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		<title>Telling Your Family You Have a Mental Illness &#8211; You’re Not OK</title>
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		<pubDate>Mon, 13 Feb 2012 19:38:34 +0000</pubDate>
		<dc:creator>Natasha Tracy</dc:creator>
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		<description><![CDATA[When I told my mother I had a mental illness I’m pretty sure she didn’t believe me. She didn’t come right out and say it, but it was pretty clear she was suspicious. Once she did feel something was wrong &#8230; <a href="http://www.healthyplace.com/blogs/breakingbipolar/2012/02/telling-your-family-you-have-a-mental-illness-you%e2%80%99re-not-ok/">Continue reading <span class="meta-nav">&#8594;</span></a>]]></description>
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<p>When I told my mother I had a mental illness I’m pretty sure <a title="Negative Gut Reactions to Mental Illness" href="http://www.healthyplace.com/blogs/breakingbipolar/2011/07/negative-gut-reactions-to-bipolar-mental-illness-information/" target="_blank">she didn’t believe me</a>. She didn’t come right out and say it, but it was pretty clear she was suspicious. Once she did feel something was wrong she was sure it could be fixed with vitamins and herbs.</p>
<p>It couldn’t.</p>
<p>And this is a pretty common reaction from<a title="Why is Family so Stressful for the Mentally Ill" href="http://www.healthyplace.com/blogs/breakingbipolar/2011/12/why-is-family-so-stressful-for-the-mentally-ill/" target="_blank"> family members.</a> You have one of the hardest conversations of your life and the family member responds with, “you’re not sick.”</p>
<p>Or, “you look fine to me.”</p>
<p>Or, “you’re just being<a title="Yes I Have Bipolar Disorder - No I Can't Forget About It" href="http://www.healthyplace.com/blogs/breakingbipolar/2011/04/yes-i-have-bipolar-disorder-no-i-cant-forget-about-it/" target="_blank"> dramatic.”</a></p>
<p>Or many other things that will tell you that they don’t believe anything is wrong.</p>
<p>So how do you approach a family member and explain to them that everything is not OK.</p>
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<h2>I’m Not OK</h2>
<p>When you have a mental illness, you are most definitely <a title="Mental Illness As a Disability" href="http://www.healthyplace.com/blogs/breakingbipolar/2012/01/mental-illness-as-a-disability/" target="_blank">not OK.</a> The whole reason you sought a diagnosis is that you’re not OK. In fact, it tends to take<a title="Mental Illness is Only a Problem When Mental Illness is a Problem" href="http://www.healthyplace.com/blogs/breakingbipolar/2011/03/mental-illness-is-only-a-problem-when-mental-illness-is-a-problem/" target="_blank"> a lot of not OK </a>to bother going out to get a diagnosis.</p>
<h2><a rel="attachment wp-att-3627" href="http://www.healthyplace.com/blogs/breakingbipolar/2012/02/telling-your-family-you-have-a-mental-illness-you%e2%80%99re-not-ok/mp9002277161/"><img class="alignright size-full wp-image-3627" title="MP900227716[1]" src="http://www.healthyplace.com/blogs/breakingbipolar/files/2012/02/MP9002277161.jpg" alt="" width="252" height="168" /></a>You’re Fine</h2>
<p>But not everyone is going to see that, for a few reasons. One, they don’t want to. They don’t want to think that someone they love is sick. They don’t want to believe that anything is wrong. They don’t want to believe they didn’t see it before. They don’t want to believe you need help. Some people are just plain <a title="Denial Keeps People with a Mental Illness From Getting Better" href="http://www.healthyplace.com/blogs/breakingbipolar/2011/07/denial-keeps-those-with-a-mental-illness-from-getting-better/" target="_blank">in denial</a> no matter how on fire your hair might be.</p>
<p>But also, we often act “fine” around other people. We forget that we’ve been working really hard to <a title="Mental Illness - Put On a Happy Face" href="http://www.healthyplace.com/blogs/breakingbipolar/2011/02/mental-illness-put-on-a-happy-face/" target="_blank">convince everyone else that we’re fine.</a> The reason they don’t believe that we’re not is because we’ve done such a good job!</p>
<h2>I’m Really Not OK</h2>
<p>But if you’re telling your family you have a mental illness, things definitely aren’t OK. This is a very hard thing to admit. But consider this when talking to a family member who doesn’t believe you:</p>
<ol>
<li>You’ve just sprung something big on them. It took time for you to <a title="Mental Illness - You Have to Ask for and Accept Help" href="http://www.healthyplace.com/blogs/breakingbipolar/2011/10/mental-illness-you-have-to-ask-for-and-accept-help/" target="_blank">accept it;</a> it’s going to take time for them too. And keep in mind, they may be dealing with their own <a title="Hatred Towards the Bipolar Community" href="http://www.healthyplace.com/blogs/breakingbipolar/2012/01/hatred-towards-the-bipolar-community/" target="_blank">issues of stigma</a> or self-blame as well.</li>
<li>Understand that you may have to be really up front about what you’ve been experiencing. It may not be enough to say, “I have depression.” You may have to give real life examples of your experience of depression for them to truly understand what you’re going through. This isn’t easy for you, but it may be required for their understanding.</li>
<li><a title="Lack of Understanding of Mental Illness" href="http://www.healthyplace.com/blogs/breakingbipolar/2012/01/lack-of-understanding-of-mental-illness/" target="_blank">Knowledge brings about understanding.</a> Once of the reasons my mother thought she could cure bipolar with vitamins is because she didn’t know any better and her bailiwick is alternative medicine. However, over the years she has read books and become much more educated on the subject of mental illness to the point where she understands that it is a real illness and a real medical problem.</li>
<li>Bring the knowledge to them. Instead of waiting for them to pick up a book, bring them books, pamphlets, blog articles – anything that has reached you that you think might reach them. People have told me that they have printed off some of my articles and it helped their family’s understand a lot.</li>
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<p>A more drastic approach might be to take the family member with you to a doctor’s appointment and have him explain the problem to the family member. Like I said, drastic, but some people’s denial is hard to break through.</p>
<h2>They Still Don’t Understand</h2>
<p>And after all that, maybe the family member will never believe that you’re not OK. But understand this, if this is the case, it isn’t about you, it’s about them. You’ve done everything in your power to make them understand reality and they refuse. At that point, their own issues are standing in the way of your relationship. But unfortunately a relationship is about two people, and sometimes the other one just doesn’t understand who we are no matter what we do.</p>
