Old Souls and Karma

What I have found is that in many instances even though the levels that I can see, that I am conscious of, are mostly dysfunctional arising out of the false beliefs and fears of the disease of Codependence - on deeper levels there are "right on" reasons for behaviors for which I was judging myself.

. . . As another, more universal example, when I started to learn about Codependence, I used to really beat myself up because I found that I was still looking for "her," even though I had learned about some of the dysfunctional levels of that longing.

I had learned that as long as I thought that I needed someone else to make me happy and whole I was setting myself up to be a victim. I had learned that I was not a frog who needed a princess to kiss me in order to turn into a prince - that I am a prince already, and just need to learn to accept that state of Grace, that prince ness.

I had come to understand that those levels of my longing were dysfunctional and Codependent - and I judged and shamed myself because I could not let go of the longing for "her."

But as my awakening progressed I realized that there were "right on" reasons for that longing, for that "endless aching need" that I felt.

One of those "right on" levels was that the longing was a message concerning my very real need to attain some balance between the masculine and feminine energy within me - which begets dysfunctional behavior when it is projected, focused, outward as I had been taught to do in childhood.

And on a much deeper level I came to understand that I am - and have been, ever since polarization - looking for my twin soul.

As I become discerning I could learn to pick the baby out of the bathwater, that is, not judge and shame myself for longing for "her" - and throw out the dirty bath water, that is, not take action based on, or give power to, the dysfunctional belief that I am a frog who cannot be happy until I find my princess.

By learning discernment we can begin to become conscious of the reasons that are dysfunctional and based on Codependent beliefs and fears (the dirty bathwater) so that we can change the way we react to those levels, can stop giving them power, and we can honor that there are "right on" levels by not shaming or judging ourselves (the baby) even if we are not sure what those reasons are.

I am talking about FAITH here.

The more we remember that everything is unfolding perfectly, the more we can have faith that there is a very good reason for even what appears to be the greatest tragedy, the most profound injustice.

We need to accept and honor - that is, not shame and judge ourselves for - not only our feelings and our past behaviors, our human needs and desires, but also our longings, our resistance, and our fears.

We have those longings for a reason. We have those fears and that resistance for a reason. The more we start remembering that "the Force is with us," the easier it becomes to accept and Love ourselves.

As was stated earlier, maybe the reason you have not done your grief work is that it has not been time yet - everything happens perfectly. Even our procrastination, and our denial, and our avoidance is a perfect part of our path.

We are being guided!

The more we remember that, the easier it is to stop buying into the grandiose, ego-self, arrogant, Codependent, power trip of believing that we have the incredible power to screw up the Great Spirit's Plan. We do not. We never did.

One of the reasons on a very deep level, at a soul/higher ego level, that we have resistance to doing our healing and owning our power is because of our past life experiences.

We have all been punished for owning our power in the past! Whether that was by being burned at the stake for being a healer, or drawn and quartered for being a teacher, or hanged for being a messenger, or whatever.

So we have very good reasons for not trusting God or this life business!

We also have very good reasons for not trusting ourselves because we have all abused the power in the past. We have had lifetimes when we were teachers who led our students astray, when we were healers or leaders or messengers who took the left-hand path and served the forces of darkness instead of Light.

We have very good reasons for being terrified of owning our power again!

Those are the reasons on the deepest level why we have resistance to the healing process; that is why some of us have needed the stick to get us to start awakening.

No matter what our personal stick is, whether it is Alcoholism or love addiction or overeating or whatever, it is the vehicle which has forced us to start awakening. It is the blessed gift that has started our awakening to consciousness of our path.

The conditions on the planet have changed! As long as the planet's energy field of Collective Human Emotional Consciousness was reversed, the process of growing towards the Light attracted the dark.

That is not going to happen this time. The planet's energy field of consciousness is now positively aligned with Truth. Growing towards the Light now attracts more Light.

In this age, we can own who we Truly are without feeling as if we are going to be punished for it.

Of course we never really were being punished - it just felt like it.

What we have been doing here in human body for all of these lifetimes is receiving the opportunity to experience every facet of the human experience. We have all been creators and destroyers. We have all been the oppressor and the oppressed. We have all been the perpetrator and the victim.

No one has ever done anything to us that we have not done to her/him in some way, at some time.

It is time to stop blaming others. It is time to stop blaming ourselves. We chose the paths we are on in order to do the healing and Karmic settlement that was necessary. We need to own and honor and release the feelings at the same time that we need to stop buying into the false beliefs."

(Column "Further Journeys to the Emotional Frontier Within" by Robert Burney)

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