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Things Verbal Abusers Say and Do

What does verbal abuse sound like? The tone and content varies from abuser to abuser, but the words effect the victim in similar ways. Victims hear horrible things from their abuser and they feel small, withdrawn, angry, helpless, sad, shame, and a hundred other horrible emotions – sometimes all at once.

In the beginning of my relationship, I felt anger and stood up for myself which led to loud, circular verbal altercations that had no solutions. Later, after coming to believe that he was my hero, my savior and provider, I felt stupid and wanted to fix myself so he would love me.  Much later, I turned away and left the house for awhile which eventually led to increased physical violence and leaving forever.

Sometimes my abuser’s words hurt when he jabs and attempts to provoke on the phone. Mostly, the memory, the countless memories of what he’s said to me rear up and try to convince me that his remembered voice is my own.

This list is only a partial list of the things verbal abusers say. It’s not limited to my own abusive relationship. It takes into account what other’s have reported hearing, too.

Things Verbal Abusers Say:

  • “Why don’t you get a job so you understand the real world? Oh, wait – I forgot – you can’t get a job because you’re a stupid sh!t.
  • “Quit your whining and crying. You have no reason to cry or complain! Your life is perfect because I made it that way!”
  • “Bitch” (and the countless other names I won’t bother to list)
  • “I should have left you at the club with all the other whores.”
  • “If you were more like my mother I could worship you.”
  • “I hate it when you act so pitiful. Stop the waterworks and talk like a human being.”
  • “I can’t stand to look at you. You make me sick.”
  • “You’re such a great actress! You know how to get what you want, don’t you?”
  • “I can’t believe I have to come home to you every day. How did I get involved with such a train wreck?”
  • “I must be the first a$$hole to love you. You don’t know how to please a man!”
  • “You’re fat and miserable and you make me hate you.”
  • “You always look like God stomped on your face.”
  • “Why do you care what I want for dinner? My favorites taste like crap when you make them anyway.”
  • “You used to be as beautiful as my ex, but geesh – time hasn’t been good to you, baby!”
  • “Those children are mine, will always be mine, and if you leave you’ll never see them again.”

Things Verbal Abusers Do:

  • Deny they said anything similar to the list above.
  • Defend what they’ve said.
  • Analyze what they’ve said out loud, explaining that the words they used do not have the definitions you seem to think they do.
  • Block you in a room so you can’t leave and thereby avoid what they’re saying.
  • Talk horribly to the television but are really speaking to you.
  • Flip open their knife to open a piece of gum while looking at you under knitted brows.
  • Leave to do something else at the last minute when you had plans together.
  • Take you out for your best birthday ever and then wind up berating you on the way home for not appreciating their efforts enough.
  • Tell your children you need more happy pills to be a good mom.
  • Change the topic of the conversation so you bounce from one place to another, never getting to the core of the issue.
  • Accuse you of being a whore or a dummy or a _________ so often that they no longer need to say the words but can offer up a “look” and you know what they’re saying (then they may deny it).

Abusive people, men and women, say and do similar things to control their victims. The delivery may vary in tone or type, but the effect is the same.Okay. I have to stop. My stomach is literally upset right now after digesting the utter contempt and hatred some people spew on a daily basis.

If you’re still living in this nonsense, learn about detachment and how it can benefit you. Maybe in time you’ll choose to leave your abuser, and maybe you’ll choose to stay. No one here will judge you for staying (I’ve been there and it can feel hopeless!), but please work on ways to make yourself feel better in the process.

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*Both women and men could be abusers or victims, so do not take my pronoun choices as an implication that one gender abuses and the other is victimized.

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336 Responses to Things Verbal Abusers Say and Do

  1. If you could get through to him, you could have done it the first time you reasoned with him. Abuse is not about reason, it’s about control. Get treatment for your depression and contact the NDVH at http://thehotline.org. It’s time to go.

  2. bronwyn says:

    I am looking for some help I was wondering is it abuse when your partner calls you horrible names like stupid slag thick you act like a child because my partner says a lot to me he always puts me down and makes me feel crap about myself the other night I was sat next to him and was showing him what my daughter did to my son and the next thing he pushed my arm out the way and then I went to get my son and he pushed my arm out the way and started calling me stupid again Is this abuse or is it all in my head

  3. It is definitely abuse. It is not in your head.

  4. Nate says:

    I guess there is nothing for me here. Since I’m a guy, who is constantly being berated… good luck ladies. (I’m NOT being sarcastic)

  5. virginia lee says:

    I’m pregnant and I am depressed more often and feel sick 24/7 and so don’t cook as much as I used to or do as much around the house and my boyfriend calls me a piece of crap and tells me that I don’t do anything anymore and it really hurts my feelings. I thought that maybe he’s right and I’m a depressed awful person but I’m only depressed when I’m around him. He had a porn addiction and whenever I would catch him he would call me names and make me feel really bad about myself. Is it abuse?

