Blogging for me makes me feel connected to a community of people who care...no matter the ones who don't give a poop.  There are more who really understand and care.  I also have a journal but would rather blog because of the feed back.  If I'm off on something wrong, I hope someone will tell me and point to the right direction in my thinking.
Today, I am sitting at home but should be doing some errands.  I just don't want to do anything that takes energy. LOL  Blogging clears my mind so I can think of what must be done...like taking care of myself, my dogs.  I'm also waiting for my granddaughter to have her baby..could be any day now and I feel like I'm hanging until she does.
Besides that I feel good physically but feeling sad for a son who is going through hell trying to see his daughter.

I think anonymous blog would be a good idea.  My son created a FB private group and just invited a few people to it.  We can say whatever we want to and no one criticizes.  Pretty cool and brutely honest.  Just feels good to know no one will judge us but support us. 
I understand about territoral.  I live with my mother and keep to my room all the time.  She visits any time she wants but this is my territory and the rest of the house is considered hers.  I don't mind at all and feel very confortable here.

I think ranting is good but it's hard to find someone to listen except God and I know He listens and probably cringes.  There are so many challenges each day.  Like today I promised my son and wife I would go to their house for a visit.  They have a new baby but I wish they would come visit me sometimes.  They and all my children just stay away since they know I'm bipolar (only a label, right, not the the real me?).  They won't say why they don't come but I know so if I want to see them I HAVE to go to them and never have a problem when going to them cause I can leave when I get stressed.  Being around them for more than an hour gets my nerves in a mess.  They don't criticize me...they don't say anything and try to act like I am a normal mom.  I don't really want to get out of my warm house today.  It's really cold here but just to see them, I'll go..  I have cooked for them and they come, eat, and have to leave.  What's that about?  Was I that bad of a mother?  Must have been.  It's probably just me thinking insane things about my children.  Maybe I'm paranoid.  Ok, that's my rant for now! Hope you have a good day.
I had all the dogs in last night and stepped in a pile of poop as soon as I walked down the hall...yes, 2 piles right in my path!  LOL!  Queenie, my lab is still a puppy but this is ridiculous!

Hello all! I am new to blogging and kinda scared. But I feel it's important to share and read other's trials and tribulations. Even though I am on antidepressants and anti anxiety meds, I feel it is my current job with the Federal gov't that keeps me in my negative and anxious frame of mind. It is the hardest/toughest job I've ever had and I feel trapped as I can't leave my job as I am having a hard time finding another job due to the economy. But, because of my faith, maybe there's a reason that God is not opening other doors, like there's something I need to learn.