My Bipolar Story: The Crack in the Wall - Reiki to Alleviate Bipolar Symptoms

Written by Marlene Margot

PART SEVEN

In 1983, I enrolled in a Reiki Course. Part of the training was that we had to carry out 'self-healing' this entailed; 1) Affirmations - these are sayings that help clear the blocked energies in the body, it helps to raise all sorts of suppressed emotions and issues, which once dealt with certainly make you feel a lot better. The sayings are said twenty one times a day for twenty-one days. It has been scientifically proven that our subconscious mind takes twenty-one days to change its' thought pattern. 2) Self- healing; this is a hands-on healing done on yourself also for twenty-one days. Reiki has helped me tremendously in accepting and understanding certain events in my life. I now have a better understanding as to why I had to give Adrey up for adoption. Because of what I learned in Reiki, I delved deeply into cosmic cycles affect our lives and the choices that we make. I am finally able to accept and understand why Adrey was never allowed to belong to me. I wrote a poem about my reflections on the matter, this is how it goes:

SPIRITS IN THE CRADLE

SPIRITS IN THE COSMIC CRADLE
WAITING IN THE WINGS FOR BIRTH,
WILL THEY EVER BE ABLE
TO FIND THEIR WAY TO EARTH.
I WONDERED ABOUT THESE SPIRITS
UP IN THE COSMIC PLANE,
I WONDERED HOW THEY CAME TO EARTH
I THOUGHT, AND SOUGHT IN VAIN.
I WONDERED ABOUT THIS THING CALLED LIFE.
WHEN AND HOW DID IT BEGIN?
WAS IT AT BIRTH, OR AT CONCEPTION BESIDE THE HEARTH?
WHEN, I ASK, DID IT SET IN?
I'VE LISTENED AND READ,
I'VE THOUGHT ABOUT IT TOO.
THE ANSWERS I'VE COME UP WITH
IS WHAT I FEEL TO BE TRUE.
THERE ARE THESE ENERGIES THAT ARE FREE
FLOATING UP IN THE SKIES BEYOND,
WAITING FOR PARENTS YOU SEE,
WAITING, IN READINESS TO RESPOND.
THEY LOOK AROUND AND WHAT DO THEY SEE?
THEY SEE A MALE AND FEMALE ENERGY
JUST WAITING IN THE COSMIC TREE,
THIS IS DEFINITELY NO FALSE STRATEGY.
IT'S A PERFECT PLAN THAT'S WOVEN
UP IN THAT COSMIC PLANE,
FOR WE HAVE ALREADY CHOSEN
LIFE'S SPIRITUAL CHAIN.
WE HAVE HELP FROM A DIVINE PLANNER,
WHO HAS PLANNED ALL THIS BEFORE.
HE NEVER MAKES A MISTAKE
HE JUST GIVES US AN OPEN DOOR.
SOMETIMES THIS CHOICE OF PARENTS
GOES BACK A FEW YEARS OR MORE.
SOUL SITS IN THE WINGS PATIENTLY,
RESTING, UNTIL IT'S TIME TO EXPLORE.
THERE ARE TIMESWHEN WE ARE BORN,
WE ARE MEANT FOR ANOTHER IT WOULD SEEM,
THAT'S WHEN A LIFE GETS TORN
AND GOD ACTS AS A GO-BETWEEN.
IN LIFE WE ARE GIVEN CHOICES
STARTING BEFORE OUR BIRTH,
IT MIGHT NOT CALL FOR MANY REJOICES
FOR THOSE LIVING ON THIS EARTH.
THERE MIGHT BE A MOTHER OF A BABE,
SHE WANTS TO KEEP IT SO,
BUT IT IS MEANT FOR ANOTHER
SHE HAS TO LET IT GO.
IT GOES OUT FOR ADOPTION OR FOSTER-PARENTING TOO,
THIS IS SOULS PLAN FOR SOME OF US,
WE KNOW THIS TO BE TRUE.
OUR SOUL CHOOSES THIS LIFE
WITH ALL ITS HIGHS AND LOWS,
IT CHOOSES TO HAVE SOME STRIFE,
SO THAT THE SPIRIT GROWS.
NOW REMEMBER ALL THIS IS CHOSEN
UP IN THE COSMIC PLANE,
SOUL INSISTS OUR SCHOOL OF LIFE
BE ONE OF SPIRITUAL GAIN.
SO WHEN NEXT YOU'RE WONDERING
WHO YOU ARE, OR WHO YOU WERE MEANT TO BE,
KNOW THAT IN GODS' PLANNING
YOU ARE PART OF THE SPIRITUAL TREE.