  6. Susan says:

    Been with the same man for 15 years. We have 1 child together. He can be a nice loving person when he wants. But can also be very mean as well. I guess I want us to be a happy family. But he still feels the need to go out all the time and stay out drinking all day (especially sundays). We both work hard and provide a lot for our child. When he does comes home he start to get mad at me and he doesn’t realized he is slurring his words or start to call me a “bitch”. He just really thinks it’s me being me being a bitch. I have asked him numerous times to stop with that name. But he thinks b/c I act like one than that’s my name. There has been times where he calls me that in front of my child. But when he is not drinking or away from those people that consume his time. He is the best husband and father. It seems I can’t do it anymore. We need marriage therapy and he need to stop using “bitch” all the time when he gets mad at me. Just don’t know what to do anymore

  7. Lou says:

    Hi everyone I’m louise … I’m sad tonight my partner is mean and constantly has horrible words to describe my children ….I’m honest with him and voice my concerns about my kids (nothing serious just progress at school) and as soon as he has had a drink he decides to use my words against me , the words I expressed to him in confidence (eldest had a hard year 3 at school he’s great now) as my loving partner!!! I’m a shit mum and a failure… I forgot to heat the Chicken for the wraps for his kids ( he has 2 from previous relationship) got the shit for that

  8. Mrs says:

    Are there any private, confidential support groups in NYC (Manhattan)? I would like to connect with other ladies suffering from verbal abuse, or married to an unstable man. I just need someone to talk to, to help me get back to the woman I was before my husband (and unfortunately the father of our child) destroyed me.

  9. jackie says:

    my mother is so mean and threating and sometimes me and her get in to a fight and she tells me she telling my stepdad and then she tells me to shut up and then she tells me to leave her alone and she gets on my nerves and case for nothing I can not deal with her I tell her what I do and what my sister would say about all this and she threatens once again my stepdad on me I am so tired of this I can not move out because I am not able to live on my own I love my mom but she [moderated] who has nothing better to do but threaten me what can I do

  10. Deborah says:

    So spot on about abuse. Whether it’s emotional, or physical, it’s still abuse. After my husband walked out of our 36 year marriage 3 years ago, it caused me pause and reflection to analyze the “who and what” I had married for eons. He was and still is a narcissist who never respected anything I said or did. I used to think it was just his arrogance, since he had been enlisted in the military and then became a Naval Officer. He could take tests extremely well too.

    Now, 3 years later and 59 years old now, divorced too has given me the strength to evaluate how I think about myself and how I want to be treated by others moving forward. I signed up on a online dating site with most men pleasant and respectful but there are others who are not, and I now can recognize it quicker than when I was married. One guy wrote to me calling me “baby” but wrote him back telling him I am no ones’ baby by any means especially to a perfect stranger.
    I feel more powerful now and know I will be fine moving forward.

  11. Elizabeth says:

    I dont work and today my husband told me i am worthless because of me he is in debts because i asont help him with the rent. Am i haveathree year old and 16 year old. He say he is here only for them i am tired of all the time he throw in me. That he pays here so today i told him i do help because with the food stamps we eat he say he wont eat here anymore. He is so childish but before that he told me he istired of me and inam worthless is thatabuse

  12. baby says:

    My husband is very bad with words and is a minister

  13. sara says:

    Hi I’m being with this guy for 15 months now and we are engaged, we live together.
    He is a great father and good boyfriend and very faithful but when he gets mad he call me bitch, stupid, dumb, cunt and it hurts me so bad that he treats me the way.
    I was married before and my ex was an abuser in every way and I feel like I’m back in the same situation.
    My fiance drink a lot and I told him to stop and he does it , but his words is to painful.
    What should I do?

  14. Autumn says:

    My husband and I dated in high school for 2 1/2 years then we broke up because of my family. We got back to gether 2011. We have been to gether almost 6 years. The first half was good but after I had my second child 2013 he was a complete ass. He would say things that hurt bad. He still does it we have been married for 2 years. He thinks he’s always right. And says hurtful things. He doesn’t think he does anything wrong. I just started to have anxiety attacks. We have two kids he adopted my oldest. I’m not sure what to do. He’s going to lose me.