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		<title>Why Didn’t Evolution Cull Bipolar Disorder? &#8211; Bipolar Benefits</title>
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		<pubDate>Thu, 09 Feb 2012 18:21:32 +0000</pubDate>
		<dc:creator>Natasha Tracy</dc:creator>
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<p>Most, including myself, would argue that, particularly without treatment, bipolar disorder is a <a title="Bipolar as a Disability" href="http://www.healthyplace.com/blogs/breakingbipolar/2012/01/15/mental-illness-as-a-disability/" target="_blank">decrease in functioning.</a> Untreated depression and mania disrupt every part of a life in negative ways – that’s what <a title="Mental Illness is Only a Problem When Mental Illness is a Problem" href="http://www.healthyplace.com/blogs/breakingbipolar/2011/03/17/mental-illness-is-only-a-problem-when-mental-illness-is-a-problem/" target="_blank">drives people to get treatment</a> in the first place.</p>
<p>But if bipolar disorder is an illness and is a <a title="How to Be Bipolar and High-Functioning" href="http://www.healthyplace.com/blogs/breakingbipolar/2011/06/06/how-to-be-bipolar-and-high-functioning/" target="_blank">decrease in functioning,</a> why hasn’t evolution naturally selected out bipolar disorder? Why do we still see bipolar disorder today?</p>
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<h2>Evolutionary Culling of Disease</h2>
<p><a href="http://upload.wikimedia.org/wikipedia/commons/thumb/6/6f/Editorial_cartoon_depicting_Charles_Darwin_as_an_ape_%281871%29.jpg/446px-Editorial_cartoon_depicting_Charles_Darwin_as_an_ape_%281871%29.jpg"><img class="alignright" src="http://upload.wikimedia.org/wikipedia/commons/thumb/6/6f/Editorial_cartoon_depicting_Charles_Darwin_as_an_ape_%281871%29.jpg/446px-Editorial_cartoon_depicting_Charles_Darwin_as_an_ape_%281871%29.jpg" alt="" width="188" height="252" /></a>Now, if you don’t <a title="Primer on Evolution" href="http://psycheducation.org/mechanism/evolution.htm" target="_blank">believe in evolution,</a> I can’t help you, but assuming you do, a quick refresher – survival of the fittest. The “fittest” in this case not indicating body fat percentage but indicating the greatest likelihood of survival. The “fittest” people would survive and thus be more likely to have offspring. Those offspring would be more likely to survive due to their parents superior DNA while others, <a title="&quot;High-Functioning&quot; Bipolar Disorder" href="http://www.healthyplace.com/blogs/breakingbipolar/2011/01/17/%e2%80%9chigh-functioning%e2%80%9d-bipolar-disorder/" target="_blank">less “fit,”</a> would die before they could have children and pass on their DNA.</p>
<p>But why would people with bipolar disorder be fit enough to survive when, even today, bipolar disorder has as high mortality rate?</p>
<h2>Benefits of Depression</h2>
<p>When I’m in a depression I’m hard-pressed to see any benefit. In fact, someone telling me there <em>is</em> a benefit is a bit of a slap in the face. But looking evolutionarily there may have been some benefit to depression. For example, if you were in a lower class (in any type of society there are always classes) where other, more powerful humans would use and abuse you and take your things no matter what you did, it might make sense to <a title="Depression - I'd Rather Be Sleeping" href="http://www.healthyplace.com/blogs/breakingbipolar/2011/10/20/depression-id-rather-be-sleeping/" target="_blank">sit around and do nothing.</a> It might, in fact, make sense not to fight back if your opponent would always win no matter what you did. It might make sense to <a title="Bipolar Disorder and Weight Gain" href="http://www.healthyplace.com/blogs/breakingbipolar/2012/01/26/psychiatric-drugs-and-weight-gain-video/" target="_blank">eat everything you could get your hands on</a> because of scarcity of food supply tomorrow. The physical symptoms of depression might, in fact, protect you.</p>
<h2>Benefits of Mania</h2>
<p>The benefits of mania are pretty obvious. You can get more done than your fellow homosapiens. You’re braver; you’re bolder. You’re willing to take greater risks and earn bigger rewards. You can talk yourself and all those around you to go into battle and conquer the neighboring tribe. You might also be able to find more <a title="Mental Illness and Creativity" href="http://www.healthyplace.com/blogs/breakingbipolar/2011/03/15/mental-illness-crazy-and-creativity/" target="_blank">creative solutions</a> to the problems facing humans at the time.</p>
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<h2>Benefits of Bipolar Disorder</h2>
<p>I’m not saying that in today’s society having bipolar disorder is a good thing. Quite frankly, I would never say that. But there is a theoretical role in bipolar disorder throughout human history. Those traits that we now find maladaptive may, at one time, have been useful.</p>
<h2>A More Modern Take on the Benefits of Bipolar</h2>
<ul>
<li><a title="Bipolar Evlolutionary Advantage" href="http://psycheducation.org/BipolarMechanism/5BigPicture.htm" target="_blank">There Must be Some Evolutionary Advantage</a> by Dr. Jim Phelps</li>
<li><a title="Touched with Fire - Book" href="http://www.amazon.com/Touched-Fire-Manic-Depressive-Artistic-Temperament/dp/068483183X/ref=sr_1_3?ie=UTF8&amp;qid=1328809860&amp;sr=8-3" target="_blank">Touched with Fire: Manic-Depressive Illness and the Artistic Temperament</a> by <a title="Key Redfield Jamison" href="http://www.amazon.com/Kay-Redfield-Jamison/e/B000AQ1IC8/ref=sr_ntt_srch_lnk_3?qid=1328809860&amp;sr=8-3" target="_blank">Kay Redfield Jamison</a></li>
<li><a title="The Hypomanic Edge - Book" href="http://www.amazon.com/Hypomanic-Edge-Between-Craziness-Success/dp/0743243455/ref=sr_1_1?ie=UTF8&amp;qid=1328809902&amp;sr=8-1" target="_blank">The Hypomanic Edge: The Link Between (A Little) Craziness and (A Lot of) Success in America</a> by <a title="John D. Gartner" href="http://www.amazon.com/John-D.-Gartner/e/B001JS8ONM/ref=sr_ntt_srch_lnk_1?qid=1328809900&amp;sr=8-1" target="_blank">John D. Gartner</a></li>
<li><a title="The Bipolar Advantage - Book" href="http://www.amazon.com/Bipolar-Advantage-Tom-Wootton/dp/0977442306/ref=sr_1_1?ie=UTF8&amp;qid=1328809931&amp;sr=8-1" target="_blank">The Bipolar Advantage</a> by <a title="Tom Wootton" href="http://www.amazon.com/Tom-Wootton/e/B0030KLVWS/ref=sr_ntt_srch_lnk_1?qid=1328809931&amp;sr=8-1" target="_blank">Tom Wootton</a></li>
<li><a title="Hypomania's Upside" href="http://www.signonsandiego.com/uniontrib/20050406/news_1c06hypo.html" target="_blank">Hypomania&#8217;s up side distinct but linked to bipolar disorder</a> &#8211; By Benedict Carey (a New York Times article)</li>
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		<title>Bipolar Disorder, Depression and Psychosis</title>
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		<pubDate>Mon, 06 Feb 2012 18:56:27 +0000</pubDate>
		<dc:creator>Natasha Tracy</dc:creator>
