Triumphant
Journey:
A Cyberguide To Stop Overeating and
Recover from Eating Disorders
As Mary gets older she may not be able to put herself in
a trance as easily as she could as a child. Actual events and emotional
memories may approach awareness levels. She may reach for food to help her
maintain oblivion. If food works, and it does for many people, she will
continue to use eating to help her achieve the trance state she feels is
necessary for her survival.
Throughout her life, she may feel body pain and emotional
tremors without connecting them to any outside incident. She may sometimes
attribute these feelings to physical illness or minor accidents. Gradually she
will accept these feelings as "the way she is."
Eventually she may be certain she has these feelings
because she is "bad" or "worthless." She may feel
"special" in her feelings of terrible faults and therefore feel she
deserves special attention in the form of punishment or abandonment.
Mary may feel the physical and emotional feelings she
experienced during the abuse she experienced as a child without connecting
those feelings to her history. Like many people who overeat or binge, she may
not remember sections of her childhood. Her memory blanks may be so thorough,
she will not know she does not remember.
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