You gain strength, courage, and confidence by every experience in which you really stop to look fear in the face. You must do the thing which you think you cannot do. ~ Eleanor Roosevelt ~

9.9.98

Okay, guess it's time for an update. First of all, I'm still not taking any meds and furthermore I no longer have a pychdoc. I dropped him about a week ago. I decided that I no longer want to be under psychiatrist's supervision (GOD I feel so good about that). And for all of you spoil-sporters - I still see my therapist so if something goes wrong he'll howl me back to the shrink before I'll have time to blink. But why talk about that now. I'm doing fine. I'm totally stable (as much as I can be anyway...which isn't saying much).

I have a job and life is generally good to me (can't believe I just said that). I did come up with a theory to explain it (being the pessimistic sort of girl I am): "You can't fall from the floor." That is, once you've reached rock bottom, you can't really go down. So, in order for you to fall again, you must have a good period. I'm having one right now just for the sake of falling again. But, as you can see, so far my self-proclaimed war against brain chemistry is going well. So I won't dwell on maybe's right now.

The only limit to our realization of tomorrow will be our doubts of today. ~ Franklin D. Roosevelt ~

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