Anxiety and me after hospitalization

I have been hospitalized twice in the last month. Which brings up the topic why didn't the first hospitalization work? I wasn't ready for anything to work at the point of the first hospitalization. I was suicidal and set on my goal of committing suicide. Of course I told everyone at the first hospital that everything was peachy and let them take me through their rigamaroll, but after I was released I attempted suicide by overdose again within two days of getting released. The first hospital was all about medicating you and watching you. The second hospital I went into was very program oriented and very structured toward a goal of showing people not only that structure and routine works, but that have goals and achieving them throughout the day makes you feel good. I was very happy after I was released the second time, not that I was jumping up and down for joy, but I felt like I got something that I was missing in my life, except for help with my anxiety. That has been the number one thing that has been taking over my life since my release. I have been excused to go back to work, but I am afraid that something is going to happen to me or my husband or my animals while I am there, and I know that is my OCD, but it has been ruling my life since getting out. I finally got in to see my therapist and my doctor and found out that I do not have bipolar at all, but severe chronic depression, severe chronic PTSD,and severe chronic OCD. I feel good not having bipolar, not that there is anything wrong with anyone that has it, because I thought that I did for the longest time, but it just one less burden I have to carry. I just want to get my OCD under control badly so I can function properly.