Quest for Freedom!

~ An insight into OCD ~ Obsessive Compulsive Disorder

My Obsessively Clean Diary

February, 2001

Dear Diary,
Well Valentine's Day came and went, and I was overwhelmed with the huge sack of cards I received!! Ha, as if.

The weather's quite spring like here at the moment, and the Snowdrops are flowering. I've been going on some longer walks and really enjoying getting out into the countryside. Actually, I've been doing quite a lot of things I wasn't able to do before. I've been to the pictures several times, been shopping on my own, driven for the first time in a few years, and been to my home town shopping, which is a major achievement considering how contaminated it all was to me before.

I had a nice day when I went to see the Psychologist in my home town with Phil. The Psychologist was very impressed with my 90% improvement. We have decided that I should still go to the next group therapy session to consolidate the good work I've done myself.

Afterwards, Phil and I went to some shops that I wouldn't have dared go to before and we had a fun day. We're taking it one day at a time. We went a couple of times to the Marriage Counselor but at the moment we just aren't seeing enough of each other to make it work so we've halted it for now. I'm hoping to be able to start driving again soon! It's my next big OCD challenge and I'm excited about it. I've noticed that sometimes I'm have the urge to touch things and do things more than once because it doesn't feel right. I used to do this when I was a teenager and I'm mindful of doing it again. I don't want to get the Contamination OCD in control only to have another type start. I think it's the stress of my relationship that's making me act this way at the moment. I will have to keep a check on it though. At least I know what it is now, unlike all those years ago when I feared I was going mad!

Oh well, enough for this entry unless I think of anything else to tell you.

Take care everyone and keep smiling!
~Sani~ xx

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