The Inner Journey
Getting Off the Roller Coaster
THE PEACEFUL BALANCE.
As I grow in awareness everyday, I come to understand that any fear or
concern that comes my way, is my ego trying to get me to avoid a situation
that might bring me some degree of discomfort or pain. I find that in many
situations, the ego is evaluating probabilities that in reality do not apply,
but genuine fears serving to protect me can still easily be identified by the
connecting to my truth. It can be the same for you.
Remember the animal heritage of the ego, its duty is that of survival and we
will always be influenced by this duty because it is part of our humanness. By
understanding this fully, we are able to see that our first responses and
actions may not necessarily apply. The intervention of our ego will always be
with us, so by knowing this, we can come to a peaceful balance between the
input that it has to offer for any given situation, and the input that our
instinct will also put forth.
THE EGO HAS ITS PLACE:
We now know that ego is a normal part of being human, but we also are now very
aware that it has its own particular place in our lives. We know that if
allowed, it can dominate or even get out of control. We under stand the
concept of instinct more fully, and celebrate our spirituality from a knowing
that this is where our significance and true self is found.
Becoming proficient in the process of self examination, I found the ego began
to take on new angles of thought. There were times when I became mentally
exhausted from the continual process of scrutiny. From trying so hard to learn
to stop and think before I would perform any particular action, I found myself
at a point where I needed to prepare for another facet of developing
awareness. I found I became tired of thinking so much, that the effort of
making an effort seemed not to be worth the effort. (That's a mouthful). At
that moment, my ego would come in and criticise me for being lazy. It a crazy
scenario and it's very disheartening. I felt like I was in a no win situation.
How strange and complex this ego is. If we maintain that the ego is fear
based, why would it condemn me for not trying to use an opportunity to expand
and grow? Since the ego relates its fear base to patterns or standards of behavior, the options it will deliver will be referenced to some established
or regular conduct. If we are in the process of changing our life, one would
immediately think that there is now nothing regular happening anymore, but if
we stop to consider, we can find a link between our old thinking and our new
thinking. If we are involved in change, and that change is continual and
ongoing, then this very process is a regular part of our life. The new set of
patterns and standards of behavior that our ego will relate to, is the
pattern of regular change.
Here I can see why it condemned me. I had slipped away from the new pattern of
scrutiny and change, to echo an old way of thinking. From its fear base, it is
fearing that I might slip back into old patterns. It is actually fearing
itself; it is fearing its own method of operation.
The good news in this situation, is to know that the road to personal healing
has now established itself without doubt. The old role model patterns residing
in the subconscious are becoming redundant, and are now being replaced through
the efforts and determination to become new. You would be transforming your
inner most self through the Power of Love.
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