A Horrible, Troublesome, Bad Binge Eating Disorder Day
Yesterday I had a horrible, troublesome, bad binge eating disorder day. My day was so awful, I spent all of last night crying and writing, writing and crying (Binge Eating Disorder and Art Therapy). I felt defeated, helpless, disappointed in myself, and like an utter failure. After a disturbed night's sleep, I still don't feel back to my normal, chipper self. But I got out of bed, put on a dress, went to the tea shop, and started writing this post.
What Happened on My Bad Binge Eating Disorder Day?
My bad binge eating disorder day started out with me panicking. My work had not been going well for a while and as I looked over a report, I saw just how far in the red I was. I had been working so incredibly hard, dedicating myself to my task, learning more and more about how to be successful in this business, and the results were not there. I felt defeated before I even left the house.
I needed to go to Costco to get protein shakes and when I got there, utter terror overtook me. I had no food in the fridge, I was running low on funds for the month, and I was armed with the American Express card that I only use at Costco. I loaded my cart with entirely too much food for someone who has an eight ounce stomach due to gastric weight loss surgery.
In the chip aisle, I found myself crying while I put a gigantic bag of Doritos into my cart because I was unable to stop myself. When I picked up a package of 18 slices of naan bread, my brain told me this wasn't a bad idea at all, this was a challenge to finish the package by myself (Binge Eating Disorder's Intrusive Thoughts).
Everyone Has Bad Binge Eating Disorder Days
It would be great to say days like this will be so rare that writing about troublesome binge eating disorder days will just be a once-in-a-lifetime encounter. But they're not. Everyone encounters days like this and when you are in recovery, no matter how well you're doing, one could still happen to you. It's important to learn how to cope after a binge.
Soothing the Aftermath Of A Bad Binge Eating Disorder Day
After having a bad binge eating disorder day like this, you might feel stunned, confused, hopeless, or a huge range of emotions. It's important to remember the following.
- The day was just one bad day in binge eating recovery. There will be other days and they can be better.
- Lean on your support system for help. Talk to a friend in your binge eating disorder support system about what you're feeling. Discuss what happened with your binge eating disorder therapist.
- Identify your triggers. What preceded this bad day? What did you feel, who did you see, what happened to you? How can you avoid or limit contact with these things which contributed to your bad binge eating disorder day (BED Triggers: What You Should Know)?
- Be gentle with yourself. Everyone has bad days. You are not a failure because you lost control. You are dealing with a serious eating disorder and it's not easy.
- Reflect. You had an experience, it impacted you but it does not have to define you. Accept what happened and that you don't have to let this color the rest of your week, month, day, or life.
LaBranche, S. (2015, December 10). A Horrible, Troublesome, Bad Binge Eating Disorder Day, HealthyPlace. Retrieved on 2019, September 17 from https://www.healthyplace.com/blogs/bingeeatingrecovery/2015/12/the-horrible-terrible-troublesome-binge-eating-disorder-day