  15. Kati says:

    @ Mrs.—I too am in Manhattan, I would love to meet up. Similar situations. Email is ilovecandybella at gmail. Hope to hear from you!

  16. Sharon says:

    Msc: What will it do to make you leave? Why are allowing your husband to treat you in this way? What is this teaching your family about relationships? It would have been a different story if the glass had hit your face or head, or god forbid one of the children, a trip to the emergency room could have resulted in all sorts if repercussions.

    Why does your husband think you flinch? if it’s that embarrassing he should stop treating you like some slave who is there to bully when he fancies it and then be nice to when he is in a more pleasant mood. Get some help and advice and get out of there before some real physical damage is done.

  17. Lelee says:

    So last night my husband and I had a fight and it got to the point where he starts to call me names, he said that I was ____ , I’m worthless, I’m a bad wife, and a dirty wife, then tonight he tells me that I’m a fat wife that can’t cook or please a man..I don’t see how I’m any of this because I mean I’m a clean freak, I can’t leave my house dirty with an 8 month old baby living in it. I’ve had this males back and held him down when his own family didn’t, I may not have taken care of him financially but I’ve been loyal faithful committed to this male and I get in return some name calling that I never knew existed in a males mouth. J have three kids and I’m a 189# 23yr old women. He fantasizes about him coming home and I’m standing by the door waiting for him and once he set foot in the house that I just pull down his pants and ask him how his day was or that I help him take his clothes off everyday when he comes home from work but at the same time be in the kitchen making dinner oh and also already have his drink made so he can sit on the couch and play games. Basically I’m a maid and not a wife. I’ve tried so hard to make us work but he’s just a child who don’t know how to talk to a women. He calls him self a player bc he’s done it with a lot of trannys and so he’s a player. But when u really see this person in reality……I promise u, u will think that he looks like a puffer fish or whatever that fish is called, a lot of people have told me so. But I love this man I just realize that everything that he’s called me yesterday and tonight really shows me how and what he thinks about me. I have more but I’ll stop here bc I’m really upset and need to cool down, sorry y’all didn’t mean to vent on here

  18. Shannon says:

    Why can’t I leave. He drinks and denies he is an alcoholic even though he is. We both had other problems with opiates and I hate to say it but he was much calmer doing those but now he does both. We struggle with our addiction but now that I currently don’t have a job he yells and screams at me daily. I have a 16 year old daughter who is not his – her and I live with family but I spend a lot of time at his house. I set a daily reminder in my phone to leave and next to it a question -”was my day free of verbal abuse?” and I have not answered no since I put it in there. I am not in denial about my problems or that I need to leave. He is not the person that will push me to do better nor will I ever be fully clean without him around. But I can’t leave because I don’t want to be alone. I have no friends – I am not working but trying to. I am depressed and I am seeking help. I really am trying to make this move but the whole idea of losing the person I’ve known for 15 years and together with for 9 (a year when we first met and now for the past 8 years). I don’t want to be alone and people like my mom say well you have me and other members of the family… more importantly you have your daughter. But you all know, it’s not the same. How sick am I to want to stay and be screamed at every day rather than move on with my life? What’s wrong with me? Why do I ask for this verbal abuse on a daily basis?

    Sometimes, I will say something just to see how he responds -not to provoke him but just to see if he has any love for me but it’s not love – it’s a means of control. He never assures me it’s going to be ok- There is nothing good left to this relationship- so why can’t I just leave? Can someone please help me? I wanted to do the chat but I am embarrassed. I am an addict who has gotten worse since I have been with this guy and I am so depressed, I barely shower once every two weeks.

    My daughter hates him but she will no longer listen to my rants and I can’t blame her. She is a super good kid – straight As saves money good friends- why isn’t my self worth and my love for her strong enough for me to say “I’M DONE FOR GOOD!!!” I have left quite a few times but never for more than a week and lately if I have left, it’s never for more than a few hours. I just don’t want to be 36, while my daughter is out on a Friday or Saturday night sitting with the old farts in my fam ( my mom and nana – I love them dearly but I see them twice a week as it is and live with my nana when I’m not sleeping at my boyfriends). Or I will be sitting home playing escape the room games or online poker. I leave him and that will be it- Who will want me? Why don’t I have any self worth or confidence – why am I so afraid to be alone that I would rather be verbally abused? I forgot to also mention that my bf has a 70 year old roommate with whom he sits and drinks with and I can’t stand the guy so 90% of the time, I sit alone watching movies. Why do I want this? Why can’t I leave? What do I need to get the gonads to get out of here? He is so mean but denies it and he is one of those that talks in circles to misdirect the root issue. It used to be better at one time.

