Footprints in the snow - managing all of this free time..?

Going to start by saying that i hope everyone had a really good christmas day.. Mine was okay. Main aim was to keep myself really busy as this year i didnt get excited. basically had no interest in what was going on around me. and so spent the entire day in my room doing different things. Managed fine doing that yesterday but today have flagged a little and am now feeling a little nervous about the 8 empty days in front of me. Although i have nothing planned i have put myself into a bit of a catch 22 situation. I do want to do things. but at the same time. to plan things mean i have to contact people and seem to get told people are to busy alot of the time and then i know that will make me feel somewhat worse. But what do you do to keep busy all through the christmas holidays..? I had 5 films as gifts and the first misfits series. yesterday i watched 2 of my dvds and 2 films on tv. plus two episodes of things. i dont understand why i feel so tense.. even just now.. the choice of bath or shower? found myself thinking. if i have bath. i will just sit and think and dont want to do that. just cant be bothered to do anything. its 4pm here and have only just got dressed. and not because i was all relaxed in my pj's. because i didnt want to have to choose clothes. or .. go out of my room. just finding myself waiting for 8pm or so to come round. an acceptable bed time.