Hi wandering, i read your blog also.My heart breaks for you.I wish there was something i could do to help, these evil men should be in jail.
Sergio

And yes, wandering lost - I am glad you are alive.

I believe your day of freedom will come some day. You will find some place to lick your wounds.

You did the right thing to publish that blogs. These horrible things should be known. When they are no longer a tabu, abused children will find it easier to report them to social service. And the criminals will be easier to be put into jail.

Dear wandering lost!

My heart is breaking, since I see there is really no way out.

I want you to know I believe you and I am always there for you, when you need to talk.

Helen

Thank u both of u for ur concern on reading my blogs. Im not sure what possesed me 2 write them but anyway. I have tried every possible way 2 escape the situation for over 2 years. part of me wants 2 but part of me doesnt as it is all i no. I live indepent from my family, despite my age but that didnt change anything only provoct it. lets say my family dont like the word no or 2 b second rate.

U would think the authorites would b able 2 help however they previously told me i was lying and was bruising myself, despite not doing any physical or psychological exams, know i believe they believe me as police were forced into a senario, which i had no control over, where i was beyond bruised and battered, i think they realised i couldnt possible have done that 2 myself even if i tried. so know they just say there isnt enough evidence 2 do anything. I have long given up hope that they will help.

every1 seems 2 have given up on me a long time ago. my parents made it hell for any1 who tried 2 intervene therefore every1 put me in the 2 hard basket and that is where i will stay. No1 wants 2 even attempt dealing with me let alone try 2 help.

as 2 that question Helen, i believe all 3 are in cheque for me. If not the first 2 defiantly r.

I honestly dont no how 2 hang on anymore, 2 deal with my brain, thoughts, ect. all the memories and flash backs the words spoken. my course of action. its all to much. Im so tired of fighting of hanging on. Im so tired of trying to convince myself there is a reason im alive appart from the life i lead.

I have read your blogs. If there is any way you can get out of there do so. this is not natural or right and you have basic rights as a human being. The authorities must be able to help you. There must also be organisations to help as well. You should not be there. As a father of a daughter it appals me that anyone could do this. I would give my life for any of my children that is what most caring parents would do, not hurt them physically and mentally. You need to get out and you need help. But it is important that you talk to people on this site as I think to a man and woman they are with you and will help you the best they can.

Sorry not to have read your blogs first. I think I will be in a shock for a few days now. Your father and grandfather are criminals. Your mother is not doing anything about it. So - is there any way the social service can take you out of this hell? You deserve and need a better family.

Helen

Suicidal thoughts are very common in my brain too. I try to watch them as if they were some clouds drifting away. Your suicidal thoughts are not all you are. I don't know anything about your life, but basically suicidal thoughts can come from 3 sources:
1. some bad past experience
2. intense worries about some future happenings
3. chemical imbalances in your brain

So what do you think the source for your suicidal thoughts may be?

And yes, do try to get the fighting will back. Suicide is the wrong thing to do in all religions and phylosophical systems, so it couldn't possibly be the right answer.

Helen