    I met him at 21 after I divorced my daughter’s father. We dated for a year but then he left the state- we remained friends but even when I was with someone else for 6 years, he was the only person I ever wanted. Not anymore- I really don’t think the issue is that I still love him because I don’t cry at the thought of losing or leaving him, I cry at the thought of being alone and then growing old and dying alone one day without a partner. Does anyone have suggestions?

    PS Sorry for the rant but that felt good to get out- thank you healthy place!

  19. Renee says:

    I found out I had vulvar cancer in May. My husband refused to go to my dr appointments, surgeries (I had 3) and when I got home from the first and second surgeries he told me he wasn’t going to suffer because my “cunt was out of order” so I had better use one of my other holes to satisfy him. He took my pain medicine to use himself because he said his back hurt. After my second surgery he apologized for not being with me and told me to trust him and let him help me. When I asked him to go to my oncologist he said “It’s not like you’re having surgery, it’s a ____ dr appointment. Go by yourself. I’m going to the beach that day”. After my third surgery he said he didn’t give a ____ that I was sick because I hadn’t done enough to make him care. I’m trying to save up money to get away. The worst part is that he’s a doctor and no one would believe me if I tried to get help because he’s like Jeckyll and Hyde. No one knows the horror that goes on in our home. I’m so sad and lonely and tired. Mentally and physically tired.

  20. minac says:

    ive been with my husband for over 10 years now but weve been married for nearly 5 years . when i met him he was an alcoholic and could be a real s**t when he got plastered. but a few months into us dating and went to detox and stayed sober every since. Id like to think he did it for me and my son ( i know better now ) . through out all these years ive suffered from some horrible verbal abuse from him. it evolved into physical fights at times because i just …couldnt stand it anymore it takes a LOT to get me truly angry. and it takes a glass of spilt milk to cause him to lose it to where hes foaming at the mouth angry like a rabid dog. ive done and am doing the very best i can but its never enough for him. i never love him or think about him im selfish im lazy the messy house is ALWAYS on me even though i have a 3 year old and 1 year old to take care of i have manic depression and anxiety ive had since childhood and there are times where i feel so strangled with life that i just say oh im so tired ill do those dishes tomorrow. add on the fact that i work now 40 hours a week and while its not manual labor like his job ( the fact that his is manual labor means he works harder than me and shouldnt have to lift a finger around ths house) its still a job which can get stressful as ill sometimes have to deal with people screaming at me like he does. i dont sleep because my brain doesnt shut off and i have a dislocated tailbone and curved spine which doesnt help that fact. But let him tell it just becausr im 31 my issues are all in my head. only his problems are real and i dont have anything to worry about. and im in HIS house so i should be more grateful. ITs total BS i feel like im walking on eggshells in that house. It doesnt even FEEL like my home it feels like a place i lay my head. Yesterday though really took the cake. He once again after PROMISING me hed never let those words leave his lips again, called me a B***h and not just that he stops the car and tells me to get out like he completely stands out the drivers side like he wants to fight me. The way he looked at me youd think i was some guy on the street. i was beyond hurt and hea hurt me plenty through out the years with the things hes said. The day was supposed to be filled with getting clothes for our kids and shoes, mailings letters, shopping for xmas dinner items, washing up much needed laundry, and finally wrapping up gifts then getting kids back from my mothers house. we didnt even get one thing done because he just blew up out of no where. He can be nicest guy when he wants to be and a loving father and husband. But that pales in comparsion to the angry bitter monster he turns into when hes in one of his rages which happens nearly everyday. Ive even had another attempted suicide a few years back because i hate this world and it would be more bareable if i had a comforting person at home ( plus my meda were a bit off at that time) but instead i have him who i cant talk to about anything who twists my words ALL the time and who NEVER understands any pointa im trying to make to him. after the big blowout yesterday i just shut down for a few hours i had to just close my eyea and just get out the moment. Not long after hes comes in and start banging things around cutting lights on when im clearly trying to be left alone. He starts washing dishes banging and slamming things all the way through and hollera out to me when am i EVER going to wash a dish ( again total BS as im the MAIN one who doea it and other things round the house)the says if i dont want to live like a pig dont be a pig. That cut to the core. i thought real hard when i finally did shut down for maybe and hour of so after crying my eyes out (he laid right in the same bed but not next to me and didnt offer one hint of an apology – not that id have accepted it at that point) he tried to bait me again saying i couldve done something instead of just laying down i dont him not to speak to me and he says what makes me so special that he has to stop talking to me. another core cut. i get up and gather a few items hes asleep by that point so i couldve just left without him being none the wiser. but being the good person i am even aftet all hes said and done that day i still respect our marriage enough to let him know my intentions. i explain that ill be joining the kids at my mothers for the night as i need distance from the house. he of course gets enraged again kicks my things around and says im not going anywhere and his going to get the kids from my mom. i tell him i am leaving for my moms whethet the kids are there or not i need to get AWAY from him ( i dont mean that of course about my kids id never leave them with him when hes in that way) then he says ok if youre leaving so am i . i say ok thats fine. ( because at that point i really couldnt care less) the last and final cut was me gathering my 2 oldest and waiting for our cab and he says im acting like his ex by doing what im doing i tell him i dont want to argue thats whay im spending the night out. he blames me for making things worse making his anger worse anything to stand there and argue with him but i dont take the bait. even his mother telling him to stop doesnt help. so here i am today and hes not called me one all last night and nothing so far today. his familys going to be over the house today i honestly dont want to go home yet but i know all of my kida gifts are there and i cant deprive them of that because of him. at this point the only thing i can think to do is go to a marriage counsler which he completely shot down a few years ago back but i am done with the fights im so completely done i have to think about my kids which means i have to think about my mental health and being around all the stress of life plus having a constant stress come home to me and make it worse it not good. i didnt mean to make this so long but like a previous poster said it really does help to let it off your chest. i told him yesterday that id never forgive him for the things he put me through and i wont well i cant because no mattet what apologies he comes up with if any. ill never believe he means then never again not unless he gets help and shows me hes changed.

