May 25, 2000 -- 11:37 PM
EST
Thinking of buying a freezer for
the garage. Manual is more energy efficient than automatic deforst, and then
chest is more energy efficient than upright but upright is easier to get stuff
out of and organize. www.epinions.com yielded nothing useful on the subject. We'll
browse over the weekend, maybe.
No more cookie baking for Paul. I
don't care if it's an easy way to get some extra calories into him, it's taxing
my patience and my willpower to stay away from what was formerly a trigger food
for me. I can't do it it. I tried to get him to take the tin to work with him
so he could eat it there and then he didn't want to because he said the work
people would kill him.
Frankly, I don't care if the work
people kill him. Better they eat his cookies than me! (Secretly I know that's
not the issue. He just feels like a dork carrying food to work in a lunch box /
bag or bringing in cookies and junk. I happen to know they have Dunkin' Donuts
there everyday, so what's the diference if he brings cookies?!)
He had his appointment with Karen
today. He's put on about a pound or two. Progress in the right direction for
him. I gained a few when I saw her earlier this week. Progress in the wrong
direction for me. Ugh.
His ice-cream sits in the fridge
all day long and I don't dive headlong into that. I don't eat his peanuts. I
don't eat his chips. Cookies, though. Yargh.
I'm attracted to ease. Cookies are
fast food, no dishes, portable, crunchy. They also have a long history of
emotional crutch-ness for me. Not that food ever brought me comfort, but they
remind me of all the times I'd eat them looking for time out. I know now I can
have the time out without the cookies but damn, old habits die hard. I'm better
off just not having any in the house. So we have to figure out some other high
calorie snack for him to have around because cookies are NOT going to
work!
Meanwhile, I had a cranky day
because of the weather. I am baking. It's in the 90's now in FL, heat index of
97 today. That ought to be illegal. Ugh. Yuck! It's only going to get worse and
I remember how irritable I was last summer.
I got my NF shirt in the mail
though for meeting the first $300 benchmark in fundraising. Thanks to all you
beautiful people who pledged so far! If you haven't, why not? :)
I'm getting nervous about the
marathon. I have til the end of summer to confirm which event I will be doing
-- the half-marathon or the full marathon. i want to do the full, but if
training shows I'm not doing so hot, then I will do the half.
The first month went ok, but I
feel like I'm not doing enough in consistancy. I don't stretch enough, I don't
weight train enough, I barely keep up with the cardio schedule. Lately I've
been playing "catch up" more than I'd like on that. I'm not doing too
great on the food journaling either. Karen made me go over it again with her
and measured my body fat percentage and gave me new homework. I sat down today
and mapped out 2 days worth of menus. I was surfing through
allrecipes.com for more
ideas and thankfully the new issue of Vegetarian Times came in and I got
a chance to poke through that.
~Astrophe
  
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