Alzheimer's Caregiver: Grief and Loss

Many Alzheimer's caregivers suffer grief and a feeling of loss as the Alzheimer's patient progresses through the disease.

Alzheimer's Caregivers: Coping with Feelings of Grief and Loss

If someone close to you develops Alzheimer's Disease or dementia you are likely to experience feelings of grief and bereavement as the illness progresses, not just in the period after their death. It may help to know that such feelings are normal and that other people experience similar reactions.

There are so many small changes that occur along the way when caring for someone with Alzheimer's or dementia that it is difficult for many caregivers to deal with their feelings. You may adapt and come to terms with one stage of the person's illness only to find that their behavior alters or their abilities decline further and your grieving starts all over again.

Sense of loss for Alzheimer's Caregiver

A sense of loss is one of the most powerful feelings that caregivers experience. Depending on your relationship with the person and your individual circumstances you may grieve for the:

• Loss of the person you once knew
• Loss of the future you had planned together
• Loss of the relationship you once enjoyed
• Loss of their companionship, support or special understanding
• Loss of your own freedom to work or to pursue other activities
• Loss of finances or a lifestyle which you once took for granted

Restrictions for Caregiver

However much you wish to go on caring, you are bound to feel resentful at times at the restrictions placed on your own life. You may also feel unhappy that things have not turned out as you would have hoped.

• Consider your own needs. Taking regular breaks away from caring can keep you in touch with the outside world and raise your morale.
• Make time for yourself each day. Just relaxing with a cup of tea or having a good chat on the phone will help you recharge your batteries and cope with your emotions.

Up and down process for Caregiver

Grieving is an up and down process. In the earlier stages, you may swing between despair and wild optimism that a cure will soon be found. Some people even deny that anything is wrong with the person and try to suppress their feelings.

Later, when you have accepted the situation, you may find that there are periods when you can cope well and make the best of things. At other times, you may feel overwhelmed by sadness or anger or you may simply feel numb. Many caregivers are shocked to find that they sometimes wish that the person were dead.

Such feelings are a normal part of grieving. But it is important to realize that you are under a great deal of stress and to seek emotional support for yourself.

What can help for the Alzheimer's Caregiver

• Talk about your feelings to an understanding professional, to other caregivers, to a trusted friend or to supportive members of your family. Don't bottle your feelings up.
• Relieve tension through crying, or shout or punch a cushion. However, make sure that the person you are caring for is safe and out of earshot or you may distress them.
• Try to persuade friends to drop in for a chat or to phone you regularly.
• Make sure that you see your doctor or therapist if you are feeling low or anxious or if you are very tired and unable to sleep. It is important to try to prevent your normal feelings of sadness from slipping into depression which is much harder to deal with.

If the person goes into long-term care you may grieve at another change in your relationship. The relief which you might feel initially may be replaced by feelings of loss and grief, mixed up with guilt, which can last for a surprisingly long time. You may miss the person's presence. You may experience feelings of emptiness. You may feel very tired, both physically and emotionally.

• Try to take it easy until you feel your energy levels rise again.
• Giving a structure to your day may help you get through the difficult early months.
• Don't fall into the trap of building your life around visiting the person in their new home. You need to build a new life for yourself which includes these visits.