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<p>Bipolar disorder is associated with extremely high (mania/hypomania) and low <a title="Depression is not Sadness" href="http://www.healthyplace.com/blogs/breakingbipolar/2011/08/11/depression-is-not-sadness/" target="_blank">(depressed) moods</a>. This is typically seen with emotional changes, behavioral changes, energy changes and so on.</p>
<p>Psychosis, on the other hand is the presence of delusions and hallucinations. Delusions – false beliefs that persist in spite of the existence of contrary evidence – and hallucinations are most closely associated with <a title="Schizophrenia Awareness Fights Stigma" href="http://www.healthyplace.com/blogs/breakingbipolar/2011/06/01/schizophrenia-awareness-fights-fear-and-stigma-video/" target="_blank">schizophrenia.</a></p>
<p>However, symptoms of psychosis can occur in bipolar disorder and depression as well.<br />
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<h2>Mania / Hypomania and Psychosis</h2>
<p><a rel="attachment wp-att-3594" href="http://www.healthyplace.com/blogs/breakingbipolar/2012/02/06/bipolar-disorder-depression-and-psychosis/blur-of-ferris-wheel-with-yellow-lights/"><img class="alignright size-large wp-image-3594" src="http://www.healthyplace.com/blogs/breakingbipolar/files/2012/02/MP9004075611-1024x682.jpg" alt="" width="230" height="154" /></a>Psychosis is not a diagnostic criterion for mania but is known to occur alongside mania for many people. Approximately <a title="Bipolar Affective Disorder" href="http://emedicine.medscape.com/article/286342-clinical#showall" target="_blank">three-quarters of people with mania suffer from delusions</a>. Delusions of grandeur (thinking you are a deity), paranoia and other forms of psychosis – or losing touch with reality – are common.</p>
<p>Psychosis is not present in hypomania.</p>
<p>People experiencing a mixed mood in bipolar disorder can also experience psychosis that may be consistent with mania or depression.</p>
<h2>Depression and Psychosis</h2>
<p>Psychosis can also occur during the depressed phase of bipolar disorder or during unipolar depression. Psychotic depression, in fact, is one of the most severe forms of depression. With psychotic depression a person experiences hallucinations or delusions that may or may not be consistent with mood.</p>
<p>If the psychosis is consistent with mood the person may unreasonably feel:</p>
<ul>
<li>They have sinned and are unreasonably guilty and remorseful</li>
<li>They are worthless and should live with complete deprivation and degradation</li>
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<p>If the psychosis is inconsistent with depression the person may unreasonably feel:</p>
<ul>
<li>Paranoid</li>
<li>Persecuted</li>
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<h2>The Problem with Psychosis</h2>
<p>Sure, when described in medical-eze it doesn’t sound so bad – who wouldn’t want to feel like queen for a day? The trouble is <a title="Lack of Understanding of Mental Illness" href="http://www.healthyplace.com/blogs/breakingbipolar/2012/01/05/lack-of-understanding-of-mental-illness/" target="_blank">people with psychosis truly believe their delusions and hallucinations;</a> that is what makes them so dangerous. The trouble is not in believing that you are Jesus, the trouble is what you would do because of that belief.</p>
<p>As one woman explained to me, she thought she could communicate with nature and so closed her eyes while speeding down the freeway, expecting the wind to tell her when to turn her car. (The woman, miraculously, was OK.) Even after she crashed, she was not convinced that she was psychotic.</p>
<h2>What to Do if You See Psychosis</h2>
<p>I say what to do if you “see” psychosis rather than if you “experience” psychosis as it’s very likely <a title="Bipolar Disorder, Can You Trust What You Feel?" href="http://www.healthyplace.com/blogs/breakingbipolar/2011/09/29/bipolar-disorder-can-you-trust-what-you-feel/" target="_blank">if you’re the one experiencing</a> it, <a title="Convince Myself to Get Help for a Mental Illness" href="http://www.healthyplace.com/blogs/breakingbipolar/2011/10/17/how-do-i-convince-myself-to-get-help-for-mental-illness/" target="_blank">you won’t realize it.</a></p>
<p>If you see psychosis in someone it is <em>not</em> something to laugh about or shake off. In fact, one of the problems many people have is that others indulge their psychosis, making them think it is all the more real. Anyone with psychosis needs <a title="How to Help Someone with a Mental Illness" href="http://www.healthyplace.com/blogs/breakingbipolar/2011/03/28/how-to-help-someone-with-a-mental-illness/" target="_blank">help</a> immediately, even if they don’t know it.</p>
<p>Do:</p>
<ul>
<li>Remain calm and try to facilitate a calm environment, speak slowly and quietly, give step-by-step instructions</li>
<li>Try to connect with the emotion behind the delusion</li>
<li>Show compassion – this is an illness and not something the person is doing on purpose</li>
<li>Consider your and the person’s safety</li>
<li>Contact their<a title="Learn to Trust Your Doctor" href="http://www.healthyplace.com/blogs/breakingbipolar/2011/10/10/trust-issues-learn-to-trust-your-doctor/" target="_blank"> doctor</a> immediately</li>
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<p>Don’t:</p>
<ul>
<li>Argue with the delusion / hallucination – this can create major agitation</li>
</ul>
<p>The important thing to remember is that psychosis is a real problem and consists of a persistent belief that is difficult to change, so don’t try. Just focus on safety and getting help for the person experiencing psychosis.</p>
<h4>Please see this <a title="How to Handle Psychosis" href="http://www.bcss.org/2006/03/resources/family-friends/psychosis-symptoms-and-what-to-do/" target="_blank">excellent guide on dealing with psychosis </a>by the <a title="British Columbia Schizophrenia Society" href="http://www.bcss.org/" target="_blank">British Columbia Schizophrenia Society</a> for more information.</h4>
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		<title>Bipolar and a Broken Identity</title>
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		<pubDate>Thu, 02 Feb 2012 19:16:17 +0000</pubDate>
		<dc:creator>Natasha Tracy</dc:creator>
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<p>There is a persistent <a title="Lack of Understanding Of Mental Illness" href="http://www.healthyplace.com/blogs/breakingbipolar/2012/01/05/lack-of-understanding-of-mental-illness/" target="_blank">myth </a>that having bipolar disorder means you have a <a title="Hatred Toward the Bipolar Community" href="http://www.healthyplace.com/blogs/breakingbipolar/2012/01/19/hatred-towards-the-bipolar-community/" target="_blank">“broken identity,” or even, “split personality.” </a>I would imagine the term “manic depression” (an older term for bipolar disorder) conjures up these images for some people. But I’m here to tell you, my identity is just <a title="Is Bipolar a Personality Disorder" href="http://www.healthyplace.com/blogs/breakingbipolar/2012/01/09/is-bipolar-a-personality-disorder/" target="_blank">fine as is my personality.</a><span id="more-3563"></span></p>
