Feeling Hollow
There's something wrong.
I trusted you with my life.
You tried to take it away.
I sit here in the dark and call out for help,
But no sound surpasses the barriers
Of the secrets behind my teeth.
I try to get away from you,
But you haunt me like no other.
I see you as you were,
8 years ago.
Angry, ravenous,
And willing to succeed
In your minute-long quest
To choke the breath out of me.
I can't stand the anger,
I can't stand the pain.
Leave me be,
I don't want to remain
Strangled by your hands,
The salt in my veins.
You take the life from me,
There's not much that remains.
I'm willing to give up,
I'm willing to let go.
My secret goes unbelieved,
My tears never seem to show.
They didn't believe me then,
They don't believe me now.
They waved their little girl crying,
And pushed it to the backs of their minds somehow.
Well I'm not like them,
I can't forget.
And life is too short,
To have such regrets.
You broke me down
Like no other could,
And even now,
I feel more hollow than I should.
I don't trust as easily
Because of what you've done,
And I push others away
Because I fear what's to come.
I need some help to get away
From this nightmare I call my own.
My threaded ends have begun to frey,
And my tears have finally shown.
I need to get out
Of this god-forsaken place.
Otherwise all the pain I've held back
Will sit clear on my face.
I can't stand the hurt,
I can't stand the shame.
But you always said to me
That I looked beautiful in pain.
You swore you'd never hurt me.
You swore you'd never lie.
And now I see in the mirror
All that's broken up inside.
I can't get away from these awful things!
Someone,
Please,
Help me spread my glorious wings.
APA Reference
(2009, July 23). Feeling Hollow, HealthyPlace. Retrieved
on 2024, December 11 from https://www.healthyplace.com/support-blogs/myblog/Feeling-Hollow