One of the most exhausting things about having an eating disorder is the non-stop racket in your brain. And while some of that chatter is about calories, food, and exercise – a lot of it is how you compare with other people.
Is s/he skinnier than I am? She’s eating a salad – she must think I’m so fat for eating a sandwich. So-and-so used to spend X hours at the gym – I only spent Y.
More than anything, I just wanted my brain to shut up.