Living with a mental illness can sometimes make us feel as if we don’t “measure-up” to other people. To people we do not know but wish to know. Or to people we know well. Mental illness can create an isolating and lonely life, void of friendship, of meaningful relationships.
Isolation and Mental Illness
When you are diagnosed with a mental illness it can feel like you have landed on a different planet: “The Land of The Mentally Ill.” Nobody really wants to arrive here– Disneyland sounds a bit better, maybe an abandoned island?–but sometimes we do and when we do we feel isolated. We feel as if we cannot be loved.
Suddenly we have a “label” and we frequent our pharmacist and psychiatrist more then we would like. Our lives are suddenly different now, they can feel alien to us, and so can our relationships with people, our friendships.
We might isolate ourselves because we fear rejection; like a bear that hibernates, we might rather be inside where it’s warm, where we feel safe.
Friendships and Mental Illness
I’ve never been very good at this one. I became an addict, in part, because I had no idea how to form relationships. My mental illness made me feel like damaged goods. As if nobody could love me—love me.
I’m still not good at this. It is confusing!
A lovely woman, completely accepting and understanding, tries to coax me out of my shell. We have gone to lunch a couple of times; spent hours in Starbucks. But it’s hard. I know I like spending time with her, I feel better after, she is funny, smart and pretty. She makes me laugh. I make her laugh, but my natural inclination is to hide. And maybe that is “The Writer” in me but it is more likely that I still feel ashamed.
I cannot lie to you. I struggle with acceptance over ten years past my diagnosis. It’s getting better; it does for all of us.
Friendship is rarely easy for anyone who has a heartbeat, at least not at first, and getting to know someone is hard. Not just for us. We are in large company and we are not as different as we think.
Letting People Into Your Life
Sounds great, right?
Picture this: You are at home, in your best clothing and with a recently vacuumed carpet, when you hear a knock at the door. Rat tat tat. You walk over, look in the peep-hole and see a few people. They are smiling, bearing lovely wrapped gifts, and wearing shirts that state: “LET’S BE FRIENDS!” You let them in and it is like you have known them your entire life! Strangely, you have everything in common!
Yeah, right. If only…If only it were so easy! As mentioned, I still struggle and perhaps you do as well. How can we let people in? How can we form friendships?
A few ideas…
>Remember that you are not a label. You are (insert name here) and you like certain things and have specific hobbies.
>Remember that you have a lot to offer someone else.
>You are not damaged goods, rather, you have worked hard to obtain stability.
>We all struggle, it’s the human condition, it builds character. And you have a heck of a lot of it!
>Healthy relationships are an important part of self-care. Working to find them, maintain them, builds our confidence.
And finally…you deserve friendships and those you choose to spend time with are lucky, you have a lot of offer. Just give it a shot.
Ask yourself: “What do I have to lose?”