Tale of Two Former Patients

The lives of Dan Fisher and Moe Armstrong illustrate the possibilities of recovery. The two men have a lot a lot in common: They are neighbors in Cambridge, Mass., they are the same age, they both work with psychiatric patients, are well-known mental health advocates and they both have been hospitalized for schizophrenia. By any measure, Fisher has recovered completely. Armstrong is the first to say he has not.

Fisher's unusual odyssey from schizophrenic to psychiatrist embodies the most optimistic vision of recovery.

For the past 28 years, Fisher said, he has taken no psychiatric medication. He has not been hospitalized since 1974, when he spent two weeks at Washington's Sibley Hospital. He has been married for 23 years, is the father of two teenagers and shuttles between a community mental health center where he has worked as a psychiatrist for 15 years and the National Empowerment Center, a nonprofit consumer organization he helped found a decade ago. A few weeks ago he attended a White House meeting on disability issues.

Fisher was first diagnosed with schizophrenia in 1969. Armed with an undergraduate degree from Princeton and a PhD in biochemistry from the University of Wisconsin, he was 25 and investigating dopamine and its role in schizophrenia at the National Institute of Mental Health when he suffered his first psychotic break.

"I put more and more energy into my work, and I literally felt that I was the chemical I was studying," said Fisher, who recalled that he was desperately unhappy and that his first marriage was unraveling. "And the more I believed my life was being run by chemicals, the more suicidal I felt." He was hospitalized briefly at Johns Hopkins Hospital, where his father was on the medical faculty, given Thorazine, a powerful antipsychotic, and soon returned to his lab.

The following year Fisher was hospitalized again, this time for four months at Bethesda Naval Hospital, across the street from his lab. A panel of five psychiatrists diagnosed him as schizophrenic and he left his job. After his discharge from Bethesda, Fisher decided that he had to make some radical changes. He jettisoned his once-promising career as a biochemist and decided, with the encouragement of his psychiatrist and his physician brother-in-law, to become a doctor so he could help people.

In 1976 Fisher graduated from George Washington University School of Medicine, then moved to Boston to complete a psychiatry residency at Harvard. He passed his board exams and began practicing at a state hospital and seeing private patients. In 1980 his career as a consumer advocate was launched when he disclosed his psychiatric history on a Boston TV talk show. A decade later he helped found the National Empowerment Center, a resource center for psychiatric patients funded by the federal Center for Mental Health Services.

"I'm sure it helped me that I came from a professional family and I was educated," Fisher said of the factors that led to his recovery. "What helped me recover was not drugs which were one tool I used it was people. I had a psychiatrist who always believed in me, and family and friends who stood by me. Changing my career and following my dream becoming a doctor was very important."

Moe Armstrong Eagle Scout, high school football star, decorated Marine has come a long way from the nomadic decade that began when he was 21, following his psychiatric discharge from the military after combat in Vietnam.

Between 1965 and 1975, Armstrong said, he lived on the streets of San Francisco, in the rugged mountains of Colombia and in his parents' house in southern Illinois, "where I wore a housecoat and told everyone I was St. Francis."

He received no treatment but developed an addiction to alcohol and drugs.

In the mid-1970s, Armstrong sought mental health treatment through the Veterans Administration. He managed to stop drinking and using drugs and moved to New Mexico, where he graduated from college, earned a master's degree and became known as a mental health consumer advocate.

In 1993 he moved to Boston and became director of consumer affairs for a nonprofit company that provides services to the mentally ill. Six years ago he met his fourth wife, who has also been diagnosed with schizophrenia; the couple lives in an apartment they bought several years ago.

For Armstrong, every day is a struggle. "I have to continually watch myself," said Armstrong, who has taken pains to arrange his life in a way that minimizes the chance of a relapse. He takes antipsychotic medication, eschews movies because they often make him feel "over-amped" and tries to be in "supportive, gentle, loving environments."

"I have many more limitations than other people, and that's very hard," Armstrong said.

"And I had to give up the notion that I would be Moe Armstrong, career soldier, which is what I wanted to be. I think I've recovered as much as I have because I'm still the guy that's the scout, looking for the way out."

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