<h2>A “Split Personality”</h2>
<p>I’m not sure where this term originated but it seems most closely tied to schizophrenia (which is not a split personality) and less so bipolar disorder. (The term is also given, perhaps more accurately, to dissociative identity disorder but that is a broader topic than this article has space for.)</p>
<p><a title="Split Personality on Wikipedia" href="http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Split_personality" target="_blank">Wikipedia gives the example of a split personality</a> as Dr. Jekyll and Mr. Hyde. And I think everyone who has ever met me can tell you I am nothing like that.</p>
<p>True, a person in mania and the same person depressed may seem different but a split personality? No. Their personality is the same, only their <a title="Depression and Feeling Nothing At All" href="http://www.healthyplace.com/blogs/breakingbipolar/2012/01/12/bipolar-depression-and-feeling-nothing-at-all/" target="_blank">mood has changed</a> (<a title="Bipolar - Can You Trust What You Feel" href="http://www.healthyplace.com/blogs/breakingbipolar/2011/09/29/bipolar-disorder-can-you-trust-what-you-feel/" target="_blank">however profoundly</a>).</p>
<h2><a rel="attachment wp-att-3571" href="http://www.healthyplace.com/blogs/breakingbipolar/2012/02/02/bipolar-and-a-broken-identity/concept-of-hand-with-electronic-fingerprints/"><img class="size-large wp-image-3571 alignright" src="http://www.healthyplace.com/blogs/breakingbipolar/files/2012/02/MP9004317021-1024x682.jpg" alt="" width="230" height="154" /></a>Broken Identity</h2>
<p>Your “identity” is both a philosophical and psychological construct. But essentially it is who you are. It is your personality and distinctive character. It’s the fact that you identify with certain groups and ideas. It’s the fact that you like chocolate ice cream over vanilla.</p>
<p>It’s quite possible to suffer from a broken identity and to “not know who you are.” This often happens after a major life change, like a divorce, when what you’ve identified with – being a spouse – has been removed from your life. It’s natural to have a period of finding yourself during these types of life changes.</p>
<p>But bipolar disorder is not a broken identity. I know I like chocolate ice cream over vanilla and that’s not really in question.</p>
<h2>Mood Disorders and Identity</h2>
<p>This is not to suggest you can’t have an identity crisis and a mood disorder at the same time, because of course you can. For example, when you first are <a title="Diagnosis Removes Responsibility from the Patient" href="http://www.healthyplace.com/blogs/breakingbipolar/2012/01/22/mental-illness-diagnosis-removes-responsibility-from-the-patient/" target="_blank">diagnosed with a serious mental illness</a>, that might be a natural time to re-evaluate your <a title="Mental Illness as a Disability" href="http://www.healthyplace.com/blogs/breakingbipolar/2012/01/15/mental-illness-as-a-disability/" target="_blank">identity</a> in light of this new, fairly Earth-shattering, information. However, this is not something that is part of bipolar disorder, but it may be part of your life, for a time, alongside the mood disorder.</p>
<p>For me, I’ve lived with bipolar disorder for so long that is has become part of my identity but this doesn’t mean I’m broken any more than a person with a seizure disorder who comes to accept epilepsy as part of their life is broken. I’m just a person. With bipolar. Bipolar is part of my identity. I wish it weren’t. But it is. But I’m not broken. I’m just a person wobbling around trying to figure out things as best I can – like everyone else.</p>
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		<pubDate>Mon, 30 Jan 2012 19:38:23 +0000</pubDate>
		<dc:creator>Natasha Tracy</dc:creator>
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<p>Last night I drank.</p>
<p>Alcohol.</p>
<p>OK. You probably don&#8217;t need to alert the media. But I do need to alert you about the horrible effects alcohol can have on a person with bipolar disorder.<span id="more-3552"></span></p>
<h2>Drinking Alcohol</h2>
<p>I&#8217;m human. I&#8217;ll admit it right now; I am. And one of the things this means is that I&#8217;m subject to human cravings and desires and occasionally I like to have a drink. It&#8217;s not the biggest deal in the world but it&#8217;s <a title="Drinking and Bipolar Disorder" href="http://www.psycheducation.org/depression/03_treatment_app.html#Anchor-How-45741" target="_blank">something that I <em>shouldn&#8217;t</em> do.</a> But then, there are a lot of things in life that I shouldn&#8217;t do and I get tired of not doing them all.</p>
<p>And I was feeling weak and weary and <a title="Bipolar and Feeling Nothing at All" href="http://www.healthyplace.com/blogs/breakingbipolar/2012/01/bipolar-depression-and-feeling-nothing-at-all/" target="_blank">tired of my own mind </a>and my own troubles so I drank some gin. This is something that takes place in every restaurant, in every bar, in every pub, every day.</p>
<p>Of course, I&#8217;m not like those people. I&#8217;m a medicated bipolar. For me, drinking is more meaningful.</p>
<h2><img class="alignright size-full wp-image-3535" src="http://www.healthyplace.com/media/wpmu/uploads/blogs.dir/62/files/2012/01/mp9004093721.jpg" alt="CB106470" width="232" height="232" />One Drink Equals a Lot</h2>
<p>And one of the things about drinking is that one drink tends to do the work of many drinks for a <a title="Psych Med Side Effects" href="http://www.healthyplace.com/blogs/breakingbipolar/2011/09/is-it-a-psych-med-side-effect/" target="_blank">person on bipolar medication.</a> For a female, one drink does not, typically, put someone over the legal limit to drive, but for a medicated person it sure should. One drink on an empty stomach tends to hit me like a whole night of drinking. I go from sober to strawberry fields in minutes. Alcohol is like that.</p>
<p>And drinking also <a title="Stability in Bipolar Requires Routine" href="http://www.healthyplace.com/blogs/breakingbipolar/2010/09/stability-in-bipolar-disorder-requires-routine/" target="_blank">destabilizes bipolar disorder.</a> Alcohol is one of the things <a title="Learn to Trust your Doctor" href="http://www.healthyplace.com/blogs/breakingbipolar/2011/10/trust-issues-learn-to-trust-your-doctor/" target="_blank">doctors tell you to avoid</a>, not just because they&#8217;re doctors and they&#8217;re like that but because alcohol can induce bipolar mood swings. It&#8217;s a drug. And not a very nice one at that.</p>
<h2>Alcohol and the Brain</h2>
<p>And alcohol is not a simple, clear-cut drug either. It works in your brain and<a title="Alcohol and the Brain" href="http://thebrain.mcgill.ca/flash/i/i_03/i_03_m/i_03_m_par/i_03_m_par_alcool.html#drogues" target="_blank"> throughout your nervous system on GABA, dopamine and other neurotransmitters</a> critical to mood and well-being.</p>
<h2>Alcohol Impairs Thought</h2>
