To bp or not to bp,
that is the question

GOING off medication for awhile. To see what it would be like.

I have a little secret I'll share with you. I'm not taking my medicine. I've been this way since June, and while my moods have still been cycling, I've been watching what I do and trying to compensate. If things get really bad, I take the Tegretol (carbamazepine), sort of like aspirin. It doesn't work perfectly, but I'm doing pretty all right.

Hell...I'm doing darned good.

I'm not sure this is a responsible thing to do, and it probably would horrify my psychologist. I also worry about if I hit a really bad cycle what will happen. But at the end of the day I will live my life the way I want to, not how some doctor tells me.

Picture Opus sticking his tongue at a psych and going - "Phftt"

I started back on medication in Jan 99.