Before being diagnosed with posttraumatic stress disorder (PTSD), I thought that my biggest issue was alcoholism. What I didn’t understand was that there was a direct link between my drinking and dealing with my PTSD symptoms. I was self-medicating to control my symptoms without even knowing it.
Numbing PTSD Symptoms with Substance Abuse
Looking back, I can see that I suffered from the symptoms of PTSD long before I was diagnosed. At the time though, I wasn’t aware that my depression, guilt, shame, and anxiety were related to the emotional trauma I had suffered. Instead, I thought that there was something wrong with me because I couldn’t seem to ever really be happy and enjoy life.
When I discovered that alcohol lessened my feelings of sadness and anxiety, and allowed me to relate to others without fear and shame, I thought that I had found my solution, my magic potion. As the years progressed, my PTSD symptoms increased though, and I started having flashbacks in addition to my other issues. I found that the only way I could shut them off was to drink more and more. Alcohol numbed the feelings and made the flashbacks go away. My new coping strategy worked for a while, but in the end, alcoholism and its negative consequences are what prompted me to get help. It was while I was in treatment for my drinking that I was finally diagnosed with PTSD and my recovery from both began.
PTSD and Substance Abuse Often Co-Occur
It is thought that between 30 and 50 percent of PTSD sufferers also have a substance abuse or addiction problem. We drink or use drugs to escape from the flashbacks, nightmares, anxiety, and depression. We drink to feel happy and enjoy ourselves.
However, the benefits of drug/alcohol use are usually short-lived, and often magnify issues for PTSD sufferers. They may become more angry, violent and aggressive, depression may become deeper, and feelings of anxiety and fear may increase when they use drugs or alcohol. These are some of the exact issues that led me to ask for help for my alcoholism, and ultimately receive the proper diagnosis of PTSD.
Treat Substance Abuse Before PTSD
Addiction and substance abuse changes our thoughts, feelings, and behaviors. That is why it is important to deal with the addiction issues first, before treatment for PTSD can be effective. In my experience, it was only when I was successful at staying sober for a period of about 6 months, that I was in any shape to begin working on my PTSD. It was important for me to be in a place where my real emotions, not those that were chemically induced, were out in the open and available to be dealt with. I believe that is when my true recovery began.
If you feel like you might have an addiction issue and you suffer from the symptoms of PTSD also, know that you are not alone, and that recovery from both PTSD and alcoholism is possible.