  21. Rachel says:

    I’m in an abusive marriage, I ask for a Divorce everyday, even on our 5th anniversary that was on the 26th I asked. I get the crying and the same old speak, I’m trying and I’m depressed, I’ll kill myself if you leave or fine I’ll just go and OD. I say fine do it! But he never leaves and when he does, he just wants to come and get his stuff and never leaves again. I don’t have any friends now, because tells my friends that I abuse him and talk shit about everyone and they believe him. I have no idea why people believe this monster that I’m with. My children hate him and want him gone and I always say I’m trying to get him out. I call the police and they removed him once and he just says all the right things to get back. I sound so stupid, even writing this I can’t believe that this is my life. He refuses to get a job and I can only find part-time work in my field. Maybe I’m just complaining to much, but I think NOT. I really wants this guy out of my life, and I know…”why don’t you just leave” The thing is, it’s my house prior to marriage! He get’s nothing! I think that’s why he won’t leave. He told me that a lawyer told him that if we get Divorced that I would have to pay him support LOL. I ask for the lawyers name and he just stats yelling again calling me names and motions to hit me or says watch it! I always ask what are you going to do? I say do it! Sometimes I want him to, cause that way he would be heading to jail and I could sell and move away before he got out. It’s not like he’s never hit me, I had the chance before but he said I had to much to drink and don’t remember punching you in the face with a cast on his hand. Oh I sound like I deserve this or that’s what people tell me.

  22. Kinsey says:

    That is really sad

  23. Beth says:

    I have an ex husband who lives with me because I need financial help. He won’t put his hands on me but ALWAYS tells me how much he hates me, I’m fat, step in front of a train, my children would be better off without me alive, makes fun of my wanting to find my faith again, hates church and makes fun of my desire to need Jesus… etc. it’s a reoccurring thing and he makes me feel like crying. I feel like he is standing on my chest and I can’t breathe. He makes me feel worthless and is always telling me I’m lazy and don’t do anything. (Just today I cleaned all the closets in my home and made a steak dinner…. which he complained was terrible)

    I can’t do this anymore. I can’t live like this anymore. 23 years of torment and I’m emotionally numb. HE IS CRAZY. HE ABUSES ADHD MEDS. HE IS THE DEVIL.

    I can’t handle my emotions anymore. I need to vent and so I move forward. Thanks for listening.

  24. Andrea says:

    They all have borderline personality run run run away. They need space and you need peace.

  25. Hannah says:

    We are lovely we are worthy, dont look bad on yourself. Pray for your spouse. May God gives you peace and comfort you need.
    Matthew 11:28-30 (KJV) Come unto me, all ye that labour and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest.
    Take my yoke upon you, and learn of me; for I am meek and lowly in heart: and ye shall find rest unto your souls.
    For my yoke is easy, and my burden is light.

    Psalms 34:18 (MKJV) The LORD [is] near to the broken-hearted; and saves those who are of a contrite spirit.
    Im also a victim, but in jesus i really have the peace.
    Jesus loves you.

