Start of my day

I am at the library and it is the begining of the day. I have no idea what this day will hold for me. Maybe I should not sit around and wait for the pain. Depression and the chronic physical pain will soon appear and I dread it already. I see so many of us on here who are just hurting. That is enough to make me want to hurt right now. Human suffering is something we all have to deal with and can not avoid. I just wish compassion was as common as human suffering. If more people would care about the next person then suffering would not be so bad and could actually be less of an castrophe. I will fight today nevertheless. I will choose to clean my house and play with my kids. I will choose to be thankful there is food in my fridge and a roof over my head. I will remember those who suffer more than I do. Maybe my pain is just minutes away but right now I will enjoy the moment and when it rears its ugly head I will continue to smile.