The Struggle of the Ego - Ego and Self Overview

Written by Adrian Newington

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By learning to tune in to your reactions by simple observation, you will be able to heighten an awareness of yourself. Your feeling response is that silent knowledge that comes from within, and it will always be present before any fear. Though the fear may come charging in at a very rapid pace, it will always be triggered from your original feeling response. These feeling responses do not necessarily always have to be peaceful or loving. There are times when the feeling response might be anger (perhaps Protective Anger, or an instinctual response that prompts you to rightfully and thoughtfully assert your self).

It is when we rationalize or begin to deny what is true for ourselves that the emotional response of the Ego trying to protect us can then be allowed to assert itself. Obviously, in the process of getting to know the subtle interactions of the Ego and the inner truth, one must observe and rationalize these various responses, but when the rationalizations motivated from the fear response are done without awareness, the individual is caught in a blind cycle leaving no room for growth or renewal. The rationalizations of the student of awareness are motivated from Love and a need for growth.

Now you will be able to choose whether or not to respond in accordance with the original feeling response or the fear based response. By beginning to nurture an awareness of that part of yourself that I call Your Truth, then in time you will start to see that you have alternatives to the way in which you can lead your life. It is at this time that you can begin to take control of your emotions and attitude.

Here it can be seen that when we experience any form of fear, it will always be linked to some event, so when the Ego senses a potential for pain, it will activate fear, or an automatic response based on old and long forgotten fears, but still resident within you below the level of conscious awareness, (i.e. the sub-conscious). When unawareness in thinking to the responses of the Ego continues, it will sustain a cycle of unconscious or automatic reactions which we sometimes wish we hadn't auctioned. Have you ever said:

"Why did I do that?"

...or...

"Why do I always do it like that ?"

If you find such ways persisting, while at the same time you wish they wouldn't, then your actions and responses are illustrating a motivation of fear. Here is a way of living that has come from the Ego being allowed to govern the outward responses to events. Over the course of many years, patterns become established in our makeup to reveal themselves in everyday situations. These aspects of our nature are learned patterns and are such a common part of the makeup of society, we get fooled into thinking that not only is it perfectly acceptable, but that it is normal. However, what is common, is not necessarily normal or acceptable, and if we wish to be liberated from the limitations that fear will cause in our lives, then we must activate a new way of thinking that will replace blinding confusion with enlightening Peace.

EGO VERSUS TRUTH:

Another fear-motivated action of the Ego is to disrupt the flow of good and positive thoughts. Since the truth will always reside within us, we will always have a potential for inner conflict when the Ego becomes dominant in our thinking. Here, we can begin to play games with ourselves or other people as we deny what is really happening within.

"Should be's", and "Shouldn'ts" are born of conflict from what you are experiencing, (Your Truth or feelings), and what you are fearing through the surfacing of your Truth.

In response to all these paragraphs about feelings and the inner truth, you might begin to say, "These feelings of mine, I wake up on Monday morning and FEEL like not going to work! "Does that mean I'm justified in Staying Home." Be careful. So subtle and lightning fast is the response by the Ego that it's response can be easily confused for an original intuitive feeling issued by the silent inner truth. You have to practice identifying one from the other.

This truth is as mysterious as our Spiritual nature and requires no justification, ratification or approval. Our truth just IS. It simply exists, and since it is linked to our Spirit, the Ego will always be the cause of our difficulties when as the two operate without integration.

Our Truth is willing to step out into the unknown, but the Ego will want to guard us so it then activates fear. The Ego will look into a library of experiences to compare and evaluate the potential for pain and bring forth a response. Sometimes this library contains:

Unfinished books (Incomplete learning experiences).

Others are:

Worthless hand-me-downs (Behavior that may have served another, but is not the Role Model suited to you).

And some are Out rightly false (Learning associated with assumption and ignorance).

But our truth is a form of Faith. We know faith does not require evidence or facts because it operates on the sense of a certain Rightness or Goodness that resides from deep within. They are feelings of a kind of knowledge which has no questions associated with it. It is the Ego which generates the questions to pollute the purity of such feelings and leave us with choices that can confuse us or even end up hurting us.

To cultivate an ear that listens to the truth offered by these inner feelings, is to allow your INTUITION to develop and therefore assist you in the task of inner-unification. To achieve this would then make you a talented, happy, whole, and fulfilled person.

When we are WHOLE, we have simply looked at all our personality aspects and put them into their proper perspective. All these qualities can serve us in our personal growth when they are united. It is only when they are unbalanced in the input to the life we lead, that they misguide us and coerce us into making bad choices that bring us pain.

CONTEMPLATION:

I am of many parts...

...and my goal is to make

them Equal.

My goal is to

BECOME WHOLE.

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