I'm not a psychiatrist,
or a therapist or even a social worker.
I'm just another recovering person who is striving to stay clean and sober
today while managing a mental illness.
In that daily journey, I seek to protect and expand what
serenity I have
been able to achieve. . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . .
.
Serenity,
defined as, "the ability to accept life on life's terms" has been
found by
me in the practice of
balance. . . . . . . . . . . . . . .
Balance,
between and within the 12-step program I work for recovery from addictions and
the psychiatric program I work in managing my mental illness. Which does
frequently require the use of medications.
Fortunately, for me, the medications used with any effectiveness for what I
deal with are not addictive as such. Even so, I need to be careful. I needed to
find and need to maintain a fully integrated approach to my recovery,
balancing the needs of my recovery with the needs of managing the mental
illness.
It requires honesty with my support structure in recovery and honesty about
my addictions with the doctors and working with both groups to come up with an
approach that works for me. This has not been easy to do.
I am very fortunate that the mental illness leaves me quite capable of
making informed reasoned choices. The program I use for recovery is not
designed to treat mental illness nor should it be used for such. It does what
it is supposed to do very well. So I use it for just that, staying clean and
sober. It is not going to do a thing specifically for my OCD
(Obessive-Compulsive Disorder). The doctors and the behavior therapist are not
going to keep me sober. If I do not use both, I will neither stay sober nor
will I be able to continue managing my disorder.
I do not know how this page will develop or how my story will. There are
many things I could talk about on Dual Diagnosis. There are many us out there
and not many places to be with fellow travelers. I have been fortunate for the
last few years to be a SYSOP in the CompuServe Recovery
Forum, for the Dual Diagnosis section. I have learned a great deal from the
others that frequent that corner of SoberSpace. Not the least of which is that
there is a tremendous need for awareness and education both in the recovering
communities and in the psychiatric communities.
There is hope for us Dual's. At the time of this writing, I have a little
over 11 years of continuous sobriety. If I had achieved that by myself, I could
take a great deal of pride in that. Being human, I do take some pride in that.
But I did not and could not have come this far without a great deal of support
and help. It's been a true adventure and will continue to be so.