Footprints in the snow.. (real snow this week!) smiles are back...

Hello again everyone, well today is christmas eve! exciting times right..? fab if you have children and are feeling the christmas spirit but i understand that some of you out there may be feeling worse at this time of year..? so for those of you. my thoughts are with you.. on the job front. i had a good think. and realised that maybe (after taking a BIG step back) this risk i was thinking of taking with the job. along with the pay cut.. losing my support network and leaving my friends behind.. was to big for me to take. just not worth it. after several attempts at pros and cons lists. i declined the job offer. that night i slept properly for the first time in over 3 weeks and have done each night since. (that was tuesday i did it and feels like a life time!!!) this week i have felt more upbeat and in control of feelings that i dont like. i.e jelousy. and feeling left out. although cracks appeared a bit when i was at home with my family. i finished work today at 1pm and am now off until the 4th of january. alot of time to fill it seems but have luckily taken it in my stride. and havent panicked. feel more relieved than anything to have some time to myself and maybe give my body the chance to get over the pleurisy i have contracted. the doctors werent pleased with my 1 stone weight loss when i went on tuesday so had a blood test the following morning. the results of which i wont find until next wednesday. so heres to hoping its nothing more sinister than perhaps an over active thyroid at the very most.. happy holidays everyone :-D