Thanks^^ I'm over that part now....But if my gf changes her mind again about the move in date I am very certain I will go to her town, slap her and break things off until she gets her act together...I know she's scared and that it's a big leap and her past isn't helping those issues, but it's not fair to me to keep getting my hopes up only to have them crushed again....My gf is going to try and come out for Valentine's day, which is one of two of my worst days(the other being the day before...And all of February is hard on me) of the year..Hopefully things don't go wrong this time cus I really just need her there at some point next month...I'm already pretty bad emotionally and I'm currently having issues sleeping because I don't want to be alone right now....I'm thinking part of it is I'm afraid to be alone because of how bad I got last year around this time and I always hit my low when there isn't anyone around to talk to or help me....But we'll see how things go, I've got my fingers crossed for it to go well and for there to be no SIing