Addiction Recovery Requires Constant Self-Evaluation
Addiction is death. I don’t just mean physical death. I mean emotional, mental and spiritual death as well. Addiction has the ability to destroy lives – and I should know. I have seen first-hand how addiction has destroyed relationships, leaving individuals broken and beaten down. I have this experience.
My addiction caused me to act and behave in ways that to this day amaze me. I stole, cheated, and lied - all in the name of getting that next high. I put myself at risk both physically as well as mentally. There was no way in hell I should have been using considering that I have a co-occurring mental health disorder. My addiction is the great deceiver, telling me, “It’s okay. Just one won’t hurt.” My addiction has all the answers, or so it thinks.
Addiction Recovery Requires Constant Monitoring
Even now, with 24 years clean, my addiction likes to play with my head. It comes in the form of its companions, obsession and compulsion. I still have to wrestle with these two adversaries. Just ask my wife. She describes me according to the old expression, “like a dog with a bone.” Once I get a hold of an idea, I do not let go. Now, this isn’t always a bad thing. But when the obsession/compulsion begins to affect my life in an adverse manner, then I need to put myself in check.
When I think about how addiction has affected my life, I quickly realize that no matter how long I have been clean, there are certain things I need to do to maintain my addiction recovery. 12-Step meetings, prayer, and regularly connecting with my support system are all things I do to keep the “sleeping tiger” at bay. I have also learned about my limitations – those things I know that I am incapable of doing safely. I can no longer put myself in risky situations that test my recovery. I know what I can and cannot do. This is where intuition comes in handy. If a situation doesn’t feel “right,’ then I know to try and get out ASAP.
By acknowledging my addiction and asking for help, I have taken the first step to dealing with the problem. When I do so, I have broken the chains that have kept me in bondage and imprisoned my soul. True addiction recovery is a day-by-day process – one that requires constant self-evaluation. RECOVERY IS POSSIBLE.
CASAC, K. (2012, April 24). Addiction Recovery Requires Constant Self-Evaluation, HealthyPlace. Retrieved on 2019, August 26 from https://www.healthyplace.com/blogs/debunkingaddiction/2012/04/addiction-recovery-requires-constant-self-evaluation