<p><em>Well, duh</em>, you&#8217;re saying &#8211; <em>that&#8217;s why you drink it!</em> But it doesn&#8217;t just impair <a title="Bipolar Disorder Thought Types" href="http://www.healthyplace.com/blogs/breakingbipolar/2011/11/bipolar-disorder-thought-types/" target="_blank">unpleasant thoughts</a>; it impairs useful trains of thought as well. Like all those great cognitive behavioral therapy skills you&#8217;ve been practicing don&#8217;t work so well after a martini. It tends to leave you both shaken and stirred.</p>
<h2>Last Night</h2>
<p>And so, I found myself drowning out unpleasantness only to find myself wrapped in a cloak of greater, more salty, unpleasantness. Sure, I had been tired of my usual place in the world but I had failed to take into consideration how <a title="High-Functioning bipolar Disorder" href="http://www.healthyplace.com/blogs/breakingbipolar/2011/06/how-to-be-bipolar-and-high-functioning/" target="_blank">carefully constructed that place was.</a> How much work it takes for me to beat back all the bipolar thoughts I have every moment of the day. I take for granted that I&#8217;m doing it. Because now, beating back the thoughts that would try to kill me is like breathing.</p>
<p>And alcohol undid my breathing.</p>
<p>Which makes alcohol dangerous. Not dangerous because of what it inherently does to you, but dangerous because of the way it compromises control over your own brain. Your control. The thing that keeps you whole. The thing that reminds you that your kids matter. The thing that remembers that pain is temporary. The thing that prevents you from hurting yourself. The control that keeps you upright and in one piece.</p>
<p>Now I am fine, of course, no reason to panic. I just got slapped upside the head with a reminder. Drinking is bad. Drinking will get my cheeks wet. Drinking will cause me suffering. No matter how seductively it promises to take my pain away. It&#8217;s a big liar.</p>
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		<title>Psychiatric Drugs and Weight Gain + Video</title>
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		<pubDate>Thu, 26 Jan 2012 18:12:19 +0000</pubDate>
		<dc:creator>Natasha Tracy</dc:creator>
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<p>Yes, psychiatric drugs can cause weight gain. It&#8217;s not a rumor; it&#8217;s not a myth; it&#8217;s true. It&#8217;s one of the most unfortunate things about medication.</p>
<p>But what can you do about drug-related weight gain?<span id="more-3521"></span></p>
<h2>Psychiatric Drug Weight Gain</h2>
<p>The process by which psychiatric drugs make you gain weight is three-fold.</p>
<ul class="unIndentedList">
<li> Some drugs affect your blood sugar levels and change the way your body metabolizes food. You may also crave carbohydrates.</li>
<li> Some drugs make you constantly hungry, sometimes to the point where you are hungry all day, even just after having eaten causing you to eat more</li>
<li> Some drugs make you lethargic and less willing or able to exercise</li>
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<p>Not all drugs work in this way, but some do. For the specifics on any given drug, ask your doctor about weight gain. Antipsychotics tend to produce the most weight gain followed by antidepressants.</p>
<p>(Note that some drugs are specifically <em>not </em>associated with weight gain as well, so these are options for people who are concerned about their weight.)</p>
<h2>Psychiatric Medication Trade-Offs</h2>
<p><img class="alignright size-large wp-image-3523" src="http://www.healthyplace.com/media/wpmu/uploads/blogs.dir/62/files/2012/01/mp9004222091-1024x678.jpg" alt="42-15530490" width="221" height="146" />Nevertheless, some people choose to take these medications. A person who has gained 10, 20 or even 50 pounds may still choose to stay on a medication. Why? Trade-offs.</p>
<p>Sometimes being a happy and mentally healthy overweight person is much better than the alternative of being a very unhappy and mentally unhealthy thin person. This trade-off is individual for the person but it&#8217;s important to know what you will and won&#8217;t accept in terms of side effects. If your weight is creeping up and it&#8217;s important to you that it not, you need to discuss it with your doctor right away.</p>
<h2>What to Do if You&#8217;re on Medication that Might Make You Gain Weight</h2>
<p>Again, not all medication makes you gain weight, and even medication that is prone to inducing weight gain doesn&#8217;t produce it in all people, so you may be lucky. Nevertheless, if you&#8217;re on any medication that can induce weight gain you should:</p>
<ul class="unIndentedList">
<li> Watch your diet and look for any changes</li>
<li> Watch your exercise and try to stick to an exercise routine whenever possible</li>
<li> Watch your weight so you can talk to your doctor as soon as a problem occurs (Note: doctors should be doing this for you during office visits but I&#8217;ve found they often don&#8217;t. If you don&#8217;t have a scale, just ask the doctor to weigh you &#8211; they will have one.)</li>
<li> Ask about any blood tests you should be doing for things like blood sugar and cholesterol levels to ensure that there are no invisible problems building in your body. (Again, a doctor should do this without you asking, but if they&#8217;re not, then come right out and ask them.)</li>
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<p>Rest assured that medication does not necessarily mean weight gain, but the one who can best make sure of that is you.</p>
<h2>My Experience with Drugs and Weight Gain</h2>
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		<dc:creator>Natasha Tracy</dc:creator>
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<p>As I work, I <a title="Fighting Depression and Stigma" href="http://www.healthyplace.com/blogs/breakingbipolar/2011/11/fighting-the-seen-enemy-depression-and-stigma/" target="_blank">battle</a> the <a title="Hatred Towards the Bipolar Community" href="http://www.healthyplace.com/blogs/breakingbipolar/2012/01/hatred-towards-the-bipolar-community/" target="_blank">misconceptions</a> around mental illness. It feels like often, all day, every day, <a title="Lack of Understanding of Mental Illness" href="http://www.healthyplace.com/blogs/breakingbipolar/2012/01/lack-of-understanding-of-mental-illness/" target="_blank">it&#8217;s the only thing I do.</a> But I do it because I feel it&#8217;s important. I feel it matters. I feel it changes people&#8217;s lives.</p>
<p>And one of the misconceptions I&#8217;ve heard multiple times recently is about bipolar and mental illness diagnosis. That by accepting a diagnosis of a mental illness this somehow removes the responsibility from the individual for their own wellness. That, somehow, a mental illness diagnosis makes the patient <em>weak</em> because now they are looking for someone to &#8220;save&#8221; them or &#8220;cure&#8221; them.</p>
<p>Well nothing could be farther from the truth. Getting a mental illness diagnosis is only the first step in what a patient must do in order to recover.<span id="more-3509"></span></p>
