My Experience With Depression
This was, by far, the most difficult page on this site for me to write. I did so, mostly because the whole thing would seem rather clinical and preachy, without it. I hope you will see how important this topic is for me. For those who are "sufferers," I want you to know that you are not alone. This page is proof.
About Me - The Basics
I was born in 1964, in a rural town in New England. My family was seemingly normal, and believe me, no one expected me to wind up being depressed.
I was the second of three children (middle-child syndrome? - could be, a disproportionate number of middle children become depressed sometime in their lives). Like my brother and sister, I was extremely intelligent. I would have done well in school, except that I was high-strung and difficult to deal with. My parents and others, such as teachers in school, didn't care to put up with my antics. Also, being quick to outbursts, I was a natural "teasing target" for other kids. Put this all together and you have a formula for horror. For many years, I was teased and even beaten up by the other kids in school, right under the noses of teachers and my parents, who didn't care to put a stop to it because I was difficult to deal with. (I will get back to this later.)
Somehow I managed to get myself under control around the age of 15. I became more active in school and even got into theater and other activities, academic and otherwise. I started making good grades (intellectually speaking, schoolwork was way beneath me, even in high school. So once I got my act together, I breezed along). I won some academic awards for various science experiments and got an early admission to my state university's School of Engineering.
College was, shall we say, an interesting experience. I found the work much tougher there and wasn't disciplined enough to keep going in engineering. I changed over to liberal arts and got a degree that way. About three weeks before graduation, my father died, which was a real blow at the time. During that same period, I started dating a girl who, two years later, I married.
Right after college, I started working at a large savings and loan and remained there for well over 9 years (I lost my job due to a merger). By then, I had been working in the systems department for 5 years and as an experienced computer-support person, I wasn't worried about getting a new job. Three months later, I had a new job and it was, and still is, a great place to work.
Just then, when everything was looking good for me, my entire world fell apart.
Staff, H. (2008, December 26). My Experience With Depression, HealthyPlace. Retrieved on 2021, May 9 from https://www.healthyplace.com/depression/articles/my-experience-with-depression