The Inner Journey
Getting Off the Roller Coaster
When negative thoughts begin to manifest as you enter the process of self
examination, you will begin to justify and rationalise your previous behaviour.
Feelings of this nature are the desperate attempts of your Ego trying to bring
itself back into a position of "Master of the helm", or the
seemingly true guiding force of all your actions. But as you go deeper and
further into yourself, you shall start to see the illusions you have been
living with day by day. By laying out the problems and their responses for an
honest assessment, you will see the validity of the choice about to be
implemented, and whether or not it is has a motivation from the Truth. These
assessments can bring you to understandings of how behavior is related to
patterns. If we want to change or break these patterns, we must first
understand them. To gain this knowledge of why we do things will enable great
advances in our personal growth as confusion is replaced by clarity.
To highlight this concept, I shall describe some of the things I found
myself doing through force of habit and laziness, and how I began to challenge
this old way of thinking.
The very first thing I became aware of to help me in promoting my new
discipline, was related to what I did with my clothes as I got ready for bed.
I would drape my trousers and shirt across a chair or sometimes the end of the
bed. As I then awoke to a chance of putting my desire for discipline into
action, I began to consider why I've never used coat hangers very much since
keeping my room tidy since clothes looking fresh would be a good thing. It was
then that the negative thoughts would come charging in with all sorts of
alternatives as to why I should leave them were I placed them.
"Look how neatly you've placed them, they'll be perfectly
acceptable in the morning. You'll probably crease them more as you sit in your
seat on the train tomorrow so why bother."
Time went by and I persevered with the process of hanging up my clothes;
always thinking it was a chore, the one day it hit me, and I said to myself
...
"What is all this fuss over me taking five seconds to employ the
use of a coat hanger".
The arguments can be endless, and the energy one puts into these concerns
can be incredible.
In continuing to increase your awareness of the many avenues available in
cultivating your new discipline, I put forward two other examples to assist in
giving you an understanding of the beauty and simplicity in the method I have
found. Whenever I made a cup of tea, I would leave the used tea bag on the
sink when at the same time I really knew that it would be a good thing to take
it straight to the kitchen tidy. But I would think...
"I can do this later...
Mustn't let my Tea get cold...
Come on... You've had a hard day,
put your feet up and relax."
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