I WANT DO DIE:'(

MY LIFE SUCKS EVERYBODY HATES ME PEOPPLE TELL ME THEY WANT MY DO DIE AND I DO BUT IM NOT GOIN TO KILL MYSELF BUT I REALLY REALLY WANT TO I DONT THINK MY BOYFREIND EVEN LIKES ME BUT HE TELLS ME HE LOVES ME AND HE BUYS ME EXSPENSIVE JULRY BUT HE DOESNT ACT LIKE HE LIKES ME AND HE TREATS ME LIKE SHIT JUST LIKE EVERYBODY ELSE THAT KNOWS I EXZIST DOES EVERYBODY IN MY LIFE THAT I CAN TALK TO IS GONE ECSEPT 2 PEOPLE MY BFF AND MY LIL BRO AND ALL MY DOGS R GONE THE ONE I MISS THE MOST IS CHICIA I HAD HER FOR 7 YEARS THEN I HAD TO WATCH HER GET HIT BY NINE CARS BUT YEA I HATE MY LIFE I MEAN EVERYBODY IN MY LIFE HATES ME AND TREATS ME LIKE SHIT NOBODY EVEN WANTS ME ALIVE SO Y AM I STILL ALIVE IDK I DONT EVEN WANT TO BE ALIVE IV BEEN THROUGH ALOT I MEAN IM A 12 YEAR OLD GIRL WHO HASNT SEEN HER MOM IN MONTHS AND LIVES WITH HER BITCHY GMA AND HAS NEVER EVER SEEN OR TALKED TO HER REAL DAD EVERAND MY MOM HASNT SEEN OR TALKED TO HIM IN 13 YEARS AND MY STEP DAD HAS LEFT US 3 TIMES AND MY MOM IS TO SICK TO WORK AND MY STEP DAD SPENDS ALL HIS MONEY THAT HE GETS FROM WORK FOR THE FAMILY ON DRUGS AND BEER AND ANYTHING HE WANTS SO WHEN HE WENT TO MISHAGAIN MY MOM WAS REALLY REALLY SICK AND I LIVED IN A CAR FOR 3 MONTHS WITH MY LIL BRO MY LIL SIS AND MY MOM BUT NOW MY MOM ISNT SO SICK AND SHE HAD A JOB AND SHE DOESNT HAVE ANYWHERE TO LIVE SO EVERY NIGHT SHE GOES TO ONE OF HER FREIND HOUSES AND STAYS THE NIGHT OR SHELL STAY WITH HER BOYFREIND AND MY AND MY LIL BRO AND SIS R LIVEING WITH OUR GMA WHO HATES ALL BOYS ANS ANYBODY 10 OR OLDER BUT SHE ONLY DOES THAT WITH HER GRANDKIDS BUT YEA I DONT THINK SHE WANTS ME TO LIVE I MEAN LIKE SHE CALLS ME A SLUT A HORE A BITCH AND SHE SLAPS US SO HARD SHE LEAVS HUGE RED MARKS AND BRUESES BUT YEA I HATE MYSELF EVERYBODY WANTS ME TO DIE AND I WANT TO BUT I DONT UNDERSTAND THERES LIKE 20 KIDS IN MY SCHOOL WHO DONT WANT ME TO DIE AND THERE IS LIKE ATLEAST 935 KIDS IN MY SCHOOL AND SOME OF MY FAMILY TRYED TO KILL ME BY BEATING ME IN THE HEAD WITH A HAMER AND MY UNCLE IS A CHILD MELESTER AND HE MELESTED ME FROM THE TIME I WAS ABOUT 6 MONTHS UNTILL I WAS 7 YEARS OLD AND LAST SUMMER MY BOYFREIND RAPED ME ABOUT EVERYDAY FOR ABOUT 2 MONTHS THERE IS ALOT MORE I WANT TO SAY BUT IM SEEING SHADOWS AGAIN I IM JUST THINKING ABOUT STUFF AND I WANT TO GO TO BED CUZ IM STILL UP AND ITS 5:12AM SO PEACE TTYL!!!!!!!!!!!