  26. Sam says:

    Is it normal for a husband to call you a b**** and splash out money on his female friends with booking massages for their birthday my husbabd calls me short fat and says i have acheived nothing with my life . He smashed the bathroom mirror and knocked the kitchen bin over i feel so ashamed that how i can love him despite all the abuse i feel like i cant leave him but he treats me like crap and says he dont need me i feel that i have been robbed of my self worth he has hit me before but the most painful thing is the mental abuse please help and advise me as im scared and lost with what i should do . The sad thing is im scared i will never meet anyone again and he he will have tone of women falling to his feel why am i facing this cruelty and what should i do

  27. Kelly says:

    My spouse is a master manipulater and tells me he spoiled me which is far from the truth.
    Ive been called a child, a spoiled woman and that he is going to start treating me differently.
    That he could have been with many women by now. His tactics, he beats you down mentally so you are subservient. His own family cant be around him.
    Now that hes doing well for himself he beats me down more and tells me i dont deserve him. He has a way of making me feel like its my fault. Couldnt confront him, hes convinced hes right.

  28. pam says:

    My partner of 18 years exposes every kind of abuse there is. I can remember like 98% of the bad things he has said n done to me over the years is this normal to hold this stuff in like this even if i dont try to remember it. His favorite choice of words for me is b****. One of the most saddest of his behaviors is…He hurts me on purpose like if i reveal my arm hurt he will purposely cause more pain to the hurting arm. Once i revealed my neck hurt he started causing pain to my neck. I never knew it was people like this in the world. He will tell me im stupid despite him dropping lut in 10th grade and me in the process of my BA. He will also deny my children even after blood testing. If he is unfamiliar with a word i use he has physically hit me for his lack of knowledge. He has attracted me while driving on the high way. I stop kissing him in Oct 2016 and stop having sex with him since he put me at rish in Oct 2016 having unprotected sex then blamed me for his actions after. My youngest daughter have reported to me like 4 times hes been verbal agressive to her and once he grabbed her by the back of the neck roughly. I hate him for that mostly. He never takes ownership when he is wrong not even for the kids. He is the worst man that I know. I do have an excape plan. This is not all its 18 years of physical, mental, psychological, emotional abuse on me any abuse he has brought it upon me. I fear him horribly. He is a true monster. And i wish i never in my life ever met this diabolic thing.

  29. Jrobin says:

    As I write this, my spouse is sleeping in our children room after arguing with me because our daughter wanted to go to school today. I don’t know what to do anymore. I have read so many different articles about abuse. The articles describe him so well that it scares me. I don’t want to die by his hands. I know I am being emotionally abused and now he has been physically abusive. I tried to tell him to go to counseling but he turns it around and says he will be okay if I get a lie detector test! Yes he accuses me of cheating(even though he has cheated on me more than three times and he has a child support case from another woman he cheated on me with,btw he won’t take a DNA test, I think he knows that child is his) and of course he wants me to pay for it. He has caused me to lose jobs, friends, and family. He controls every detail of my life. I watch him once on his Facebook messenger send pictures of his penis to another woman while he was at work! So to answer the question yes he has choked me to the point I almost blacked out and he dislocated my jaw. I don’t know why I stay, even our children (ages 7 and 8) tell me to leave and not tell him where we are going. I’m so unhappy and scared. I want out but have no one to turn to! Now things have been looking up for me because I will be hired as a Correctional Officer, but I am afraid to bring a gun into our home. Because of his temper he may try to take my life. I honestly feel the only way to leave him is to think of a “Great Escape” grab my children,my Chihuahua, and run. I have been thinking of going to a woman’s shelter because I can’t be here anymore. Any advice is helpful and appreciated.

  30. Racheal says:

    I have been with my boyfriend since 2012. We loved each other dearly until he had a fight with my sister’site friend on here birthday. The fight was about religion. My bf feels that his always right because he believes in God. The argument got intense and my bf ran and pulled a table knife and wanted to run after my sister’s friend. We held him and and convinced him to put the knife down. I got very scared of him and decided to take a break from him. We talked about things and he said he was sorry for his behavior and I took him back. Things became great and again this year, each time we talk about the names to give our future children he says that we should choose Christian names. I am Christian too so I tell we shall give them Christian names. My bf looks at me and says “What do you know about Christian names, you didn’t read the whole Bible?” Each time I say something he always says that “what do you know? You didn’t read the whole Bible?” I feel like I can’t win with him. He also called me “stupid” because I didn’t want to wear a hat to pray. I tried to explain to him that in my church we don’t wear hats but he says that the Bible says women should cover their hair to pray. I know his right but I personally don’t feel the need to. I feel like his trying to change who I am as a person. When I told him that he was disrespecting me by calling me stupid, he said “he said that he knows his disrespecting me and he will continue to disrespect me”. The tone of his voice was different. I had never seen him like that. I was very scared of what he was going to do next therefore I kicked him out of my house. He called me and texted me saying that his sorry for his behavior and will not do it again but half of me wants to believe but the other half has mixed feelings. I am scared of it happening again. My siblings and mom don’t like him they think his not right for me. But I do love this guy and I think he will change buthe I also know that people don’t change within a week. What should I do?

