7. Not to Feel Anything

I have no emotions of any kind at all (consciously, of course). Very very rarely do I apprehend flickers of emotion and I know that a great fire is burning underneath the firmament. But it's a split second thing and it's over. I am numb and dumb as usual.

Narcissism is a defence mechanism. An integral and important part of it is the inability to feel anything. Because emotions come in lumps (good and bad agglomerated) - the narcissist learns to DENY ALL his emotions, good and bad alike.

8. The Presumption of Understanding the Narcissist - A Piece of Irony

HOW can YOU understand something as divinely unique, as stupendously complex, as cosmically significant, as unprecedented - as your Narcissist?

How dare you compare your AVERAGE self to HIM?

If you understand him - this means that you have something in COMMON.

COMMON.

AVERAGE.

(Narcissistic shivers)

Moreover, by now you surely know all this.

So, you must be doing it on purpose. You are trying to drag him to YOUR level, to "equalize" him, to level him, to make him indistinguishable from the grey mass that is others - and you.

You are nefarious and pernicious. Your behaviour PROVES that you HATE him.

You are a cunning, malevolent housewife who tries to reduce him to your default option of incompetence, inaptitude and inadequacy.

"I UNDERSTAND YOU"

How presumptuous.

How false.

How malicious.

next: Excerpts from the Archives of the Narcissism List Part 22