I’m on break. Last Tuesday, I took my final performance exam of physical therapy school and knocked it out of the park. Now, I’m on break. It’s wonderful and I’m taking the first few days to do absolutely nothing. I’ve got my computer tuned to one of those fun websites that let’s you watch a ton of television and I’m watching season four of Top Chef. There is one person on this season that has got me wondering how we look to others. I have zero idea whether he has adult attention-deficit/hyperactivity disorder (ADHD), but it sure does seems like it. What do I mean by that? Keep reading »

I believe the single most significant decision I can make on a day-to-day basis is my choice of attitude. It is more important than my past, my education, my bankroll, my successes or failures, fame or pain, what other people think of me or say about me, my circumstances, or my position. Attitude keeps me going or cripples my progress. It alone fuels my fire or assaults my hope. When my attitudes are right, there is no barrier too high, no valley too deep, no dream too extreme, no challenge too great for me. ~ Charles R. Swindoll

Choose to Turn the Page

What barriers are keeping you from experiencing joy, personal fulfillment and happiness? Are you holding on to sadness, disappointment, or hopelessness rather than focusing on an outlook of bliss? Do you feel like no matter what you do all roads lead to melancholy?

Many of us can think of a long and distinguished list of reasons or excuses why we are not making forward moving progress towards living a blissful life. When I think of my formative years, I grow up in a small rural farming community, my mother was diagnosed with a fatal heart virus, my sister got run over by a drunk-driver when she was four (thank God she is alive and well today), and a vicious dog bit me on my face.
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Who doesn’t look for validation from others? Have you ever had one of those days where you posted the best picture on a social media site and received little to no attention for it? Maybe you are wearing a brand new outfit or walked out the door feeling super confident in your appearance, but no one mentions how great you look? These are just examples, but many people find they need external validation. They don’t know who they are without it. Sadly, this temporary trick doesn’t help the foundation for long lasting self-esteem. Keep reading »

I love language. I believe the words we choose shape our minds and our world. This is why I choose to say, “I have depression” instead of saying, “I’m depressed.” My depression diagnosis is a part of me, but it isn’t all of me. Using positive language to describe my illness helps me manage my illness.

At times, I definitely feel like I am a walking pit of doom and gloom. I feel so depressed that I literally can’t believe I’ll ever feel anything good ever again. I wonder, why live when I feel like dying? No feeling ever lasts forever, though. If I wait it out, usually a friend will text me or I’ll see a new recipe I want to try. The world reminds me that there is more to me than my depression. Keep reading »

Close your eyes for a moment and imagine: Suppose that one night there is a miracle, and while you’re sleeping your anxiety disappears. How would you know that it was really gone? What would be different? What would you notice the very next morning that would tell you that this miracle has occurred. What about others? What would they notice?

Does the possibility of such a miracle seem ridiculously outlandish? Something that can’t happen in the real world? Perhaps surprisingly, it really can happen. Keep reading »

There has been so much in the news recently about the lack of decent care that people are getting in psychiatric facilities. Our system is suffering and taking the people who need it the most down with it. I had read about this and seen the news stories but I never imagined it would happen to my son, in the small psychiatric facility right in my own backyard. Keep reading »

Like with all mental illnesses, what happens in the brain to cause combat-related posttraumatic stress disorder (PTSD) cannot fully be explained; nevertheless, there are many things that we do know. We do know what parts of the brain are involved in a stress response and we do know what neurotransmitters are involved and the types of medication that can be used to correct some of those systems. Keep reading »

Anxiety disorders can manifest in many different ways. Regular readers of this blog and people living with these disorders know many of the different ways panic attacks, anxiety attacks, and paranoia can interfere with a person’s life.

This blog entry, however, isn’t necessarily for the person living with an anxiety disorder. There isn’t anything I can add to the conversation about living with anxiety and the massive amount of self-doubt it creates, but I can explain it to people who do not understand and hope that sharing this with others will allow them to have an idea of what we are going through.

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I have been in treatment for bipolar disorder for about 16 years. And during all that time I have tried every medication known to man, vitamins, herbs, chakra-cleaning (really), tinctures and various types of therapy.

And no matter what treatment I’ve been on, two things have been true:

  • People will insist on judging me for it.
  • Some people will disagree with it.

So to all the people out there who are not my doctor I ask: Why should I have to justify my mental illness treatment to you? Keep reading »

I’m taking an online course in Kabbalah, which is a form of Jewish mysticism. Last night I learned something that was a Copernican shift in my worldview–God wants us to be happy. God wants to give us endless fulfillment. Then the professor said that we were asking ourselves, “What went wrong?” God wants us to be happy–so why aren’t we? Keep reading »