  31. lexi says:

    my partner and myself argue alot and it usually boils down to the fact he wont let me speak or say how i feel my family dont like him and he dont like them so i have to live a double life and pretend either off them aint in my life when im with the other, anyway straight to the point my partner has called me so many names and made me feel useless about myself i use to take pride in what i look like now i dont as he makes me feel that low i have slapped him before after calling me a fat slag and telling me im a drama queen when all im trying to do is let my emotions out but he still continues to tell me how im fat how im a slag tells me im cheating when i dont leave my house i quit work because of the accusations and its got to point im scared off leaving him incase of what he’d do next he gives me a look as if to say if you dont do what i want you to do i will hurt you he has kept me in his room all day before and i dont know why or what this could be

  32. Please don't judge me says:

    I’m sad. I love him. Yet he’s hurtful. Sadly I’ve gotten on my knees and begged him to stay literally and with that I got called pathetic. Am I pathetic for loving someone so much and so hard that I’m afraid to lose him. Yes there is verbal abuse but there is also good times that outweigh any hurt he’s ever caused me. I just hate that one moment I’m the love of his life and he makes me feel good about myself and our relationship then the next he could care less if I walked out. I just hate how he can remain calm in our arguments yet I’m spilling all these emotions..thats when I’m seen as and called crazy. I’ve threatened suicide before and he just brushes it off. I’m writing this because I’m scared that one night I’ll just pull the trigger to make a point. And it could be all for nothing. I just don’t know anymore. I love the idea of our relationship working more than I do myself. And I say this with not even the thought of our 6 month old son. God who am I? And why can’t I be loved as strongly in return? I don’t know if this relates to the post or if anyone is even caring to read this. But I have no one to talk to and if I’m left with myself my thoughts will get the better of me…

  33. Lorelei says:

    Things are pretty bad. He has lost his second and only job. Was let go from his first for “downsizing” and the second for not being able to do the work. He had a stroke a little under four years ago. But, has always blamed me for the financial issues we have, even when he was working. Told me, when I got my job, that it was my “spending money” and now says I do not contribute to the household even though I buy all the food, pay for the cell phones (four of them), gas for the cars, all the medical/dental/eye benefits, all the gifts for his family and our nuclear family. He did not get a second job for over three years. Refused to listen to me before he was laid off and refinance the house. Refused to file for bankruptcy after he lost his first job. Turned down a job that offered $15,000 more in salary to only find out that his unemployment ended the next month. Blamed me for his lose of pay because I told him he needed to take the next job that was offered. In the meantime, my children took out credit cards and helped to keep the household going, and they now owe money. Finally filed for bankruptcy after the loss of his second job only for me to find out that we now have NO RETIREMENT because he used it up. Blames me for all the financial issues even though I have two jobs to pay for things. Blames me for the Power of Attorney HE chose so that I could get the house refinanced, and yes I did to the tune of $640 less a month, because he didn’t like the way the Notary asked him if he knew he what he was signing, which is what she should do. Blames me over the lack of his relationship with his children when he would have nothing to do with them until they were in their teens and all he did was complain about them, or rather his daughter, who he told her she was an mistake and he didn’t want children. Tells me that I have treated him like crap for over two decades, my oldest is only 26 years old, so I guess that means for our whole relationship. Keeps following his old girlfriend and even sends her money. He left our bedroom and blames me saying I threw him out. Curses out the house. Curses out his daughter. Cruses out me calling me a b**tch, f**cker, liar. Tells me I’m gaslighting him which I’m still not sure what that is. Refusing to shower, wash his hair, brush his teeth, change into clean clothing unless he is seeing his family or friends for upwards to a month. And when he does shower expects me to compliment on the fact that he showers. And then complains I won’t have sex with him. Every time I try to talk to him he picks a fight and lists everything he believes I have done to him. Refuses to talk to me about finances and has abdicated them to me then yells at me if they are not perfect, despite the fact that I have to run a household and work two jobs. Tells me I am not allowed to talk to his parents because I tell them lies about him. Literally runs out of the kitchen if I should happen to walk into it while he is in there. Accuses me of eating his food. My blood pressure is skyrocketing, I am on anti-depressants and anti-anxiety medications which I have never had to deal with. I am still scared of losing my home and all he does is fight with me and list all my shortcomings, blames me for everything and calls me such degrading names. Am I being abused or am I the abuser? I try not to talk to him unless I have to for fear of the “fight” that will entail. He tells me I have no right to know his medical status or what is going on with him. I cannot live in this house without his financial additions even though they come with all the abuse. My daughter is disabled. My son has not been able to go to college as we could not send him due to money constraints. I have no idea what to do or even know if I am the actual abuser or abusee. I want to cry all the time but I keep trying. I buy used clothes to keep the cost down. Don’t throw them out until they are falling apart. My only true splurge are my pets which I may lose if I lose my house. I have to deal with all the financial issues including the IRS problems he got us in, but I’m always the one that caused it all. Am I abused? My head hurts, my heart hurts and I am so confused and feel stupid. I want to run away and leave everything behind. I am not sure how I keep going every day but keep putting one foot in front of the other yet seem to get no where. I am so lost, alone and lonely. I hurt so much.
    I feel abused yet am told I am the abuser. He refuses to take his medications regularly: he has high blood pressure, stroke, diabetes, and memory issues unless is has to down with how horrible I am. I don’t know what to do anymore and if my pets were gone would not mind being gone myself.