<h2>Mental Illness Diagnosis and Responsibility</h2>
<p>I have yet to meet anyone that thought, &#8220;Gee, things are hard, I bet a mental illness diagnosis would make it better.&#8221;</p>
<p>And indeed, if relieving yourself of responsibility was the result of a diagnosis, it would make things easier, but alas, this just isn&#8217;t the case. Getting a mental illness diagnosis isn&#8217;t like hiring an office assistant; you still have to get your own coffee.</p>
<p>In fact, I would suggest that getting a mental illness diagnosis is actually an invocation of <em>greater</em> responsibility. Because now, you&#8217;re responsible for <a title="Fighting the Unseen Enemy of Bipolar Disorder" href="http://www.healthyplace.com/blogs/breakingbipolar/2011/11/fighting-an-unseen-enemy-bipolar-disorder/" target="_blank">managing a life-threatening illness.</a> Sounds fairly heavy to me.</p>
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<p>And unless your <a title="How to Choose a Good Psychiatrist" href="http://www.healthyplace.com/blogs/breakingbipolar/2011/12/how-to-choose-a-good-psychiatrist/" target="_blank">doctor</a> has an <a title="Doctors Don't Understand How Intimidating They Are" href="http://www.healthyplace.com/blogs/breakingbipolar/2011/10/doctors-dont-understand-how-intimidating-they-are/" target="_blank">ego</a> the size of Texas and likes to lie to you, no doctor is going to tell you that they are going to <a title="No Cure for Mental Illness Doesn't Mean you Should Give Up" href="http://www.healthyplace.com/blogs/breakingbipolar/2011/12/just-because-theres-no-cure-for-bipolar-doesnt-mean-you-should-give-up/" target="_blank">cure your mental illness.</a> Doctors are a great help, and often the cornerstone of fighting mental illness, but they aren&#8217;t men on white horses. They are more like the white horses themselves &#8211; you need them to get where you want to go, but you still have to do the work yourself.</p>
<h2>What About Waiting for Medication to Work?</h2>
<p>True, mental illness is often a waiting game. We&#8217;re often stuck waiting to see if med A or med B is going to help us and this is a disempowering place to be. But, really, waiting for meds is just a tiny part of the treatment plan. There&#8217;s getting your life together. There&#8217;s developing and maintaining routine. There&#8217;s therapy. There&#8217;s support. There are <a title="Bipolar and Self-Care" href="http://www.healthyplace.com/blogs/breakingbipolar/2011/11/bipolar-disorder-mental-health-and-self-care-video/" target="_blank">healthy habits.</a> There are <a title="Participate in your Health Care and Get Better" href="http://www.healthyplace.com/blogs/breakingbipolar/2011/06/be-a-good-patient-choose-to-be-get-better/" target="_blank">appointments.</a> There are coping skills. And on, and on, and on. While waiting is hard, it&#8217;s not exactly free time.</p>
<h2>You&#8217;re the Only One Who Can Make You Better</h2>
<p>Now understand, I&#8217;m not saying that all treatments work or that <a title="How to Keep Going When Mental Illness Treatment Doesn't Work" href="http://www.healthyplace.com/blogs/breakingbipolar/2011/08/how-to-keep-going-when-mental-illness-treatment-doesnt-work/" target="_blank">treatments will work tomorrow</a> or that it&#8217;s your fault if a treatment doesn&#8217;t work &#8211; it isn&#8217;t. What I am saying is that if you&#8217;re not doing the work you <em>certainly</em> aren&#8217;t going to get better. And your responsibility &#8211; as a person who wants to be well &#8211; is to do everything in your power to get well. And that&#8217;s a lot. And <a title="I Survive Bipolar I Can Do Anything" href="http://www.healthyplace.com/blogs/breakingbipolar/2011/09/i-survive-bipolar-disorder-i-can-do-anything/" target="_blank">that&#8217;s hard.</a> And that&#8217;s daily. Choosing health means making good decisions all day every day because each one will have <em>more</em> impact than for a healthy person.</p>
<p>And if that isn&#8217;t oodles of responsibility, then I don&#8217;t know what is.</p>
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		<pubDate>Thu, 19 Jan 2012 20:44:18 +0000</pubDate>
		<dc:creator>Natasha Tracy</dc:creator>
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<p>Today I was made aware of a site that went up specifically to <a title="Lack of understand of Mental Illness" href="http://www.healthyplace.com/blogs/breakingbipolar/2012/01/lack-of-understanding-of-mental-illness/" target="_blank">make fun of, and show hatred towards, those with bipolar disorder.</a> Specifically, the site is aimed at me and all those who use psychiatric services in the treatment of mental illness. Whoever wrote the site feels it&#8217;s OK to <a title="Fighting Depression and Stigma" href="http://www.healthyplace.com/blogs/breakingbipolar/2011/11/fighting-the-seen-enemy-depression-and-stigma/" target="_blank">take advantage of people with an illness</a>, people who are <a title="Fighting Bipolar Disorder" href="http://www.healthyplace.com/blogs/breakingbipolar/2011/11/fighting-an-unseen-enemy-bipolar-disorder/" target="_blank">in pain.</a></p>
<p>Well, it&#8217;s not OK. We&#8217;re not a joke. We are people. Real, flesh and blood people. And we do not accept your hatred. I do not accept your hatred.<br />
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<h2>People with Bipolar are a Joke</h2>
<p>Some people would argue that bipolar disorder is overdiagnosed. I can&#8217;t say for sure it is or it isn&#8217;t. I haven&#8217;t seen the numbers. But I know one thing, mine is one case of bipolar disorder that wasn&#8217;t incorrectly diagnosed. And I know that mine isn&#8217;t a case that is a freaking joke.</p>
<p>Bipolar <a title="Depression is not Sadness" href="http://www.healthyplace.com/blogs/breakingbipolar/2011/08/depression-is-not-sadness/" target="_blank">hurts</a>. Bipolar is pain. Bipolar is, at times, <a title="Mental Illness as a Disability" href="http://www.healthyplace.com/blogs/breakingbipolar/2012/01/mental-illness-as-a-disability/" target="_blank">unbearable pain</a>. Anyone who would make fun of that isn&#8217;t funny. They are sick. And I am tired of their sickness.</p>
<h2>Psychiatric Patients are Masochistic</h2>
<p>Some people would contend that all those who see psychiatric help are <a title="You're Narcissistic - Getting Over Insults" href="http://www.healthyplace.com/blogs/breakingbipolar/2011/12/youre-narcissistic-getting-over-insults/" target="_blank">masochistic</a> and are setting themselves up for nothing but pain and suffering. These are the people who content that psychiatry is evil and that psychiatrists do nothing but harm people.</p>
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<p>This is the biggest pile of bull I have ever heard. Psychiatrists make a living trying to help people. Are they perfect? No. Is every <a title="How to Choose a Good Psychiatrist" href="http://www.healthyplace.com/blogs/breakingbipolar/2011/12/how-to-choose-a-good-psychiatrist/" target="_blank">psychiatrist great?</a> No. But are they trying to harm people? Absolutely not.</p>
