overcome the trauma of past abuse, is what encourages me to share my own story of verbal abuse in my relationship. With this blog, I aim to offer those people a safe place to share their experiences and assure them that a life free from verbal abuse is possible.
'Verbal Abuse in Relationships' Video
This video shows more about me and where I want to take the "Verbal Abuse in Relationships" blog.
Smith, E. (2017, June 29). Introduction to Emma-Marie Smith, Author of 'Verbal Abuse in Relationships', HealthyPlace. Retrieved on 2019, June 26 from https://www.healthyplace.com/blogs/verbalabuseinrelationships/2017/06/introduction-to-emma-marie-smith
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I'm sorry to hear about your situation. It does sound like your husband is perpertrating both verbal and financial abuse. Please remember that you are not to blame for the way he acts. Relationships are meant to be about mutual respect and communication, and it doesn't sound like there is a lot of that going on here.
These situations are never simple, particularly when children are involved, but often things become clearer once we're able to get some distance. Could you arrange for you and your daughter to go and stay with family for a couple of weeks so you can explore your options? I know you feel trapped, but there are people out there who can help you should you decide to leave.
It sounds to me like you are the very opposite of worthless. You sound like a great mother and someone who takes a lot of pride in your work and responsibilities. You care because you are his wife, and that's the sort of person you are. Caring is what makes this kind of abuse so painful. Your husband is supposed to love and respect you and his child more than anyone in his life. You love him -- yet he causes you so much pain. Sadly, no matter what you do he is unlikely to change. It's also worth bearing in mind that emotional abuse is the earliest indicators of physical abuse in a relationship. Just because it hasn't happened yet, doesn't mean it won't.
The domestic abuse hotline on our <a href="https://www.healthyplace.com/other-info/resources/mental-health-hotline-numbers-and-referral-resources/" rel="nofollow">mental health resources page</a> might be helpful should you decide to reach out. It might be a good idea to seek some legal advice regarding your living arrangements. In the meantime, keep a log of his verbal abuse in case you ever need to prove it in court.
Good luck, and remember you're not alone in this xxx
We have reported him to the police adult protective services and child protective services because he came to hemet where we live and tried to take lexi who is now 12 back to live with him again since he just married her mom now he thinks he owns both of them shes very afraid of him when he came he almost an us over then another time he kicked my car and was trying pull lexi in his car what can we do?
thank you for any help
scared for my friends
I'm sorry to hear that your friend is going through that, you must be very worried for her. Where does she live? In the UK, if you are worried for the safety of a child you can report it <a href="https://www.nspcc.org.uk/what-you-can-do/report-abuse/." rel="nofollow">here</a> If you live in the States, you can call the <a href="http://www.childhelp.org/hotline/" rel="nofollow">ChildHelp</a> hotline.
It may be difficult for your friend to see her partner's behavior for what it is, especially if he is controlling and coercing her. However, the emotional and financial abuse you have described is illegal here in the UK, whether or not there is also a threat of physical violence. Perhaps you could encourage her to contact Women's Aid, or offer to get in touch with them on her behalf? Know that leaving her partner is not an easy thing for her to consider. He may have made her feel as though she is completely dependent on him, or she might be scared for her safety and the safety of her daughter if she leaves. It might help you to read <a href="https://www.healthyplace.com/blogs/verbalabuseinrelationships/2011/02/when-you-love-someone-who-is-abused/">this article</a> about loving somebody who is being abused.
Any kind of domestic abuse should be taken seriously by the police -- especially if a child is involved -- so I'm disheartened to hear about your experience. I appreciate that you want to help your friend but you can't force her to leave her abusive partner. However, you can make her aware of the options out there and report any concerns you have for her child.
Thank you so much for your comment. It's taken me a while to speak out about it, and I wasn't sure I should, but my gut feeling is that many others will have been through something similar to you and I, and might appreciate me sharing my story. Sorry to hear about your experience, it sounds like you've been through a lot and have had to be really strong. I hope you're on the path to finding happiness now :)