  34. Christina says:

    I met my abuser 7 years ago. His abuse started off with making me change my hair color because he didn’t like blonds. He would make me feel bad for wearing shirts that were cut too low, even if I wasn’t showing cleavage. He would tell me I looked trashy and that all his female friends were classy, if I fought back he would laugh and tell me I couldn’t hold a candle to them. He would tell me he was slumming it even being with me. I wasn’t allowed to meet his friends. I’ve only met 2 and that was brief and 4 years ago. He would make it impossible for me to keep my friends or make new friends. The abuse got worse. I was called stupid more often than not. I was called a stupid bitch/whore/slut more often than not. He beat me down so bad I didn’t know which way was up or down. One time he took me on a date and I sat quietly in his car and he drove down to a really bad part of town and made me get out and he drove away. If I stuttered when I talked he would make fun of me (I had a stroke after giving birth to our son) So I practiced hard not to stutter so I wouldn’t receive his brutal bullying. He always told me I looked old and he could do better. I got called hag or that I stunk just walking down the hall minding my own business. He would threaten me with my kids. I caught him telling our non-verbal autistic son that he was a “fucking” retard. The worst part was that he was a little well known in my city. He was on the radio. He had a show that would play every Saturday night. I never got to be around his scene, but I’m sure no one knew he was like this in private(Because I witnessed his charm with strangers)They thought he was a great guy.

  35. Kara says:

    I don’t know what to do. I’m on ssdi for a brain aneurysm and also watch 3 kids part time. My ssi and babysitting money he puts right INTO HIS CHECKING or SAVINGS which I have zero access to. He hates my family, if I have a friend I don’t get to hang out and he rips them apart to me. I know what my income is and I’m paying over half of all bills plus groceries and gas for home and my daughter. I somehow have to find ways to get kids food as they aren’t allowed to eat ours. Last summer he broke six outside toys when angry. My neighbor even called to see if I was okay. He’s never hit me but after18 years of marriage I don’t want to have a dad here but partner. Last week my brothers friend stopped asking g if I could put his daughter on bus in mornings. I didn’t allow him in the house as I’m not stupid. Five minutes later husband pulls in driveway as same time everyday. Well he gave me a LOOK. I went inside after couple more minutes of talk and he asked where we f*****. Omg really?? Kids were here, I don’t cheat I’d leave if I loved someone else. Then I was called a whore about 10 times. Then he was upset I didn’t have all kids toys put away by time he got home came upstairs to garage and threw a pack and play on me all set up. I’m a clean freak, laundry dishes vacuums disinfect all done everyday before he’s back. Then said I’m a horrible wife because I make supper like4 out of 7 days. I do EVERYTHING else plus basically work from 455am-530pm for no money. Now he said he will put me on accounts because I’m done. I have place ready for me to move into in 25 days. What should I do?

  36. Native says:

    He must feel that way about himself..dont take to heart because of what he said..he is just a miserable person who knows it..he will never have anyone better than you and when he realizes it you may be with your new beau..men always think the grass is greaner on the other side.

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