Quest for Freedom!

~ An insight into OCD ~ Obsessive Compulsive Disorder

Dear Diary,

Well a lot's happened since my last entry, not all of it good!

My marriage seems to be over! I went home to talk to Phil and it appears he's having an affair with someone. He doesn't seem very happy though and says he's not sure what he wants. I can no longer put my life on hold while he figures it out though, so dispite being stunned I am trying to get on with things and not allow all of this to get in the way of my progress OCD-wise. It's difficult, I can be busy doing something when it all comes into my mind and it's very sad.

I am coping quite well with my OCD though, despite this, and continue to go forward.

On a more positive note, I'm hoping to be driving very soon as I've had a much better quote for my car insurance, so that's exciting.

I am still anxious about touching things on the floor sometime's but, at least, now I know that I can resist this anxiety if I try hard enough. My checking is lingering a bit also. The stress caused by my relationship is really increasing the OCD symptoms. It get's very frustrating. I really must resist the compulsion to re-do, re-touch and re-check things. It make's me feel giddy and want to scream STOP!

I am enjoying my hosting of OCDiscussion support group at Healthyplace.com. I've changed the day and time of my OCD support group meetings though as Saturday afternoon's weren't proving to be a good time. The new day will be Monday Night's ~ 2.00am GMT, 8.00pm CST, 9 EST and in Support Room 2.

Over the weekend, when I was at home, I ran out of my medication and was unable to get it for five days. I don't want to do that again. I now realise how much the meds help me. By the fifth day, I was feeling a lot more anxious about everything.

Well that's about it for this month, I hope you, reading this, are as well as possible.

Stay Determined and Take One Day at a Time.

Love ~Sani~

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