The Inner Journey
Getting Off the Roller Coaster

Remember that the ego operates on the pain and concerns that are upon us at the moment. Again, it is bringing about responses through its ingrained duty. In one respect, it is not rational, it is not logical, it is animal. This only proves to me more and more, how primitive this aspect of our nature can really be. It is still only trying to do what it thinks is right which also shows us how very easily it can cause us confusion. To think, we let this part of our nature play such a dominant part in our lives. We have been letting it get away with murder for too long.

When you encounter such a conflict, you must remember two important things. Firstly; It will be your ego who talks in excuses and rationalisations; not your TRUE SELF. And secondly, you need to call on an affirmation to assert your GOODNESS and COMMITMENT to growing in strength and Love. For myself I would say..."I am a good person, and I am trying my best". (For yourself, something else might be more appropriate, but keep its essence based on simple Truth).

I knew I was weary; I knew I was sick and tired of the relentless excuses that would follow my every action, but I also knew that from a wrong choice, I could allow these negative thoughts to gain strength and stop me from becoming a whole and fulfilled person. On the other hand, I also knew that one day my life would turn around and wonderful things would happen for me and the ones that I love. I knew I had to be Patient, I knew I had to have Faith, I knew I had Trust. I believed! ... I've always believed.

Now whenever I ever I have a fear or hesitation in doing some thing, I am able to ask myself peacefully...

"What is it, that I fear ?... and why do I fear it ?"

Upon recognition of my fears, I find that all to often they are quite unrealistic and unreasonable, and that everything will be fine. When I have to, I find that I am now able to go about finding and executing solutions much more effectively. I do this by separating the Truth from the Fear. Sometimes I have to summon up courage, but I know that if step out against the fear, I will feel good about myself. Sometimes I still give in to the fear, but I acknowledge this as a choice; I may still be a slave to fear in one respect, but I am no longer a blind slave.

THE BEGINNING OF THE END:

Part of obtaining the peaceful balance is related to the previous methods or tools employed to expand your awareness. When you come to your own understanding of ego and how it seems to work with you and against you; when you can finally say you're in control, you can then lay aside all the questioning. Occasionally, I'll leave a tea bag on the sink, or not hang up my clothes, but now that I understand what is happening to me; now that I understand the methods that my ego tries to employ, I am no longer dragged down or living unconsciously under its control. In finding the beast that torments me, it turns into a little timid mouse. This is the magic involved in self discovery and there are wonderful revelations awaiting you. Through persistence, patience and courage, you will know of these things.

RADICAL ACTION:

When we consider the actions and effects of radical groups within society, we can recall the times when they began to assert them selves and their beliefs. Such groups are very often called weirdo's, nutters, exhibitionists, and many other names derived from un-thinking. As these people continue to strive and persist in their cause, elements of their beliefs are gradually seen to have substance, and the consciousness of society in turn, eventually swings around to their way of thinking. Initially their views were slammed by ignorance or the implication of the group's belief in that Truth.

In the closing decades of the twentieth century, we have seen tremendous changes in planetary awareness by groups akin to the Green movement. We have also seen radical People Power cause powerful empires to crumble. Through this radical action, the truth of these people was revealed to the world through assertion. This same concept applies at the individual level. By your radical action of pulling apart your inner personalities; turning them upside down and shaking the living daylights out of them, your consciousness will swing around to your new way of thinking and eventually the peaceful balance will be obtained.

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