<p>And I will not sit here idly by and listen to this hatred of psychiatry. It isn&#8217;t right. Psychiatrists are doctors and they deserve the same respect as everyone else. And we, the public <a title="You Have to Ask for And Accept Mental Illness Help" href="http://www.healthyplace.com/blogs/breakingbipolar/2011/10/mental-illness-you-have-to-ask-for-and-accept-help/" target="_blank">using the services of psychiatry, </a>are the ones in our <em>right</em> mind because we recognize we have a problem and we are going to the appropriate people to get help. We are not masochistic. We are not looking for someone to hurt us. Most of us wouldn&#8217;t stand for someone hurting us.</p>
<p>Masochistic is sitting and letting a disease eat you alive. Letting the pain steal your life. That is masochistic. <a title="I Survived Bipolar - I Can Do Anything" href="http://www.healthyplace.com/blogs/breakingbipolar/2011/09/i-survive-bipolar-disorder-i-can-do-anything/" target="_blank">We are strong</a> and we are powerful because we don&#8217;t let that happen.</p>
<h2>Standing Up for the Psychiatric Patient</h2>
<p>Yes, I&#8217;m a psych patient. I admit it. It&#8217;s true. Yes I take the<a title="You Don't Have to Live with Side Effects but you Might Choose to" href="http://www.healthyplace.com/blogs/breakingbipolar/2011/11/you-dont-have-to-live-with-side-effects-but-you-might-choose-to/" target="_blank"> dirty meds</a> and deal with the evil doctors and buy into the lies of <a title="What 2011 Taught Us About Mental Illness" href="http://www.healthyplace.com/blogs/breakingbipolar/2011/12/2011-in-psychiatry-what-this-year-taught-us-about-mental-illness/" target="_blank">biopsychiatry</a>. Yes, everything you&#8217;ve heard about me is true.</p>
<p>But I don&#8217;t deserve hatred and I don&#8217;t deserve abuse. Everyone like me is already afraid and isolated and sick and tired. And none of us deserve to be the victim of cruel, small-minded bigots. None of us deserve to be made to feel worse than the illness already makes us. We deserve respect. We deserve reason.</p>
<p>So come with your pitchforks and torches and hatred and mockery but know this -<a title="Silencing the Mentally Ill Isn't Acceptable" href="http://www.healthyplace.com/blogs/breakingbipolar/2011/11/silencing-the-mentally-ill/" target="_blank"> I will not stand for it </a>and I certainly won&#8217;t lie down to it. I am here. I am crazy. Get used to it.</p>
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		<title>Mental Illness as a Disability</title>
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		<pubDate>Sun, 15 Jan 2012 22:29:41 +0000</pubDate>
		<dc:creator>Natasha Tracy</dc:creator>
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<p>I don&#8217;t have anything against people with a disability. Why would I? Being disabled means nothing about the individual, it simply indicates their situation. It would be like being against people with siblings. It would just be silly.</p>
<p>Nevertheless, when considering my own bipolar disorder, I <a title="Negative Impression of Bipolar Disorder" href="http://www.healthyplace.com/blogs/breakingbipolar/2011/07/negative-gut-reactions-to-bipolar-mental-illness-information/" target="_blank">bristled against the word &#8220;disability.&#8221;</a> I know; this is hypocritical of me and a double standard. It&#8217;s OK for someone else to be disabled but not me? I&#8217;m embarrassed to even think it.</p>
<p>But bristle I have and think it I (mostly subconsciously) did. The truth is, though, I&#8217;m a person with a <a title="Depression and Stigma" href="http://www.healthyplace.com/blogs/breakingbipolar/2011/11/fighting-the-seen-enemy-depression-and-stigma/" target="_blank">disability.</a><br />
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<h2>I Have a Disability</h2>
<p>I had never considered myself disabled. Maybe that&#8217;s because I went to school, <a title="You Can't Get a Degree if You Have Bipolar - Myth " href="http://www.healthyplace.com/blogs/breakingbipolar/2011/09/you-cant-get-a-degree-if-you-have-bipolar-disorder-myth/" target="_blank">got a degree</a>, had jobs and <a title="I Survived Bipolar - I Can Do Anything" href="http://www.healthyplace.com/blogs/breakingbipolar/2011/09/i-survive-bipolar-disorder-i-can-do-anything/" target="_blank">accomplished (empirically) a lot.</a> There was <a title="How to be Bipolar and High-Functioning" href="http://www.healthyplace.com/blogs/breakingbipolar/2011/06/how-to-be-bipolar-and-high-functioning/" target="_blank">nothing disabled about that.</a></p>
<p>But then, one day when I was working at a fancy software company bigger than the town I grew up in, someone suggested I file person with a disability paperwork with human resources.</p>
<p>What? That&#8217;s a ridiculous notion. Why would I do that?</p>
<h2>My Own Misperceptions of Disability</h2>
<p><img class="alignright size-large wp-image-3484" src="http://www.healthyplace.com/media/wpmu/uploads/blogs.dir/62/files/2012/01/mp9004037411-1024x682.jpg" alt="Blur of Racing Wheelchairs in Competition" width="258" height="172" />Of course, what I failed to take into consideration is that people with a disability are just people. And lots of them work for fancy software companies. Why wouldn&#8217;t they? I did.</p>
<p>I think I always thought of a person with a disability as a person who couldn&#8217;t walk or who had some other sort of physical handicap. I never considered that disabilities could be invisible. I didn&#8217;t realize that my<a title="Fighting the unseen Enemy - Bipolar Disorder" href="http://www.healthyplace.com/blogs/breakingbipolar/2011/11/fighting-an-unseen-enemy-bipolar-disorder/" target="_blank"> invisible disease</a> was, in fact, a disability.</p>
<p>But let me be clear &#8211; mental illnesses are real illnesses and as such can be real disabilities just like anything else. <a title="Lack of Understanding of Mental Illness" href="http://www.healthyplace.com/blogs/breakingbipolar/2012/01/lack-of-understanding-of-mental-illness/" target="_blank">Visibility</a> isn&#8217;t a prerequisite.</p>
<h2>Yes, I Have a Disability</h2>
<p>But stating you have a disability is simply stating that you have an illness or handicap that affects how you interact with the world in comparison to everyone else. If you were in a wheelchair, this difference would be obvious. With a mental illness it is less so. But that doesn&#8217;t mean it&#8217;s not there.</p>
<p>People with a disability are legally allowed to ask for reasonable accommodation of their illness at work. And people with a mental illness <a title="You Have to Ask For, And Accept, Help" href="http://www.healthyplace.com/blogs/breakingbipolar/2011/10/mental-illness-you-have-to-ask-for-and-accept-help/" target="_blank">may need that kind of accommodation.</a> So<a title="Denial and Depression, Bipolar" href="http://www.healthyplace.com/blogs/breakingbipolar/2011/07/denial-keeps-those-with-a-mental-illness-from-getting-better/" target="_blank"> running from the word</a> &#8220;disability&#8221; is a silly thing to do and in the end, only hurts us.</p>
