The suicide of a bipolar online was the news I was greeted with first thing this morning. It was an awful wakeup call. Not a wakeup call in that I was sleeping (although I had been) but a wakeup call in that we all need to be on the lookout of the signs of a possible suicide in ourselves and others. And sometimes I think we forget about this killer. Maybe because we need to in order to survive. But today I want to talk about what happens with the death of a bipolar online.
How Did I Know This Person with Bipolar Who Died of Suicide?
I won’t say who the person was, and I will use “he” to refer to him/her. I can tell you this person had a blog with a decent readership. I can tell you this person was supported by wonderful friends. I can tell you this person was in bipolar treatment. I can tell you this person was trying to get well. I can tell you this person was one of the many who have interviewed me. I can tell you I passed him, briefly, without really getting to know him.
But here’s the thing.
I’m still crying over his death.
Some Bipolars Suicide Because They Forget Their Impact
I can’t say why this person committed suicide but I can say that many people are led down that path because they think that their lives don’t matter. They think that no one cares. They think that their death won’t affect anyone, anyway, so what’s the point in staying alive.
This is very wrong.
As I said, I barely knew this person and, yet, his death has certainly affected me. I tell people all the time: we touch far more people than we ever know. And it’s true. Especially online, you never know who you’re touching.
When a Bipolar Suicide Happens Online
I think it’s tough when we know one of our bipolar brothers or sisters who dies of suicide online. It feels like there’s nowhere to put the grief (Coping With Loss, Bereavement and Grief). Sometimes it even feels like our grief shouldn’t exist because they were “only online.”
But those online avatars are people. They are lights. And they make our lives brighter by being there. So if you do happen to know a person with bipolar from online who commits suicide, know that you are not alone.
Fighting Death by Suicide
And if, like me, you want to fight the scourge of suicide, then donate to, or volunteer for, a charity that focuses on suicide prevention. If you don’t know one, the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline is a great one.
I will mourn the death of this suicide in my way and if you happen to be in this spot, I encourage you to mourn in yours. And if you’re looking for a support group with others who have lost someone to suicide, see here.