10.1.99

Well, my idea of not sleeping for one night hasn't worked. This is now the 3rd night I'm awake and I still can't sleep :( I did catch a few hours of sleep (4 of them - between 06:00-10:00 in the morning) but that shouldn't be enough. Well guess what: it is ! I actually considered going jogging last night - so I'll be tired enough to sleep. Then I figured it would be kind of strange if I go running at 3 a.m.

I tried to fight it, but this is futile so I might as well use the extra time for something useful (in my case - reading and the internet). Luckily, I don't have to see my therapist until another 2 weeks from now. So by the time I see him, this sleeping problem should be over.

I'm not getting high (manic). This is just my insomnia kicking in. Been there, done that. I'll be awake for a week or so and than crash; sleep for 15-hours a day for about 3-days. Ain't the first time. I'm used to this, so I'll just let it run it's course. At first, I was worried. I thought my internal clock has been going crazy on me again. As I said, I'm basically a night person. It takes me a really long time to get it back to normal once I start sleeping days and being awake at night. This is different. Now I don't sleep day or night. So I'll crash eventually. This usually doesn't take long.

No other news besides that...

Trillian

" The woods are lovely, dark, and deep,
But I have promises to keep,
And miles to go before I sleep,
And miles to go before I sleep."
~ Robert Frost - Stopped by Woods on a Snowy Evening ~

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