<p>I&#8217;ve learned that being disabled doesn&#8217;t change a single thing about me. It doesn&#8217;t change who I am or who I&#8217;m going to be just like it doesn&#8217;t change how I think of anyone else. It&#8217;s nonsense to be afraid of a word just because it makes us confront uncomfortable truths. I&#8217;m disabled. And it&#8217;s OK.</p>
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		<title>Bipolar Depression and Feeling Nothing at All</title>
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		<pubDate>Fri, 13 Jan 2012 01:15:48 +0000</pubDate>
		<dc:creator>Natasha Tracy</dc:creator>
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<p>Bipolar disorder is an affective disorder, in other words it affects your emotions (<a title="Depression Means Physical Pain Too" href="http://www.healthyplace.com/blogs/breakingbipolar/2011/09/mental-illness-means-physical-pain-too/" target="_blank">among other things</a>). Bipolar disorder symptoms are often <a title="Bipolar Disorder and Thought Types" href="http://www.healthyplace.com/blogs/breakingbipolar/2011/11/bipolar-disorder-thought-types/" target="_blank">about feelings</a>. Well, they&#8217;re about <a title="Bipolar Disorder Can You Trust What You Feel?" href="http://www.healthyplace.com/blogs/breakingbipolar/2011/09/bipolar-disorder-can-you-trust-what-you-feel/" target="_blank">FEELINGS</a>. I feel HAPPY. I feel SAD. I feel <a title="I Choose Anger Instead of Depression" href="http://www.healthyplace.com/blogs/breakingbipolar/2011/10/i-choose-anger-instead-of-depression/" target="_blank">IRRITATED</a>. I feel ENERGETIC.</p>
<p>But one thing that&#8217;s rarely recognized is that sometimes bipolar disorder is about feeling nothing at all.<span id="more-3469"></span></p>
<h2>Depression and Bipolar Disorder</h2>
<p><a title="Fighting Depression and Stigma" href="http://www.healthyplace.com/blogs/breakingbipolar/2011/11/fighting-the-seen-enemy-depression-and-stigma/" target="_blank">Depression</a> is one of the two poles of bipolar disorder (the other being mania / hypomania). And myself, being bipolar type 2, I&#8217;m darn familiar with it because people with bipolar disorder type 2 spend 35 times more time depressed than they do in hypomania.</p>
<h2>Depression and Emotion</h2>
<p>And while depression is a &#8220;low&#8221; mood and, of course, is known for <a title="Depression is not Saddness" href="http://www.healthyplace.com/blogs/breakingbipolar/2011/08/depression-is-not-sadness/" target="_blank">sadness</a>, there is something else you might feel when depressed: nothing at all.</p>
<p>Yup. Nothing. Just a void. You feel an absence, if such a thing is possible. You feel the blank page, silence, dark matter, dishwater. You move through the world, and things happen to you that you know you should feel, but<a title="Depression Anhedonia and Feeling Thankful" href="http://www.healthyplace.com/blogs/breakingbipolar/2011/08/bipolar-depression-anhedonia-and-being-thankful/" target="_blank"> instead of feeling, nothing happens.</a> Like turning the key in your car&#8217;s ignition and the car not starting &#8211; it&#8217;s unsettling.</p>
<h2>Yay! I&#8217;m Not Sad!</h2>
<p>So feeling nothing must be a great break from feeling terrible? Right?</p>
<p>Not in my experience. Feeling nothing just makes you feel like you&#8217;re not human, not like you&#8217;re not depressed. It&#8217;s like being the shell of a person. A walking and talking corpse. Like you&#8217;re nothing. The human experience with emotion removed isn&#8217;t the human experience &#8211; it&#8217;s really no experience at all.</p>
<p><img class="alignright size-full wp-image-3471" src="http://www.healthyplace.com/media/wpmu/uploads/blogs.dir/62/files/2012/01/mp9004444861.jpg" alt="mp9004444861" width="214" height="143" />Because emotions are how we make sense of the world around us. They are how we remember the day. If you loved the fact that you ate lasagne for lunch, you might remember it. If you ate the same dull ham sandwich for the 14<sup>th</sup> day in a row, you probably won&#8217;t. And what does anything matter if it doesn&#8217;t make you feel? If you don&#8217;t care about eating ice cream or seeing your kids smile or browsing a book store or taking a bubble bath then why bother doing any of those things? <a title="Depression - I'd Rather Be Sleeping" href="http://www.healthyplace.com/blogs/breakingbipolar/2011/10/depression-id-rather-be-sleeping/" target="_blank">Why bother doing anything at all?</a></p>
<p>And this is the thing that people <a title="Lack of Understanding of Mental Illness" href="http://www.healthyplace.com/blogs/breakingbipolar/2012/01/lack-of-understanding-of-mental-illness/" target="_blank">fundamentally don&#8217;t understand</a> about depression. Depression, bipolar, mood disorders, are about moods that don&#8217;t respond as expected and in this case don&#8217;t budge at all. There is nothing to do, nothing to say, no strategy to try because nothing moves the needle, even a little. It&#8217;s not that I&#8217;m not trying it&#8217;s that trying doesn&#8217;t matter.</p>
<p>And that is a recursive depression. It&#8217;s depression that makes you feel nothing which makes you feel depressed which makes you feel even less (because yes, there are degrees of nothingness). It&#8217;s depression that breeds depression. Like bunnies. Depression bunnies, all grey and un-hoppy.</p>
<h2>What to Do When You Feel Nothing</h2>
<p>Now comes the part of the article when I make my stunningly insightful <a title="Ten Last-Minute Tips for the Bipolar Holiday" href="http://www.healthyplace.com/blogs/breakingbipolar/2011/12/last-minute-holiday-tips-for-the-bipolar/" target="_blank">recommendations</a>. Ah. I&#8217;m having trouble with that bit because I only have one suggestion: try to remember it wasn&#8217;t always like this and it won&#8217;t always be like this in the future.</p>
<p>That&#8217;s it. <a title="How to Keep Going When Treatment Doesn't Work" href="http://www.healthyplace.com/blogs/breakingbipolar/2011/08/how-to-keep-going-when-mental-illness-treatment-doesnt-work/" target="_blank">Try to remember.</a> Because I don&#8217;t have a stunningly insightful recommendation for how to fix the problem, I can only remind you that <a title="Bipolar Disorder - Help I Feel Good" href="http://www.healthyplace.com/blogs/breakingbipolar/2011/06/help-i-feel-good/" target="_blank">the problem wasn&#8217;t always there </a>and won&#8217;t always be there. You just have <a title="No Cure for Bipolar Doesn't Mean You Should Give Up" href="http://www.healthyplace.com/blogs/breakingbipolar/2011/12/just-because-theres-no-cure-for-bipolar-doesnt-mean-you-should-give-up/" target="_blank">to wait. And trust.</a></p>
<p>One day the bunnies will hop again.</p>
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