QUESTION:

I feel like I am going insane. I’ve tried many times to kill myself or self-mutilate. my arms are scarred and ugly. I feel ugly and broken yet hollow. I drink a lot at times to escape the craziness of my so-called life only to find I’m more screwed up than ever after a drinking binge.

I’ve been hospitalized on numerous occasions for alcoholism, drug addiction, suicidal tendencies, "manic-depression", bpd. I’ve yet to experience any relief from this madness...I’m so inconsistent, I feel like I’m on a roller coaster that's totally out of control. I am scared of me. I have two wonderful kids and a loving husband but like everything else in my life I disconnect and detach from them whenever we get too close. I treat my husband like a dog and yet I adore him

DR. HELLER'S ANSWER:

While you may have problems in addition to the BPD, your description is likely due to the medical problems that cause the BPD.

Like everyone else you need all your diagnoses made and treated. Your suffering does not need to continue and you can have a great life, but you can't keep on doing what you've been doing and expect different results. I encourage you to read as much as you can from this website.

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