Written by Cristina Fender, our guest on the February 15, 2010, show on Bipolar Disorder.
We asked Cristina Fender to respond to the following question:
With all the stigma surrounding mental health and specifically bipolar disorder, why did you chose to come forward and talk/blog about having bipolar disorder?
When I was diagnosed with bipolar disorder, I was ashamed. I told no one, save my husband. I cut myself off from the rest of the world and I went into hiding. I was afraid to tell my extended family because I was afraid they would turn to me with new eyes and I would be terrified of what I would see in them.
When I encountered the blogging world I knew that I was born to write about what I was experiencing. I wanted to blog about bipolar disorder so I could heal through writing, but I hesitated. I worried most about what my writing would do to my family. Would someone I knew find me online? Would my kids be taken away from me because of my mental illness?
I decided to put on a brave face and write. If people found out about me on the internet, then so be it. I wasn’t writing for the haters. I had to share my disease with the world, so some good would come of it. I wrote for the one that felt my shame and had nowhere else to turn. I wrote for the person who needed my brutal honesty. I wrote for the being that needed hope.
I started to hear from readers that they were glad I existed because now they didn’t feel all alone. I, too, was not alone. And that made it all worth it.
Watch the video with an interview with Cristina Fender.
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