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Page 1 of 3 Today,
I"ll be sad for awhile.
Today,
I'll be scared for awhile.
I am all that I am at the time that I am
Acceptance is acknowledgement without control. When I acknowledge my feelings, my pains, my likes, my dislikes, my needs, my limits, my choices, my opinions, and my thoughts without control, I'm accepting myself. And I know that the more I detach the more I'll accept myself and other people. I also know. . ., "That I know what I know at the time I know it." And that's going to change. Acceptance (acknowledgement without control) is love..
I am human. As human I am a social creature. I am not without feeling. I am not without pain. The experience of my life will be living life from the inside out and not the outside in i.e. I experience my life from inside of my body. Acknowledging this without control is acceptance. Acceptance is love.
In accepting myself there are constants available to me. One is "self definition" and the other is "change." I am always changing. I change minute to minute, hour to hour, day to day, and year to year. Today I want a hotdog for lunch. Tomorrow I don't like hotdogs; I want a salad for lunch. The next day I like hotdogs again and want some soup to go with it. I am always changing. Sometimes I don't like someone. Sometimes I do. Sometimes I don't like myself. Sometimes I do. Sometimes I don't like something. Sometimes I do. Sometimes I think _____. Sometimes I don't. I'm always changing and moving from one idea or feeling to another and though all the middle gray areas in between. I'm changing all the time, more quickly and less quickly, and all the middle gray area's of quickly and less quickly. This brings me to the next constant, Self- Definition. So who am I? I see that I am always changing. If I were to define myself, I'd say that I am all that I am at the time that I am (since I am always changing). I am all my likes, my dislikes, my opinions, my thoughts, my choices, my needs, my strengths, my weaknesses, my limitations, my feelings, my changes, my behaviors, my addictions, my knowledge, etc. and all the middle gray areas in between. I am not the definition91 of something or someone else. For someone to define me outside of myself is arrogant, absurd, and shallow. I am all that I am at the time that I am and not the definition of anyone out side of myself (I am not the perception of someone else's opinion of me). I am the only one who may define myself with any accuracy. I am all that I am as a result of being myself. And who am I?
I am all that I am at the time that I am
I am all that I am examples:
My Likes (at the time I have them)
- People who smile.*
- People who ask questions as a way to come to know me.*
- People who have a sense of humor similar to mine.*
- People who like to play and be creative.*
- To be held* (with permission).
- Kissing, hugging, cuddling on the couch, spooning, exploring.*
- Making love.*
- To listen to other peoples ideas and dreams.*
- To ski.*
- To dance.*
- Having friends and community.
- To play piano and drums.*
- Space and science fiction.*
- Athletic women* (with a personality).
- Creative women* (artists, musicians, etc., with a personality).
- Intelligent women* (with a personality).
- Men that aren't macho* (who don't maintain the warrior myth).
- To show off.*
- Cooking food alone and with other people for company and conversation.*
- To participate rather than watch* (sports, music, education, etc).
- Humor.*
- Comedy.*
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